(Clearwisdom.net) During the Chinese New Year holiday time, when visiting relatives, I found many of them still had a picture of the former CCP head Mao or decorations with Mao’s photos. I told them that under Mao's leadership 80 million Chinese people died during numerous political campaigns for reasons unrelated to war. Most of the people I talked with had either experienced this firsthand, or knew about those catastrophes and knew that many lives had been lost. But because the CCP covered the facts, they did not know that the death toll was so high. I also found that once the blockade of fear is removed, it is relatively easier for young people to listen to the truth. For example, many young people I talked with accepted the facts without hesitation. In another dimension I also saw a young woman's dark body become bright upon accepting the truth and I knew that she was saved.
However, if we miss a day and do not study the Fa or read the Minghui website, the old forces may take advantage of us and interfere, dragging us onto paths arranged by them. After visiting the relatives and returning home, because of the relaxed holiday atmosphere, I spent more time on the Internet and watching everyday people's videos than studying the Fa. Gradually, I slacked off in my cultivation and often ran into conflicts with my wife over household chores and our child's education.
I am a quiet person and seldom run into conflicts with other people. In Zhuan Falun Master said, “But normally when a problem arises, if it does not irritate a person psychologically, it does not count or is useless and cannot make him or her improve.” This was even more serious when we did poorly in Fa-study. During the argument, I did not raise my voice. However, I lost my temper and even threw household utensils on the floor. In my mind, I was thinking, “Life cannot continue like this. I should file for a divorce.”
Later that evening as I thought it over, I looked within and apologized to Master. When I was able to calm down and look at the situation from the standpoint of the Fa, I found my selfishness and attachment to sentimentality. I felt these attachments were very stubborn and existed on many levels. As I continued to look within and asked Master for help, I also sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate these attachments. Then, with enlightenment from Master, I began to rectify things with the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, across all particles at all levels, to the most microscopic level of my existence. At that time, I felt that Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance was rotating around me like three giant, pure, white lotus flowers. Then it was as if these three giant flowers turned into three universes inside my body, and united together with my body. I felt my dimensions were purified and I no longer had any anger.
Later that night I had a dream. I had gone back to the place where I used to live, but now it seemed like a slum. An enemy was chasing me and I had to take my family and run. In the end, when we were hiding in a small, old house, the enemy came in and found us. However, as he threateningly waved his sword towards us, I thought of killing him. With that one thought, the place suddenly turned into a bloody scene. Right before I descended to the level of a demon, I woke up. With the realization that this had been a test, I regretted that I had not been able to stay in the Fa at all times. When I was unable to meet the xinxing requirement and became angry, in other dimensions it could indeed be a bloody scene.
Through this incident, I looked within and realized that with every thought and deed, we have to conduct ourselves according to the Fa's principle and remind ourselves that we are Dafa disciples. We should regard the Fa as teacher and not slack off. When we are not in the Fa, the old forces could take advantage of us and interfere, causing unnecessary losses.
There are many things we can do to constantly purify ourselves. We can read Zhuan Falun and other articles by Master, as well as practitioners' articles on the Minghui website. Rather than wasting our precious time on everyday materials, we should remain diligent. We must remember that there are many people who are waiting for us to save them, and we are here to assist Master with Fa-rectification.
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