(Clearwisdom.net) I have been practicing Dafa for 15 years. As a Dafa practitioner, I've been bathing in Buddha's grace every day to carry out my prehistoric vows in assisting Teacher's Fa-rectification and in saving sentient beings.
1. Using our divine thoughts to look within and negate the persecution
After the publishing of Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, I started talking to people and helping them to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. On May 26, 2011, as I was walking toward the downstairs exit, trying to remember the names on the list of those who had agreed to withdraw, I missed the last step. I fell heavily, twisted my ankle, and could not get up. I begged Teacher to help me. Then, I stood up and thought to myself, “I'm a divine being, and my mission is to save people. Wherever I might have gaps, I shall correct them with Dafa, and I shall completely negate any evil persecution.”
I got up to walk again, and I walked around for another 2-3 hours. After clarifying the truth to 20-30 people, 13 of them agreed to withdraw from the CCP. After getting back to my residence, I studied a lecture of Zhuan Falun and after looking within, I found attachments of impatience, hatred, wanting comfort, and hoping for an early end to Fa-rectification. I felt that the evil had taken advantage of my gaps to make me stumble and fall.
On the following day, I was awakened by the alarm clock at 3:30 a.m. Looking at the bruises on my ankle and foot, I said to them, “Don't show me your fake appearance; whoever persecuted me will be held responsible. Let the swelling go down fast, because I have to do the Falun Gong exercises, and I have to go save people on the streets.” I asked Teacher for forgiveness, and then, with some difficulty, I started and finished doing the exercises.
In the afternoon I went out on a bike (I normally walk) to clarify the truth to people. On the fourth day, I was awakened at around 3 a.m. by a strong itch. When I looked down at my ankle, I saw a red rash there, but the swelling had gone down entirely. I didn't feel any pain when I started moving around. I had tears in my eyes, thinking that Teacher is always by my side, as long as I have ample righteous thoughts and my mind is on the Fa.
2. Getting hurt when I looked outward with human thoughts
Since the winter of 2003, I was mired in an emotional attachment, and wasn't able to extricate myself from it. This allowed the evil to take advantage of my gaps to persecute me. One day in early December, right after leaving my home, I slipped and fell on the icy road. I used my left hand to break the fall. When I got up, I had to use my right hand to lift up my left hand, as the fingers on my left hand were so stiff and painful that I couldn't bend them. I was shaken and did not know what to do. What if I couldn't clarify the truth, go to work, or cook?
With all of these “what if's”, I had forgotten that I am a Dafa practitioner—a divine being here on earth. I thought of myself as an everyday person. Although I didn't take any medication, my human notions were so strong that I couldn't resist people's advice to have x-rays done in the hospital or using herbal treatments for the injury. Because I tried using a human approach to deal with this problem, it took about 100 days for my injury to heal.
These two experiences showed me the hugely different outcomes of when we use divine thoughts or human thoughts to handle the persecution.
