(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing Falun Gong in 1995. Right from the beginning I experienced a lot of physical and mental changes. Quite soon, I recovered from my liver condition. My heart was also purified and my moral standards improved.
Obtaining the Fa and Recovering from Illnesses
My mom was often sick and she passed away at the age of 40. My stepmother also had poor health. Most of our family's income was spent on their medical treatments. Therefore, I chose to become a doctor.
Before I could become a doctor, I fell ill myself and I had a hard time graduating from college. My teacher said, "It's nearly impossible to cure liver ailments. You should get good treatment and take care of yourself. Otherwise..." She didn't finish her sentence, but I knew that it could be cirrhosis or liver cancer.
After I got a job, I paid attention to taking good care of myself, but I didn't get better. I became worried about my condition. Due the mental pressure, I developed insomnia. I could only sleep for two hours at night, which caused me to be very tired all day.
It was so miraculous that after I practiced Falun Gong, all the illnesses disappeared. No matter what time I went to bed every night, I fell asleep very quickly. I felt so happy. Thank you, Master!
On the 15th of the first month of the 1996 lunar calendar, an unforgettable thing happened. We were having dinner and watching TV together. After cooking the dumplings, my husband went out to burn paper money with my son, a New Year's tradition. After 10 minutes, they still hadn't come back. When I went to check if the stove needed more coal, there was a strong smell of gas. My husband hadn't turned off the switch. He was often forgetful. I thought that it must be because the main switch was still on, so I went to turn off the main one. Indeed, it was turned on. I was quickly turning it off when my husband and my son came back in. My husband said that he hadn't turned off the main switch. Our kitchen was no bigger than five square meters and there was another gas container. They were like two bombs! How I thanked Master for looking out after my family! He healed my body and saved my life.
When the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began persecuting Falun Gong, I said to myself, "I will never give up practicing. Falun Dafa is in my heart. If there is only one practitioner left in the world, it will be me."
Learning Dafa and Being Purified in Mind
After I read Zhuan Falun, I felt that what Master said was so true even though, at that time, I didn't know how to look inward. Later on, by studying the Fa and reading fellow practitioners' articles, gradually I knew how to cultivate myself. One day, I suddenly realized that the person with bad thoughts and actions mentioned in the book was me! How could I have such bad thoughts and do such bad things? Although I didn't fight with others for personal gain or compete for advancement at work, and it seemed that I didn't have an attachment to profit, actually, I was afraid of losing money and that was the attachment to personal gain.
Cultivating Diligently and Improving My Moral Standards
When I was working as a doctor, there was a period of time when I could have gotten some income from shady dealings. For example, if I recommended a patient to stay in our hospital, I could get an additional bonus. At the beginning, I was quite surprised about this. In time, I got used to it.
After cultivating in Dafa, I realized that this was taking unfair advantage. As a practitioner, I shouldn't do such things. Still, I found it hard to return the money in my hand. I really needed the money, and no one was going to investigate. However, Master told us that cultivation was the process of getting rid of attachments. At the beginning of cultivation, I hesitated for long time on the issue of loss and gain. Finally, I thought that what Master said was correct and I shouldn't take the ill-gotten income. I returned the money and told them that, as a Dafa practitioner, I shouldn't take the money. I asked them to give it to the patients instead. Then they gave me a deposit book and told me that everyone was doing it and said I should just take it. I took all the money out of the account and returned it.
Nowadays, brothers and sisters always fight for family possessions. As a practitioner, I would like to share a little bit about how I've dealt with such issues. We had two houses in our family that were given to my parents by their employers. After the elderly relatives passed away, my sister-in-law lived in one of the houses and we rented the other one. After housing reform, we bought it and it belonged to my husband and me. My sister-in-law didn't own the other house, but they still lived there. Later on, her employer gave her a house, but she said that they were already used to living where they were and they wanted to use their new house as a rental to save some money for her son's tuition. We didn't say anything. Her son eventually graduated, but they still kept living there until they bought the second house and spent a year decorating it. They lived there for ten years, but we got along with each other quite well.
When my friends and I were talking about it, they all pointed out that this was unfair. If they hadn't mentioned it, I wouldn't have thought about it that way. But since they all talked about it, I also felt it was unfair. Whenever I feel uncomfortable in my heart, I always think of Master's words,
"If something is yours, nobody will take it away, and if something isn't yours, you won't be able to get it even by fighting for it." (Zhuan Falun)
Master asked us to always think of others. Therefore, I said to myself, "Perhaps my sister-in-law has her own reason for doing this. Although the situation may not look fair among everyday people, it may be due to a debt I owed her from past lifetimes." In the final analysis, it was the issue of money and gain. I would listen to Master's teaching, and even if my house was made of gold, I would not be attached to it. Thinking of Master's words, my heart was calm.
At the beginning of cultivation, I was a person with a strong attachment to fame and personal gain. Then I identified my strong attachment. Gradually, I eliminated this attachment. It is cultivation in Dafa that has changed me.
Category: Improving Oneself
