(Clearwisdom.net) (continued from Part 1: http://clearwisdom.net/html/articles/2011/1/5/122326.html)
Letting go of human attachments and setting up a family materials production site (continued)
I got a job working for a friend, and it was during this time that my husband sent me the divorce papers, which I refused to sign. My husband didn't return to our home after that. My parents and brothers warned the public security agencies that if the harassment continued, my family would sue them. The public security agencies were less persistent after that.
That was a time when I felt a tremendous mental burden. I was poor and couldn't afford basic daily necessities. I could not stop thinking about my husband, and my heart ached when I thought about him. Every day after work I sat down to study and memorize the Fa teachings. I felt Teacher's compassion from every word in the Fa encouraging me to keep going. As I studied more, I saw my human notions in another dimension: I, as a practitioner, had my husband in my arms naked. I thought of Teacher's lecture on male-female dual cultivation. I began to send righteous thoughts every day to eliminate the deteriorated elements in me. Gradually, my human notions weakened and my righteous thoughts became stronger.
I believed that it was time for me to set up a truth-clarification materials production site in my home. I did not have much money, so I asked my brother to help me find a job with decent pay. My brother taught at a university and was a smart person. After I told him about my cultivation experience he told me, “I believe Falun Dafa is worth spending time on. However, if you want to make people realize the true benefit of it, you have to talk about it over and over, like teaching students.” I laughed. He gave me some money to settle in and found me a job. I got help from practitioners who knew how to set up a computer and to make the truth-clarification materials. Thus the site was successfully established.
Progressing diligently and saving sentient beings
After the site was set up, my financial situation got better. My youngest brother found me a good paying job. The day I went to work, I saw in another dimension that the general manager of the company had prepared a feast for me. Teacher said in his article "Righteous Thoughts," "Dafa disciples are now sentient beings' only, sole hope for salvation." During the three years that I worked at the company, I helped many coworkers quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Some of them read the teachings of Falun Gong and expressed a desire to practice in the future. I discovered that those who understood the facts of the persecution would find a better job and leave in less than a month. Then, new coworkers would come around to listen to the truth.
I remember one young man in particular. The way he talked and acted was despicable, and I didn't want to talk to him about Dafa because I didn't think he deserved it. He lived next to me in the dorm. One day another coworker told me that every weekend after I went home, he would pry open my door and use my things. I was really angry but did not say anything to him. One day he called me and said, “Sister, I have finished reading the book Zhuan Falun in your room. Every weekend you went home, I opened your door and borrowed it for two days.” I laughed. He then told me in all seriousness, “Falun Dafa is great!” After that I stopped judging people based on their appearance.
Every day after work, I would go to a library to study the Fa. On the way back to the dorm I would mail letters containing truth-clarification materials. I sent righteous thoughts four times a day. Also, I made it a point to send righteous thoughts at three additional times every morning. The power of Fa study and sending righteous thoughts allowed the materials-production site to run smoothly. My cultivation environment also improved. My relatives and friends did everything they could to help me and protect me from the CCP. I saw in another dimension that I was dragging a heavy cart full of objects. My parents and brothers were helping me push the cart forward. My father yelled at the gangsters who tried to rob my cart. I also saw that my friends and family were watching my every thought. My older brother even reminded me that I had to study the Fa with a calm mind.
When I went home on the weekends, I spent all of my time making informational materials. My two computers and two printers worked around the clock so that I could print 100 copies of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party plus Minghui Weekly, booklets, and CDs. I worked independently, from buying the materials I needed and hauling them upstairs to fixing the machines when they had problems.
At times I felt lonely working on my own all the time. When I waited for the bus in the cold after work, seeing couples walk past made me feel alone. When the feeling of loneliness arose I would hear Teacher's voice, “You must have a sense of constantly climbing up. That's cultivating.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference”) On hot summer days, I had to turn off the fan in order to cut out copies of the Nine Commentaries. I was soon covered in sweat. However, I would hear Teacher say, “real Buddhas are guardians of the cosmos and are responsible for all righteous elements in the cosmos.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference”) When I had to wake up in the middle of the night to add paper to the printers, I would hear, “We obtain that de through suffering, enduring setbacks, and doing good deeds.” (Zhuan Falun) [Ed. Note: de translates as virtue]
Yes, Teacher is right next to me every moment. He knows me the best, even my tiniest thoughts and the most trivial details of my life.
