(Clearwisdom.net) Last year there were many small bumps growing on my body, and they were extremely itchy. I could not enlighten to what was wrong. The same thing happened again later. During that whole time, I tried to search within but the condition did not improve. When I shared with fellow practitioners, they said to me, "You have been in this incorrect state for a while. Where have you stumbled?"
I calmed down and studied the Fa, and then again searched within and found many more attachments. One of the main things was that when I studied the Fa, I was not focused or serious enough. I was treating it more like completing a task. Although I was studying every day, I wasn't really getting it. Thus my righteous thoughts were not strong and my faith in Master and in Dafa was also not strong enough. This manifested as fear. I only clarified the truth among family and friends and didn't distribute materials much. I also didn't attach enough importance to sending forth righteous thoughts; I was not treating the three things seriously enough; I had the attachment of showing off and zealotry, and so on and so forth. I never thought about it before searching within, but once I did, I was frightened. I felt sad and sorrowful toward Master. Then I felt Master say to me, "Disciple, hurry and be diligent! There is not much time left." I said to Master in my mind, "Master, I will listen to your words, study the Fa well, assimilate to the Fa, cultivate myself well, and do my best to do the three things well. Please don't worry."
Right when I said this to Master, I suddenly remembered that about a year ago, I had several conflicts with my son. Back then, my son said something very rude. I was angry and said, "I will hit the wall with my head and die. Is that also your business?" I didn't search within at all when I encountered conflicts, and even said something this irrational. How was this the state of a Dafa disciple? I was just like an everyday person at critical moments. Therefore the evil forces were able to find my loopholes. When I realized this, I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate the persecution by the old forces. I have Master to arrange everything for me and not the old forces. I was determined to correct my shortcomings within Dafa.
All of the health problems, that had been torturing me for an entire year, then completely disappeared. It was truly magical. I realized how important every thought of a Dafa disciple is. Thanks Master!