(Clearwisdom.net) A practitioner once informed on me to the police under pressure, and put me in danger. In studying the Fa and with Teacher's guidance, I passed the test. The practitioner later returned, but had renounced Falun Dafa, and because of her, I had to go into hiding, as the police were still looking for me. I was wondering if I should see her and worried about my safety.
Practitioners are one body and she used to be one of us. Teacher wants us to help former practitioners return to the practice. I realized that I had to let go of self and the attachment of fear. I needed to help her with the wisdom the Fa gave me and the principles promulgated by the Fa, so she could break the old forces arrangements and practice Falun Dafa again. I asked several practitioners to come along when visiting her. She was embarrassed when she saw me, saying, "I informed on you and brought the police to your house. Are you ok?" Although I told her that I was fine, I continued to have ill feelings. When exchanging experiences, my mind was not at ease, and held disturbing thoughts such as, "The first time you brought the police to my house, I almost died. I didn't complain. I studied the Fa with you, shared experiences, and looked within. Then, you did it again and as a result I'm homeless." All the bitterness and emotions spilled out of my heart. I felt sorry for my child. He lost his father and his mother no longer could return home. My mind was filled with anger towards her and an attachment to my child. The sharing session did not end up well.
I went home and studied the Fa. Teacher said,
"As for those who've gone to the opposite side during this persecution or even done awful things, let me tell you that Master still doesn't want to abandon them ("Touring North America to Teach the Fa").
"My point is, you shouldn't push your fellow cultivators away. They are fellow cultivators, and you should try your best to have them feel the warmth with which Dafa disciples interact with one another." ("Fa Teaching Given at the NTDTV Meeting")
I cried upon reading Master's words. Looking at her tribulation, I realized that I had been unkind and had a lot of human notions. Instead of relieving her pain, I told her how much I had suffered and put pressure on her. Teacher did not want to abandon her, so why did I dislike her? The old forces wanted to take her down. Wasn't I helping them?
I had forgotten to look within to find out what human notions were interfering with me. I was holding on tightly to the elements from the old universe. I repented and vowed to eliminate the bad elements.
I let go of self and the attachments of hate, emotions and fear. I went to the practitioner's house again hoping to find out what allowed the persecution to interfere with us. In the process of sharing, we realized that we needed to study the Fa more, to align our thoughts and behavior with the Fa every moment, and to look within at every moment. It is of utmost importance that we discover our attachments that are exploited by the old forces and eliminate them.
Everything we encounter in our practice is a good thing. Through it, we can find our attachments and gaps and eliminate them. It's an opportunity to improve. If we lapse and don't look at everything with righteous thoughts, the attachments can grow exponentially and with them our tribulations.
