(Clearwisdom.net) I recently read the article “Do Not Have the Attachment of Depending on Ordinary People.” The author often thought that whenever experiencing any difficulties, “My superior will protect me, I don't need to worry about it.” For a long time the author did not identify this as a very fundamental attachment. The consequence was that he was arrested and his house was searched, which brought pain to the family and caused some people who have predestined relationships to be saved lose their chance. Learning from the experiences of this practitioner, I realized that I also have the same problem and I may even have it worse.
Chinese Communist Party (CCP) agents harassed my superior and tried to persecute me. Master strengthened me and helped me get through the difficulties so many times. When the same thing happened over and over again, I formed notion that led to me unconsciously thinking that whenever the evil tried to persecute practitioners, “Nothing can happen to me because my superior would protect me.” I didn't realize how dangerous this kind of attachment was. Although I thought that I held righteous thoughts, I still brought human thinking into Fa-rectification. Master said,
“Cultivation practice is a serious matter. The distance has become greater and greater. It is extremely dangerous to add anything human to cultivation practice. In fact, it is also fine to just be a good person. But you must be clear that you choose your own path.” (“Digging out the Roots” in Essentials for Further Advancement)
Before I obtained the Fa, I lived with my parents, and I depended on them for everything. I even depended on my family to find a boyfriend for me, because I didn't know how. After marriage, I depended more on my husband, and he did all housework. At my company, I depended on my colleagues. After I obtained the Fa, I depended on fellow practitioners. I didn't learn computer skills initially, but instead depended on practitioners to provide me with truth-clarifying materials, Minghui Weekly, etc. Sometimes when the materials were delayed, I was very worried and unhappy. After reading this article and looking inside myself, I found that the attachment of dependence on others exists everywhere in my life. It formed a very strong notion that had become second nature to me.
I looked back over what happened in the past. When CCP agents came to harass me, the old forces used this attachment and forced my non-practitioner husband to monitor me. He told me not to go out to distribute truth-clarifying materials or to clarify the truth. The police even forced my husband to write a guarantee statement on my behalf. What they did brought my husband tremendous fear and pain. Whenever there was any sign of disturbance or trouble, he would panic and become very worried, and often he beat and abused me. So this quickly became an agonizing experience for me, too. I walked my cultivation path for ten years like this. Cultivation practice is a very serious matter.
Living in the evil environment of the communist regime, if our heart is not on the Fa, if we slack off even a little bit in our cultivation, those hidden attachments of ours can be very easily used by the old forces to persecute us. The old forces' arrangements intend to destroy all lives. So we need to keep on studying the Fa well every day, to constantly look inside ourselves. Only by doing this can we reduce any unnecessary losses. Let us not wait until after persecution happens to us to look inwards, otherwise, it will bring tremendous losses in saving lives. Everyday people with predestined relationships may then have incorrect thoughts about Dafa, resulting in their losing their chance to be saved.
Minghui Weekly has accompanied me for more than 10 years. Master's benevolence makes practitioners from all over the world form a whole body, to share experiences and to find out their shortcomings immediately, to continuously improve themselves according to Dafa, to be more and more mature, and to allow me steadfastly walk my cultivation path and help Master rectify the Fa. I shall strive forward ever more diligently and not let Master down.