(Clearwisdom.net) Master has told us repeatedly that we need to study the Fa well. I study the Fa every day according to Master's teaching. I spend more time on Fa study if I have time. I will find time if I do not have much time. I am just following Master's teaching. Every day I always think of Fa study. No matter what I am working on, or in what environment, I just want to finish the work and start to study the Fa. Fa study is the most important thing for me every day.
On the surface I seem very diligent. One day, I heard a voice during my meditation: “What is the purpose of Fa study?” I did not have a good answer. After my meditation I started to look inwards. Yes, I'm eager to do Fa study, but I should know the purpose of Fa study. Is it for myself or for others? The fundamentals of Fa study must be righteous. I examined myself, and was enlightened that Master hinted to me that I need to have the right fundamentals for my cultivation. I cannot study the Fa aimlessly. I need to change my selfish notions. I did not realize this before. Master wants me to understand the real purpose of my Fa study.
When I understood the purpose of Fa study, I had these thoughts when doing the first set of exercises one morning: “All I do now is for others, for sentient beings. I need to get rid of all the filthy substances and bad thoughts in my mind.” Then I felt a strong responsibility.
I remembered one article on Minghui Weekly about reciting the Fa that touched me. At that time I was hindered by notions that I was not smart and I could not do it. I admired the fellow practitioners who could recite the Fa. I couldn't help but say it out loud: “Practitioners are incredible!” My husband, who does not practice Falun Gong, heard it and said: "If you can recite Zhuan Falun, you do not need to cook for me any more." I was very surprised that he should say that. It was not a coincidence. Wasn't he supporting and encouraging me to recite the Fa? So I determined to break though the notion that I was not smart. I wanted to start to reciting the Fa.
In the beginning it was hard and the interference was big too. It took several rounds to memorize one sentence. It was even harder to memorize one big paragraph. Then I felt anxious and sleepy. Changing the position from sitting to standing did not help much. I thought, “I have to recite the Fa, and no one can stop me. Once interference starts I will send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil forces which stop me from reciting the Fa.” Later I repeated, "When it's difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it's impossible to do, you can do it." (Zhuan Falun). I became persistent in reciting the Fa, and I finally passed the test of anxiousness and sleepiness. I went from reciting one sentence to one paragraph. It was slow in the beginning, then I could speed it up. During the process I felt Master's words strike into my mind and heart one by one. It goes into my body in every dimension into microscopic levels. I learned the principles of the Fa that way.
One day I was enlightened to a Fa principle while doing the second set of exercise, “Holding the Falun.” A voice came out of my heart: “Master, let me see the Fa.” Since then I have changed a lot. For example: It used to be that I could not calm down when I did the exercises. While I was doing the exercises, my mind was still busy. It was hard to control. Through reciting the Fa, I am able to study the Fa calmly, and I noticed my mind can calm down when I do the exercises, too. The interference is much smaller, and sometimes it's not there at all. I can enter into the correct state. It is wonderful. I understand deeply the importance of putting the Fa into my heart while studying the Fa.
Through reciting the Fa I got rid of my attachment to looking outwards and other attachments. For example: I was very attached to resentment, jealousy, fighting, fame and self interest, showing off, and other desires. I had really been through some hardship to get rid of them. Those are bad substances, and they are lives. Without Master and the Fa I could not do it. It is a battle getting rid of them. It's very painful, but at the same time it's also a choice. For example, do you choose hardship or comfort, loss or gain facing personal interest; selfishness or unselfishness; fame and money or moral principles? Those are all choices. Making the right choice is easier said than done. It's very painful in practice. Can you really believe in the Fa and Master during the persecution? Or do you follow the old forces' arrangement? Everything is a choice. We must study the Fa well, put it into practice, and remember to look inwards.
After finishing reciting Zhuan Falun once, I could not hold back my tears. I realized how much effort Master has made in order to help us improve and walk a righteous path. Master's compassion often moves me to tears. Without Master's protection, without Dafa we could not even start to cultivate. We need to treasure this opportunity, study the Fa well, spend more time in Fa study, and rectify ourselves according to the Fa. Only when we study the Fa well can we do well with the three things. For example, when I study the Fa well, the effectiveness of clarifying the truth and sending righteous thoughts are very good. Through studying the Fa and Master's articles, I understand that I carry the responsibility of an historic mission. We should be strict with ourselves, and measure everything according to the principles of the Fa. At a wedding, I clarified the truth of Falun Gong to the people at my table and asked them to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Someone asked why I did this. I told him that I did not want anything and it was just for his own good. I hoped he would be safe in the disasters while the CCP was eliminated by heaven. They all liked my answer and quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Because I have a pure heart to save people, most people will quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations after my truth clarification.
I use various methods to clarify the truth of Falun Gong and persuade people to quit the CCP. For example, I wrote a personal letter from the heart and mailed it with weekly truth clarification fliers to agencies like police, schools, government offices, labor camps, prisons and companies. This was a result of breaking my notions and getting rid of my fear. I started to do it one cold day in winter. When I finished my letter, it was 5 p.m., and I wanted to send it out. It usually takes me more than one hour to get to the closest mailbox. The snow and ice on the road might slow me down. I hurried out and tried to come back in time to send righteous thoughts at 6 p.m. I realized after leaving home that I was not warmly dressed, but I thought, “I am a practitioner, I'm not afraid of cold.” I walked very fast, it was like flying, and I did not even fall once. It was 5:55 p.m. when I got back home, just in time to send forth righteous thoughts. I now have a better understanding of the principle "The cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master." (Zhuan Falun).
One time on my way to a practitioner's home, I saw an elderly woman waiting at the roadside holding a toddler. The baby smiled at me when I passed by. I thought this kid was very lovely, and walked on. But the toddler made a big noise. How could a toddler makes such a big noise? I turned around, but did not see any other person. He was calling me. By then I was 50 meters away. I thought this could not be coincidental. I turned back and said to the elderly woman: "Your baby called me back. We must have a predestined relationship.” I clarified the truth of Falun Gong to her. A man came over while we were talking. He was the husband of the elderly woman. I finished what I wanted to say. The man told me he was in charge of arresting Falun Gong practitioners, and then he left. Although they did not quit the CCP, they learned the truth, and did not persecute me. It was like I saved them. I have also experienced several other dangerous situations when clarifying the truth of Falun Gong face to face and distributing Shen Yun DVDs, but I always returned home safely with Master's protection.
My righteous thoughts are strong when I study the Fa well. I can reach a state of tranquility (ding), and my righteous thoughts are powerful. Although I cannot see the battle in other dimension. I can often see monsters rushing toward me, and then they die in front of me. I experienced an incredible state when sending forth righteous thoughts. My hand does not move, and my thoughts are concentrated and strong. It's all because I could study the Fa, look inwards, and rectify my every thought based on the principle of the Fa. Sending righteous thoughts is the divine power Master granted us to dissolve the old forces and eliminate the evil factors which damage Dafa and persecute Falun Dafa practitioners. So we need to pay attention to sending righteous thoughts in order to dissolve the old forces' arrangement and save more sentient beings.
The above is my experience in cultivation. I know I am far away from Master's requirement, and have not caught up with diligent practitioners. I want to be diligent, catch up with the Fa rectification process, do well with the three things, and cultivate myself well.