(Clearwisdom.net) I became a Dafa disciple in 1996. Last year during an experience sharing, a practitioner said to me, "I think you might have a problem with the righteousness of your basic starting point. You are still lingering in the state of personal cultivation." I was shocked and replied, "I know we are currently in the Fa-rectification cultivation period. We are cultivating ourselves via saving sentient beings rather than simply cultivating as individuals. How could I still be viewed as being stuck in the state of personal cultivation?" The fellow practitioner replied, "What you just said isn't a rational understanding." I was then even more puzzled. The practitioner wasn't in a hurry to explain, so we continued our discussion on other topics. The more we talked, the more I realized the fundamental difference between my narrow and limited view versus the broad understandings of this fellow practitioner. I came to understand that I was indeed in the state of personal cultivation. Although I also talked about the Fa whenever a problem occurred, my basic starting point was always around self.
The discovery stunned me. Because of my inability to keep up on the path of Fa-rectification, I had wasted years of precious time. This alone made me realize the negative impact I had on the overall progress of Fa-rectification in my local area. As I took on critical roles in some projects, my state caused me to fail to play the part I was supposed to. Even more so, it caused me to fail to advance along the Fa-rectification path that Master arranged for my area. With the intention of improving only my personal cultivation, I chose to do the three things based on my own preference. My ignorance of the concept of group and cooperation led me to believe that doing the three things well individually could be viewed as cooperating as one body.
If we put the Fa first in everything we do, and if we focus on constantly cultivating away our selfishness, we will be able to keep up with Fa-rectification instead of going astray onto the path of validating self, or viewing Fa-rectification work based on our personal cultivation. Only then will the Fa be revealed to us. Because everything comes from the Fa, we must let go of selfishness to protect and safeguard the Fa. When we let go of selfishness when cooperating with others, we'll be able to assimilate to the characteristics of the new universe and meet the requirements of the Fa. Yet, not only has my selfishness lingered, but it also expanded to a point that has separated me from the group. I was unable to fully understand the coordination work done by others when they did things based on an initial righteous starting point. I did the three things as well, yet the ultimate purpose was for improving my personal cultivation. Naturally, I didn't meet Master's requirement.
Now that I understand the nature of Fa-rectification, I have come to know how and what to do to cooperate with the group and harmonize with the Fa. I shall no longer view doing things as cultivation for Fa-rectification. I hope that those who share similar thoughts can benefit from this.
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