(Clearwisdom.net) During my recent interaction with a fellow practitioner, I often heard her talking about the shortcomings of one practitioner or the attachments of another. My initial thought was that this practitioner should not spread rumors and should cultivate her speech. I did not think that I should look within.
When I saw that practitioner again, she mentioned why she thought negatively about one practitioner and how another practitioner acted unfavorably. I suddenly realized that something was wrong, and carefully recalled what my first thought was when I heard her words. I found that I was happy to learn that these well-known practitioners were just mediocre, as if they weren't any better than me. I then found a strong jealousy towards practitioners who have cultivated well. I was happy when I heard that some actions of theirs were not on the Fa, which made me think that I had cultivated well in comparison. What a dirty and dangerous mindset!
Master said,
“The issue of jealousy is very serious as it directly involves the matter of whether you can complete cultivation practice. If jealousy is not abolished, everything that you have cultivated will become fragile. There is this rule: If in the course of cultivation practice jealousy is not given up, one will not attain Right Fruit—absolutely not” (Zhuan Falun).
It is almost the end of Fa rectification and I still harbor these dreadful attachments. I really feel sorry and apologetic to Master and sentient beings. When I think about my behavior in the past, I realize that this mindset was a result of my failing to study the Fa well for a very long period of time. No matter how well one has cultivated, if one has been away from the Fa for a long time, one will slack off and become more human and less divine. That is why Master always asks us to study the Fa, study the Fa, and study the Fa. This loophole of mine has allowed various human mentalities to surface without restraint, which has affected my ability to do the three things well and damaged the cooperation among Dafa practitioners as one body.
I hope our words and actions can only be positive towards other practitioners, and we no longer spread rumors about others. We should help and encourage each other. Only a righteous one body is most powerful.
