(Clearwisdom.net) After Master's article “Turning the Wheel Towards the Human World” was published in February 2005, many Falun Dafa practitioners withdrew from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations through the Internet. I also asked a practitioner to help me quit via the Internet.
Although I had announced my withdraw on the Internet, I still had to attend all the brainwashing meetings and events that the CCP held at my workplace. I felt very bad listening to all their propaganda. In May 2005 I decided to submit an application to formally quit the CCP, and gave the application to the company's party committee. I told my husband, and as he was a member of the company's executive team, he was strongly opposed to my decision. Six months passed, and my husband told me that the general manager was shocked by my application to quit the CCP. He asked indirectly if I was still practicing Falun Gong and wanted to know my thoughts on the CCP. After that meeting I did not attend any of the CCP's meetings or events. My husband was not affected by my quitting the CCP. I later clarified the facts to my husband and asked him to read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. He also withdrew from the CCP on the Epoch Times website using his real name.
– from the author
Greetings, Revered Master! Greetings fellow practitioners,
The 2011 annual Internet Experience Sharing Conference in China is beginning its eighth conference. Before this conference, I thought I was not cultivating very well, as I had not been doing the three things well. I felt I had nothing to write, and I missed all of the seven previous Fahui conferences. Recently, through studying the Fa and reading other practitioners' sharing articles, I suddenly realized that during the period of the Fa-rectification, the Internet conference is a special cultivation format that Master gives to practitioners in China. Master has confirmed this format, however not only did I not participate but I found excuses to avoid the conferences. So at that time did I really believe in Master and Fa? Did I deserve the title of being Master's disciple? I searched inward and found the roots of many of my attachments. Selfishness, in that I only wanted to read other practitioners' sharings. It takes so much time to write sharing articles. I worried that it would affect my Fa study and exercise practice. I also recognized laziness, (I would have to make a big effort to write an article), and vanity (I worried my article would not be accepted because I didn't write well, and practitioner/editors would say my writing skills were below par). Since finding my attachments, I knew I would have to eliminate them, and only then I could report these three deep cultivation experiences to Master and share them with other fellow practitioners.
Our Thoughts Are Righteous When There Is No Fear
When the persecution started in July 20, 1999, the evil propaganda and lies blanketed China as the persecution escalated. My company leaders asked me to write a guarantee statement promising not to practice Falun Gong or appeal for Falun Gong. They also asked me to turn in my identification card. I refused to write the guarantee to stop practicing Falun Gong or appeal for Falun Gong. Instead I wrote that I would follow state laws and regulations, as well as company regulations, and I would not do anything to harm the nation and the Chinese people. I also did not turn in my identification card. Soon after, in late 2001, my husband told me that the party secretary said that the higher authorities would hold a brainwashing class in the city and all Falun Gong practitioners in our company were to attend the class. The practitioners would not be released until they were "transformed."
At that time, I understood the Fa perceptually and did not think rationally from the viewpoint of the Fa. And I didn't think to use my righteous thoughts. I said justly that I had not committed any crime, so why should I go? I decided not to go. My husband said I would be fired if I didn't go. I said, “I don’t believe you. I’ve achieved better health and my moral standards have also improved. I have not violated state laws or company regulations. Who will dare to fire me?” I had no fear but, just that one righteous thought. Although I still had an argumentative mentality, none of the company leaders came to see me. Later, after I read more of Master's articles, I understood that all of this was a test for me by the old forces, to see if my mind was moved. Because I had such a righteous thought, Master dissolved the tribulation for me. Actually one righteous thought is good enough to negate the old forces' arrangement and disintegrate the evil persecution.
