(Clearwisdom.net)
Teacher said, "The people in this world came here for the Fa." ("Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting")
In November 1998, I started cultivating Falun Dafa with the intention of achieving a healthy body. Within a short time, I became healthy and free of pain. I enjoyed a much better life, feeling high-spirited, energetic, and little pressure at work or home.
Exercise sites and Fa-study sites were everywhere. Men and women, old and young, gathered to study the Fa and do the exercises mornings and evenings. Everyone was trying to be a good person by following the Falun Dafa principles Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance. Fa-study and exercise sites were peaceful. They were really a pure land in the human world. Having studied the Fa diligently, I was improving and changing daily.
I cherished being fortunate enough to step into this practice. I told myself that I must overcome every difficulty, attend group Fa-study, and do the exercises in the morning and evening. I also hoped that everyone in the world could take up this practice, and I spoke to everyone about it. Soon, my sister started practicing. I also took my young child to the Fa-study site. My mother-in-law and husband also read the Falun Dafa book.
Looking within to Eliminate Attachments
Alas, only a short time after I stepped into Dafa, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started to persecute Falun Dafa and its practitioners. During those early days, cadres from different levels at my company and policemen came to my home many times, trying to make me renounce the practice. I saw these attempts as great opportunities to talk about the practice and its benefits. Instead of yielding to their demands, I helped them understand the facts about Falun Dafa.
My company's upper management had me monitored by many people, as they feared that I would go to Beijing and appeal for the right to practice Falun Dafa.
I ignored their demands. They then told my family and people in my husband's company to help them. My husband was a timid and stubborn person. He wouldn't listen to me, as he was worried that my cultivation would bring trouble to him and danger to our family. He was often rude and hit me. Maybe this happened because of my attachment to sentiment. I had been restricted by my family for a long time. Why did this happen?
Teacher said in "The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos," Hong Yin Volume II,
"Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in spring
Righteous thoughts can save the people in this world"
When I clarified the facts about Falun Dafa to my company managers and police, I held benevolent thoughts, so they would understand the truth. I hoped that they wouldn't persecute Falun Dafa. My righteous thoughts were strong and I held no fear. With Teacher's help, I disintegrated many evil lives and factors in other dimensions that controlled those people and thus helped those people understand the facts. However, when I talked to my husband about Falun Dafa, I had many attachments. I was trapped in arguments and debates at the human level, unable to disintegrate the evil lives in other dimensions, giving the evil in other dimensions the opportunity to persecute me by taking advantage of my gaps.
I had many attachments, such as resentment. I was distressed because my husband could not distinguish the evil from the righteous. I also feared that he would lose control and attack Falun Dafa, or he would have a temper tantrum and hit me or curse, creating disharmony and bringing problems to my cultivation and the opportunities to speak to people about Falun Dafa. Therefore, I did most of my Fa spreading secretly. I did not do the sacred work of saving people openly. When my human thoughts became stronger, my righteous thoughts diminished, and the evil controlled him more tightly. He didn't want me to meet fellow practitioners or attend group Fa-study. He refused to listen to anything I had to say. When he heard that I did some truth-clarification work, that the police were going to persecute Dafa, or were monitoring us more closely, he became extremely angry and beat me. He also had my parents threaten me. Though I tried to do the three things every day that Teacher asked us to do, I didn't remember to look within and improve. So, I couldn't resolve this situation. It was a difficult situation.
Teacher said,
"A Dafa disciple... what is a Dafa disciple? He's a being created by the most magnificent Law, (enthusiastic applause) and he's rock-solid and as indestructible as diamond." ("Explaining the Fa at the 2003 Washington DC Fa Conference")
When thinking of Teacher's Fa lecture, I asked myself, "Was I as solid as a diamond despite my family's interference?" The answer was "No." I was drawn into my family's moods. It became critical for me to break through the family tribulation and rectify myself in the Fa.
Teacher said,
"The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive Out Interference," Essentials for Further Advancement II)
In the fall of 2006, I started to memorize the Fa. I memorized Zhuan Falun and Essentials for Further Advancement. Later, whenever I picked up a Dafa book, I would read a sentence, memorize it, then read the next sentence, or read and memorize paragraph by paragraph. It was very helpful to study the Fa like this. Every sentence went deep into my heart. I had a new understanding of each and every sentence. I felt that my body was changing at the microlevel. Furthermore, I became clearer on the Fa. I could quickly find my gaps..
