(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Gong in 1996. After the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began its persecution of Falun Gong, I went to Beijing to validate Falun Dafa. I was illegally detained three times and held in a forced labor camp for two years. Looking back at my path, I made it through to today with Master's constant care.
“The most difficult things for people to abandon are their notions. Some people cannot change, even if they have to give up their lives for fake principles. Yet notions are themselves acquired postnatally.” (“For Whom do You Exist?” from Essentials for Further Advancement.)
I always thought I practiced very well, but I did not upgrade myself based on the principles of Dafa. Instead, I was influenced by the notions of ordinary people and only understood Dafa superficially. Although I continued to study the Fa and do the exercises, I did not study with my whole heart and even detoured on my cultivation path. Influenced by communist culture, I always believed myself to be absolutely right, plus I had very strong human notions, such as attachments to showing off and fighting. I went to extremes while in a forced labor camp. Superficially, I seemed to be validating Dafa, but I was actually validating myself. Thinking I could validate Dafa, I allowed myself to be taken advantage of by the evil, and was taken to a brainwashing center. Once, a guard interrogated me, saying: “Your Master's birthday has passed, the ninth anniversary of Falun Dafa has passed too, what are you still waiting for?” At that time, I had been on a hunger strike for over twenty days. I said, “I am not attached to time or outcomes, I just believe in this Fa and Master.” I understood it was my knowing side that made the remarks, and it shocked the evil.
After this tribulation, I deeply felt the seriousness and importance of studying the Fa. Everyone is talking about believing in Master and Dafa, but do we really believe? To what extent? Under pressure from the evil, or facing life or death, do we follow Master's words? If not, is that truly believing in Master and Dafa? Mistakes and experience made me gradually mature. When I was visited by people from the Chinese Communist Party, or while making informational materials about Falun Dafa, or while discussing Falun Dafa face to face, I could be very dignified and imposing. During the Olympic Games, police came to my home. When I opened the door, several people were there asking for me. I replied, I am the one you want. I felt very calm, and thought, since you are here, I will take this opportunity to tell you the facts about Falun Dafa. At that moment, Master's Fa appeared in my mind,
“Once a problem comes up somewhere, that's where you need to go clarify the facts. Don't avoid it, no matter how evil it comes across.” (“Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference”)
So I smiled at them and asked why they came here. They said, we came to see you. I indicated they were needlessly concerned about Falun Gong. I asked, “Do you know about Falun Gong? Since you came today, it is our predestined relationship. I will tell you what it is.”
I said, “Falun Gong teaches people to be good, cultivating Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, which is the fundamental principle of the universe and controls everything. Do you think the laws of human beings are the highest? There are higher laws. Please treat Falun Dafa and its disciples compassionately, and treat yourself and your family well also. It is a heavenly principle that good is rewarded with good and evil is met with karmic retribution. Do you know why there are so many disasters lately? It is heaven warning people. Some of you may be enrolled in the communist party and its affiliated organizations. Please quit immediately to protect yourself. You should not do anything to harm Dafa.” One of them replied, “We have no personal motives, we are just doing our job!” I told them, “Even for your job, you should not do anything evil, or else it will bring harm you and your family.” When they left, one woman told me, “We will see what you have to say next time.” I said, “There is no next time. You are not welcome to come and disturb me. It would not be good for you.”
I moved into a new community, where the fellow practitioners felt that they were being monitored. At first, I did not dare to go out to distribute materials either. Once, I looked outside from a balcony high up, and thought there were so many buildings around and I wondered how many people had been saved. Perhaps Master saw my compassion, then hinted to me in “Beyond the Five Elements, and Leaving the Three Realms”,
“Today, science believes that time has fields, and that when something isn’t within the expanse of a time-field it’s not restricted by that time. The concept of space-time in other dimensions is different from the one here, so how could it restrict matter from other dimensions? It doesn’t have any effect on it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I realized that I had this environment not to enjoy myself, but to save sentient beings as arranged by Master. After I upgraded my xinxing, I could do tasks with a higher level of proficiency. I hung up banners near the forced labor camp. Banners reading “Jiang Zemin persecuted Falun Gong, and has been sued in international court,” “Falun Dafa is good,” “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” were hung at crossroads, highways, pedestrian pathways, on tree branches and railings. There were many people passing by, and the banners frightened the evil. I distributed truth-clarification materials in our community too. There were several areas in our community, and nearly every building received some of the materials.
I would discuss the facts about Falun Dafa to all the people who had a predestined relationships with me, or whom I could get into contact with. Whether on a bus, buying groceries, asking for directions, with repairmen who came to my home, those who helped clean my house, and even friends of my two daughters, I would frequently talk to people about Falun Dafa. I told them about the persecution of Falun Gong, the evil nature of the Chinese Communist Party, and that it was heaven's will to eliminate the evil party. Most of them understood and quit the CCP and its associated organizations. Although some were deeply poisoned and did not want to quit, I believe they will also become aware, because everyone has his/her clear side. I had talked to a teacher before, and I went twice to his home, but he did not want to quit the CCP. On my third visit, I brought him a copy of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. Afterward he thought of a pseudonym for himself and quit the CCP.
Twice, I went to a popular barbershop in order to explain the facts there. The first time, I spent over 200 yuan, which I would not normally spend on my hair. The person who did my hair was very well-known. I told the facts to him, and he was very willing to listen to it and accepted my ideas. He also expected that the CCP would be eliminated soon. I had several people quit the CCP that time. The second time I went, I brought some VCDs and other informational materials. When I opened the door, that barber who did my hair last time said loudly, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” as soon as he saw me. There were many people who looked at me and enthusiastically asked for informational materials.
In the barbershop in our community, I had encouraged a group of about six young men to quit the CCP. I think that only when we study the Fa well, enlighten to the Fa's principles, give up our personal and human notions, and think only of others, will our endeavors go smoothly and safely. Teacher said, “...what you do then, with a pure heart, will be the best and most sacred.” (“Further Understanding” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
I saw that practitioners at the materials production sites were all exhausted. I hoped to relieve their burdens. I had the wish, and Master arranged opportunities for me to get into contact with those who produced materials. With their help, I created my own materials production site. In the process of making materials, I understood another principle,
“What was taught by religions and what people experienced in the past was only superficialities and shallow phenomena. Its broad and immense, profound inner meaning can only manifest itself to, and be experienced and understood by, practitioners who are at different levels of true cultivation. Only then can one truly see what the Fa is.” (“Broad and Immense”, from Essentials for Further Advancement)
When your xinxing reaches the necessary level, the work will go smoothly. If we have any attachments or human notions, there will be problems, but it will become normal again after you study the Fa and look inward. I felt the Buddha Fa's power and miracles. It is not work, but true cultivation.
Notions engrained by the CCP over the past several decades are deeply rooted and cannot easily be removed immediately from one's mind. Master's Fa can do it and can change one's mind, and make one reborn. Human notions and bad thoughts alike can be changed as long as we want to improve and cultivate in Dafa.