After Eliminating Attachments the Family Environment was Rectified
I began studying the book Zhuan Falun in late 1996. Prior to July 20, 1999, when the persecution started, my husband supported me and acknowledged that Falun Dafa was good. However, after the evil started to persecute Falun Gong on July 20, 1999, he was poisoned by the evil propaganda, and had many doubts about Dafa. Although he was not totally opposed to me practicing Falun Dafa, he didn't allow me to go out to contact other fellow practitioners. At that time, he was a mid-level manager in our company and worried that my Falun Gong practice would affect his position. The company watched Falun Gong practitioners very closely and feared that if the practitioners held meetings and went to appeal, it would directly affect the company. As I never said I would give up practicing Falun Dafa and didn't turn in my identification, the company leaders exerted pressure on my husband and asked him to watch me well, otherwise his career would be jeopardized.
Without my husband knowing I stayed in contact with two or three fellow practitioners. When the practitioners sent us copies of Falun Gong flyers, we distributed them in our residential areas, which was our initial step of clarifying the facts about Falun Gong to the Chinese people. Although we didn't know the deep significance of clarifying the truth at that time, we just wanted to let people know that Falun Gong was good. We received and delivered Falun Gong materials every week, and the practitioner subsequently bought a computer and printer. With help from the practitioners, he set up a materials production site. I often went to his home and learned how to produce Falun Gong materials. Then, with help from him and his wife, I also bought a printer to produce Falun Gong materials myself.
Over two years, I managed to produce the flyers with out my husband knowing. I made flyers when he was not at home. He would sometimes come back early, but I always managed to hide the materials and equipment quickly so he wouldn’t find out what I was doing. One day as I had just finished, he came back early and saw all the materials on the bed, including a computer, printer, paper trimmer, sealer, and the Falun Gong materials I had just produced. He began to shout at me, “Don't you want to live? You are becoming more and more dangerous for us. You even dare to use my computer ?” The company gave him the laptop I was using. He shouted at me to take the newly-made flyers away. Fortunately I was one step ahead him and I managed to calm him down while putting the flyers in a safe place.
That night, I thought about this incident for a long time. I knew that I had to produce Falun Gong materials, and I could not always do it behind my husband's back. I was not do anything wrong. In fact it was just the opposite, as the purpose of producing these flyers was to allow people to learn the facts about Falun Dafa. I realized that it was time to talk more deeply with him. At that time, I didn't think to use righteous thoughts, as I just wanted to persuade him with everyday human thoughts. I said to him that I would produce the materials just once a week, and the quantity would be low, which would not bring us any problems. However, my husband stamped his feet with rage and said, “You don't know how lucky you are. Don't you know you could destroy our family? I was just promoted to a better position and in other families the wife always follows the husband's lead. You play a different tune with me. Why do you want to endanger our family by opposing the government? Do you think you can defeat them? I was so generous to allow you to practice at home. I gave you an inch and you took a mile. We will divorce if you keep this up.”
My husband's shouting made me think that I cultivate Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and I did nothing wrong. Dafa is being persecuted and Master has been slandered. This situation needs to end so what was wrong in producing materials that help people understand the truth of the matter? Master pointed out the direction to Dafa disciples at the beginning of the unlawful persecution, which was to keep validating the Fa, clarifying the truth, and saving sentient beings. I did not need to beg for my husband's permission to produce the flyers. I firmly and calmly said to my husband, “I’ll talk it over with you because I respect you. No matter whether you agree or not, I will definitely produce these materials every week. In my years of practicing Falun Gong, you are the one who most clearly saw the changes in my body, and you also benefited a lot from Dafa. Regarding your position, it will remain yours if it was truly meant to be yours. If you fear your so-called career future will be affected by me and want a divorce, then just go ahead and do it.” My husband's attitude then completely changed and he smiled and said to me, “I mainly worry about you. I fear you will be taken away and this is very stressful for me. I know that Falun Dafa is good, but our environment is so dangerous…” I immediately assured him that I would not have any problem. I showed him the materials I produced, helping him realize that people have the right to know the truth. Since then my husband has never interfered with me producing materials at our home.
