(Clearwisdom.net) Over time, my sister borrowed tens of thousands of yuan for her business needs and to pay for treatment when her daughter was ill. When I went to her home around New Year's Day this year, I asked her and her child to do the exercises with me. As usual, she got upset when I mentioned Falun Dafa. The next day I brought the book with me. When I got there, my brother-in-law ignored me, and my niece did not say hello. My sister came out and said, "Today I am having company over for dinner." My brother-in-law said to my sister, "Let's go grocery shopping." Apparently they were driving me out. I did not react, but just said, "Why don't you go ahead," and left. At the door, I saw that my sister appeared to be laughing.
When I got home, my mind became more and more unsettled. I thought, "Now you chase me out. How come you did not chase me out when you were borrowing money from me?" People are supposed to pay their debts at the end of the year, but they did not mention a thing about paying me back. They bought so much stuff for New Year's Day, spending money carelessly, but they did not work hard to make enough money on their own. When would they be able to return my money to me? She is so selfish, and she does not support Dafa...." These thoughts kept churning in my mind and disturbed me for the entire day. When I was doing the exercises at night, I thought, "Do practitioners make money easier? Why should practitioners be taken advantage of? Am I too cowardly? Dafa has its dignity as well as benevolence. Am I spoiling them by being too nice? I will send forth righteous thoughts to make them pay me back the money." I kept thinking about how I could be smoother in talking to my sister to get my money back.
While I was indulging in my thoughts, suddenly I noticed that I was not thinking about what Dafa requires of me. I decided that I wanted to get the money back first, then I tried to find support from Dafa. Was I truly cultivating? Suddenly I came to my senses. I began to truly look inward. I found that I had attachments to profit, jealousy, resentment, not being able to take criticism, criticizing others based on my own standard, and using Dafa to cure a relative's illness. With so many attachments and such a bad field, how could I rectify other people's bad thoughts? For a non-practitioner, the old forces will utilize their bad thoughts to control them and destroy them, and do things against practitioners. My sister behaved as she did precisely so that I could see it and I would cultivate myself. The fact that my sister and her family came to me must be because they believed that I could save them. But I generated wrong thoughts because of my attachment to profits.
Thinking of this, I felt ashamed. Further, I realized my misconception of "Fa-rectification cultivation." I re-studied Teacher's article, "Fa-rectification and cultivation" and corrected my understanding of Fa-rectification cultivation: In Fa-rectification cultivation we need to use our righteous thoughts to deny the persecution against Dafa and practitioners, and get rid of the evil lives in the other dimensions in order to save sentient beings. No matter how people in the world look upon Dafa or treat practitioners, we need to let go of all attachments and be compassionate to all sentient beings. Only in this way can practitioners save people they encounter. In other words, in the Fa-rectification period, it is not that individual cultivation is no longer important. Rather, it is that the requirement has become higher. Only if one can let go of all attachments can one overcome all difficulties, validate Dafa, and save people. When faced with disturbances, although one does not take all things as one would during individual cultivation, it by no means is to let practitioners fight with ordinary people. All conflicts are controlled by the lives in other dimensions and are for us to cultivate. So the first thing we should do when conflicts occur is to look inward. Secondly, one needs to be tolerant of ordinary people. "When we deal with the specific problem we should try our best to be calm and kind to these people who are at the surface" in "Fa-rectification and cultivation".
"To be calm and kind" is true kindness. It is to totally give oneself up, rather than looking for the best ways to accomplish one's own objectives. Thirdly, we need to help people to get rid of the interference and the evil lives that control people from the other dimensions, so they can rationally choose their own future without interference.