I began to understand my husband. For a person like him, having been poisoned by the Party culture, without much positive understanding of Dafa, if I didn't use the benevolence that could melt steel, didn't use strong righteous thoughts to disintegrate the evil factors behind him, didn't follow the requirements of Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance, become a truly good person, show him I cared in every word and every action, and let him feel the greatness and sacredness of Falun Dafa, as well as let him understand the fortune that my cultivation brought to my family, and help him step away from the evil lies and illusions, then how could he be saved? After realizing that, I gradually found him smiling and more relaxed. His attitude towards Falun Dafa and its disciples was changing. He was no longer against fellow practitioners visiting me and I could openly attend group Fa-study and do activities to save people.
Breaking Through the Old Notions, Hurrying to Save People
Since I had a busy job and my husband didn't practice, I felt that I wouldn't have the time to start a material-production center, so I donated money to others. I had been relying on others for materials about Falun Dafa. Later, two of our material-production centers were destroyed in one night, and practitioners working there were arrested and sentenced. Yet, I still didn't recognize my responsibility and gap in my cultivation.
One day, when I complained to our coordinator that we were short of materials and no one wanted to accept my donation, our coordinator said, "Get rid of your fear and do it yourself. Donating money does not bear much risk. You are taking advantage others' work without making an effort." These words woke me up. Teacher told us to "attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism" ("Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature," Essentials for Further Advancement). When local practitioners faced persecution, why couldn't I jump in and help out? I held a severe attachment to comfort, fear, and selfishness. I hadn't realized this. Teacher told us to cultivate to be lords and kings at different levels in the new universe and achieve the required enlightenment. But, had I reached that level? Teacher kept extending the Fa-rectification time, just to wait for us less-than-diligent disciples to make breakthroughs! So I decided to start a materials production site. Benevolent Teacher saw my desire to save people, then arranged for fellow practitioners to buy a new computer and color ink-jet printer for me, install the system, and teach me how to use it. Soon, with their cooperation, we produced beautiful truth-clarification DVDs. We used them for our face-to-face truth-clarification. In addition, we produced other Falun Dafa materials.
Teacher said,
"I hope that now, at the end of this process, Dafa disciples will do their utmost to save more people and do even better, such that their mighty virtue becomes even greater." ("Be More Diligent")
The Fa is the number one priority. So each day when I went out for errands, shopping, or work, I always talked to people about Falun Dafa with the hope of saving them and eliminating the evil factors behind them. I recited the Fa, read articles on the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net), listened to Dafa music, or did housework, while producing the materials. There was enormous joy when assimilating into the Fa. Teacher also helped me clean my environment. My husband no longer interfered with me. He started to help with housework. He became nice and stopped telling me that I was being selfish. My family life and work environment became harmonious. Just as Teacher said,
"If you have strong righteous thoughts, cooperate and coordinate well, and walk your path righteously, everything will get better." ("Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005")
From producing truth-clarification materials and having face-to-face interactions with people to distributing truth-clarification DVDs and advising them to quit the CCP, I clearly felt that my heart's capacity was expanding. If I ran into people who ignored me, said bad things to me, or yelled at me, I no longer saw them as the cause, but looked within and corrected my shortcomings. I strengthened my righteous thoughts and benevolent mind and let go of human attachments. From that time on, everything went well.
My benevolence kept increasing. No matter if it was a male or female, old or young, stranger or someone I knew, and regardless of their education level or social status, as long as I had the opportunity to meet them, I told them the facts about Falun Gong and hoped that they understood.
Also, my righteous thoughts were increasing and my fear was disappearing. In the past, I used to select time, location, or the audience for truth-clarification. I didn't dare to clarify the truth in public for fear of being reported to the police. Now I can distribute truth-clarification DVDs and materials and advise people to quit the CCP face-to-face on the street, in front of many people. I'm no longer scared when I run into bad people.
I still have many human attachments to get rid of and many imperfect areas to further improve. I believe that with Teacher's care and fellow practitioners' help, I will do it better by following Falun Dafa's requirements. I will look within and cultivate well, using Dafa to rectify myself and guide me, and get rid of human notions and attachments.