Through this incident, I realized that righteous thoughts naturally come as we let go of our attachments. I was not attached to the threats about my husband's job and him divorcing me. I had a simple thought that I would produce Falun Gong materials no matter what, which was righteous. These powerful righteous thoughts disintegrated the evil behind my husband and as a result his true side awoke after understanding the situation.
I can now openly produce Falun Gong materials at home. My husband doesn't interfere with me at all. He reminds me to be careful on so-called sensitive days. Of course practitioners don't acknowledge these sensitive days.
During the period when he interfered with me, I searched inward to find attachments. I found I had a strong attachment to doing things and ignoring housework. I also didn't look after my husband. I corrected myself immediately when I saw the problems. Later on, I did all the housework and tried my best to make time to share with my husband. We read the flyers and watched New Tang Dynasty TV programs. He gradually understood the truth about the persecution and understood why Falun Dafa practitioners clarified the facts to so many people. He was also willing to drive me around to distribute the flyers along other fellow practitioners.
With Righteous Thoughts I Withdrew from the CCP at My Workplace
The Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published at the end of 2004. I read it carefully and saw clearly the true nature of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). As a Dafa disciple, I felt very ashamed that I was a member of the CCP. After Master's article “Turning the Wheel Towards the Human World” was published in February 2005, many practitioners withdrew from the CCP using the Internet. I also asked a practitioner to help me withdraw on the Internet. I work for a state-run enterprise and we have many CCP member meetings and activities at my workplace. In addition, an organization activity is held for all CCP members once every month. Although I had withdrawn from the CCP on the Internet, I still had to participate in various CCP brainwashing meetings and activities at my workplace. I felt really bad. I kept feeling that I was still being repressed by the evil spirit of the CCP. I realized through previous Fa study that a person's brain is like a container, and that it becomes whatever you fill it with. I am a Dafa disciple. I should fill my brain with the Fa. The CCP's false reasoning and lies are things that I should disintegrate completely from my being. I repetitively studied Master's article “Turning the Wheel Towards the Human World,” and in the end I decided to submit an application to withdraw from the CCP at the party branch of my workplace, and to truly be rid of the Communist evil spirit's poison and control.
I told my husband of my decision. (He is among the leadership in my workplace and I wanted him to be prepared for my decision.) My husband was strongly opposed to my decision. He said that I was trying to kill his career by doing this. He was so worried that he grabbed me, slapped me, cursed at me for being mentally sick, and called me a crazy woman. I tolerated his beating and curses, and I realized his attachment to fame, profit, and fear as an everyday person. I tried to comfort him, “I will apply to withdraw from the CCP. I am firm about this no matter what. This is my business and it won't affect you. If it really affects you, then it's even more proof of the CCP's evil nature. The CCP evil doctrines will implicate nine generations of a family! I would advise you to withdraw from the CCP as well.” My husband was very angry but quite speechless. He threatened, “I will divorce you if you really withdraw! And you will not get any of our property!” My heart was very calm and I was not moved.
I submitted the application to withdraw from the CCP to a secretary of a party branch at my workplace on May 17, 2005. The secretary was shocked and asked me whether I had any burden on my mind and whether I was still practicing Falun Gong. I said that that had nothing to do with my decision to withdraw and it is an issue of my personal belief. The secretary said, “You must think it through carefully. People want to become party members, and no one has ever withdrawn from the party. Only those people who commit wrongdoings are dismissed from the party.” I said, “Isn't it stated in the party constitution that joining the party is voluntarily and withdrawal from the party is free? Why can't I withdraw?” The secretary said, “We have not had such a precedent at our workplace or in the upper level organization. We need to study your case and report to the upper level.” I said, “That's your business. Anyway, I have submitted the application today. I'm no longer a member of the party.”