It's been four years since the materials production site was established. Practitioners did their best to harmonize what Fa-rectification demanded: they donated money, helped with mailing, or edited the materials. I dreamed that the practitioners were picking up all the fruits in their homes. The fruits were big and heavy and they filled up basket after basket. The number of sentient beings in my world increased; every cosmic body had fruits growing on all of the trees, the beings lived peaceful and orderly lives, and the children went to school and learned Falun Dafa from text books. When I flew past every cosmic body of mine, I would hear grand and sacred music and praises sung by the sentient beings.
Cultivating during Fa-rectification is so sacred and magnificent. The process of practitioners fulfilling the needs of Fa-rectification is the process of beings saving themselves in the universe.
Negating the old forces' persecution and walking the path of Fa-rectification
At the end of 2007, the company I was working for went out of business and I lost my source of income. I stayed at home for a month but couldn't find a new job. The business my father invested in for me lost money as well. Both my family and I were in financial difficulty. Some practitioners suggested that I make informational materials full time and use part of the site's money to support myself. I felt that that was not right and that I should not live off practitioners' money that was meant for saving sentient beings. I stopped worrying about financial problems and decided to calm down, study the Fa, and examine myself.
I saw my problems when I read “Hospital Treatment and Qigong Treatment” in Lecture Seven in Zhuan Falun. I was so eager to solve my financial problems that I had become a Western dentist pulling a bad tooth. I had not solved the problem, in fact, I had delayed Dafa work and caused money to be wasted. Also, I had been engaged in making more and more information materials and had begun to view the amount of Dafa work as a measure of the quality of my cultivation. For a long time, I didn't have an in-depth understanding of the Fa and could not guarantee a pure and selfless heart behind the work I did for sentient beings.
I stopped the work at hand and began to share with other practitioners. I suggested that they set up sites in their own homes. Several of them bought computers and began to make CDs, booklets, and to print materials. This way, I had more time to focus on solving my financial problems.
I lived close to a school and planned to tutor students in my home and to help them with their homework and study for tests. This would allow me to have plenty of time to do Dafa work at home. As I was going to post advertisements to recruit students, my attachments to vanity and fear of losing face emerged. I had been an outstanding student in the eyes of my teachers and classmates since I was very young. My husband and I used to have the jobs and marriage that everyone envied. However, I had been fired from my job because of my practice and my husband wanted to divorce me. None of my former coworkers talked to me anymore. What would everyone say about me if I started tutoring students after school?
After sharing my fears with other practitioners, they laughed. I realized that I was worrying for nothing. The next day, I made a large advertisement and posted it. A few days later, I got phone calls asking me about the class and my teaching credentials. Some of the callers were my former coworkers. They were surprised. I talked to them with a peaceful and pleasant mindset. A week later, I still did not have any students. I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate any interference. While I was doing that, I saw in another dimension that the school door opened and students rushed out running toward me. Those who ran faster got to be placed in the front row of my class.
Eventually, several students came to me. I only took four and charged a higher fee for each. I signed contracts with their parents. This way I did not have to leave home and had solved my money problems. I also had ample time for my cultivation. The four students later quit the CCP's affiliations and their grades went from the bottom to the top of their classes.
Before the Beijing Olympics in 2008, I was arrested and sent to a forced labor camp. Local practitioners sent righteous thoughts. Practitioners overseas called the camp asking for my release. My family did everything they could to obtain my release. I was released as a result of all of these efforts. To avoid further persecution and bringing losses to local practitioners, I found a good job out of town.
I left home but continued my mission in Fa-rectification. I learned how to clarify the facts of the persecution by making calls on a cell phone.
Teacher said,
“human society is one big practice site for the cultivation of my Dafa disciples, and you can cultivate no matter where you are. It just depends on whether you are diligent or not in your cultivation.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2007 New York Fa Conference”)
In the future, I will continue to walk the path of Fa-rectification well and progress diligently to save more sentient beings and repay Teacher's immense Buddha grace.