After that, whenever I was notified to attend a meeting or hand in party membership dues, I answered that I had withdrawn from the party, that they no longer needed to notify me, and that I would no longer pay membership dues. Half a year passed by and one day in December 2005, during lunch break, my husband came home and told me that my application to withdraw from the CCP had alerted the chief of our upper level organization. The chief asked me to go to his office after lunch that day to have a chat. The secretary at my workplace didn't report to the higher level that I had applied to withdraw from the CCP, for fear that this incident would also have a negative effect on his career. Since I had not attended any CCP activities or meetings, the majority of party members at my workplace already knew that I’d applied to withdraw from the CCP. Later the news reached the chief, who initially talked with my husband and asked him to try to persuade me to change my mind. My husband told him that he was not able to change my mind, so the chief decided to talk with me in person.
I hesitated as to whether I should go or not. After thinking about it for a while, I decided to go, thinking that the chief was also a sentient being. It's just that he works at a higher position than me, and that to withdraw from the CCP is my choice of belief, and no one can stop me!
I went to the chief's office and he spoke off topic by indirectly trying to put communist ideology in my mind while at the same time trying to figure out whether I still practiced Falun Gong. I took the lead and directly talked about my withdrawal from the CCP. Seeing me talk straight, the chief started to talk about CCP's achievements and mistakes and advised me not to play a joke with my political life, etc. I said, “Speaking about age, you are older than me. Speaking about the CCP, I know as much as you do. Furthermore, to withdraw from the CCP is my personal choice of belief. You can't force me to believe anything, right?”
The chief said, “That's true. But you need to think about your husband and his career. He is a leader in your workplace.” I answered, “Withdrawal from the CCP is my personal decision and it has nothing to do with him. How could it have any affect on him? If it indeed affects him, then it shows that the CCP is really problematic.”
I joked, “Implicating nine generations of a family is a product from feudalism and despotism systems, right?” The chief could not persuade me to change my mind, and in the end he said with a tone of soft appeal, “There isn't a precedent like your case in any upper level organization of this province. Since you have submitted an application, we have no choice but discuss it. If after discussion, we really submit your case to a higher level, it will surely have a negative effect on our enterprise's building of civilization and on all our employees' benefits. You see...”
I understood what he was trying to say and decided to offer him a way out. I said firmly with a peaceful tone, “Considering your dilemma, I can take back my application. The application written on paper is just a formality. The purpose of my withdrawal is to eliminate the control of the evil CCP spirit in my heart, and to reduce the evil spirit's energy. But my heart has already withdrawn from the CCP. So from now on, I will not attend any party meetings, study sessions, or activities, and I will no longer submit membership dues. You should not use that to negatively evaluate my performance!” The chief immediately said, “OK, you just need to communicate this to the party secretary at your workplace.”
At that point, I had formally withdrawn from the CCP at my workplace and I no longer attended any party activities or meetings. It felt like a heavy burden in my mind had been suddenly removed. With no control from the evil spirit, I felt very light. My husband's career was not affected and he never mentioned divorce ever again. Later on I explained the facts and encouraged my husband to read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, and he also withdrew from the CCP using his real name, via the Epoch Times website. He is still a leader at the workplace. I know that Master has been helping me and it is Master who did it. I merely had that simple and firm thought from the very beginning.
These three cultivation incidents during the Fa rectification period helped me experience deeply the power of righteous thoughts. I am writing to report to Master and share with fellow practitioners. Please correct me if there is anything inappropriate. In fact, in this over ten years of cultivation during the Fa rectification period, practitioners who have strong righteous thoughts, have been cultivating diligently, and doing three things well can be found all over China. Through writing this article in these few days and reading practitioners' experience sharing articles, I discovered many of my attachments. One practitioner said, “Writing an article for the Minghui website is a process of improving and cultivating oneself.” Writing this sharing for the Fahui was a turning point for me, to truly cultivate diligently with my heart by doing the three things well, and to be a worthy Dafa disciple during the Fa rectification period!
Thank you Master! Thank you practitioners! Heshi.
