(Clearwisdom.net) Shortly before the 2010 Chinese New Year, a practitioner with whom I have not been on speaking terms for years warned me that two male spies were watching me and that they were close by. I realized that it was not an accident that I heard this. I reminded myself to look within and find where I was lacking in doing the three things and the shortcomings that affected my xinxing.

I asked myself, did I study the Fa with a calm mind? Was I diligent in my Fa study? Did I assimilate to the Fa? I realized that I had fallen short when it came to studying the Fa well. If I didn't study the Fa well, my introspection and xinxing cultivation would have fallen short. For a long time, I had held certain notions about this practitioner, which kept us from cooperating well. Although I had been looking inward, I couldn't resolve the matter. Besides having a lot of attachments, including competitiveness, jealousy and self-importance, I feared rejection from this practitioner and held certain notions about her. I thought that as long as I looked inside, she would change. But when we still had our differences I knew that I hadn't found the fundamental cause of the problem that existed between us. Then, I realized that I still held fear in my mind. I was afraid of being persecuted and destroyed by the evil. The situation continued for years, and interfered with our work to validate the Fa and saving sentient beings.

I asked myself, why did such interference continue? Teacher said,

"For a long period of time the sentient beings in Dafa, especially the disciples, have had a misunderstanding of the Fa at various levels regarding xinxing improvement. Whenever a tribulation comes, you do not see it with the side of your original nature but view it completely with your human side. Evil demons then capitalize on this point and inflict endless interference and damage, leaving students in long-term tribulations. As a matter of fact, this results from an inadequate understanding of the Fa by your human side. You have humanly restrained your divine side; in other words, you have restrained the parts that have been successfully cultivated and have prevented them from doing Fa-rectification. How can the uncultivated side restrain your main thoughts or the side that has already attained the Fa? Having humanly fostered the evil demons, you allow them to capitalize on the loopholes in the Fa. When a tribulation arrives, if you, a disciple, can truly maintain an unshakable calm or be determined to meet different requirements at different levels, this should be sufficient for you to pass the test. If it continues endlessly and if there do not exist other problems in your xinxing or conduct, it must be that the evil demons are capitalizing on the weak spots caused by your lack of control. After all, a cultivator is not an ordinary human. So why doesn’t the side of you that is your original nature rectify the Fa?" ("Expounding on the Fa" in Essentials for Further Advancement)

Thus, I sent out powerful thoughts: "If I have any loopholes, I will rectify myself in Dafa. Master arranged my cultivation path and the old forces have no right to interfere. I am here to assist my Teacher to save the beings and fulfil my mission. Teacher doesn't acknowledge the persecution, nor will I acknowledge it." I felt that I had the ability to destroy all evil in the cosmos, completely clear out the evil matter that I had hidden deep in my heart and disintegrate the path arranged by the old forces. I felt that I had passed this test.

Then, I realized that since I'd not studied the Fa diligently and send forth righteous thoughts, my righteous thoughts were rather weak. Thus, my heart was not pure when doing Dafa work. I was too focused on doing things. This was the loophole that I needed to eliminate. To be responsible to the Fa, fellow practitioners and myself, I should pay more attention to safety issues. And yet, we cannot stop Dafa work even for a day.

I also became aware that this practitioner had been persecuted. So, I sent righteous thoughts to strengthen her main consciousness and clear out her field. At the same time, we agreed during group study to negate the arrangements made by the old forces. We should completely disintegrate the black hands, rotten minions, the communist evil and the elements that separated practitioners. After I realize that, I felt just as Master said,

“The heavens clear,
the cosmic body transparent,
the universe rectified,
With the ultimate catastrophe now past,
lucent is the whole Cosmos.”
(“After the Catastrophe” in Hong Yin)

During the Chinese New Year holidays, I read all of Teacher's lectures and at every hour on the hour I sent righteous thoughts. How can I describe my feelings after I read them all? My original nature awakened. Just as what Teacher said,

“The vastness of the universe and the enormity of the cosmic bodies can never be understood by humans through exploration; the minuteness of matter can never be detected by humans. The human body is so mysterious that it is beyond human knowledge, which can merely scratch the surface. Life is so abundant and complex that it will forever remain an eternal enigma to mankind. (“Firmament” in Essentials for Further Advancement)

During those days I felt great happiness, was all smiles and was grateful. I had tears in my eyes when I was reading the Fa and when I listened to Dafa songs. I offered incense to Teacher and told Teacher in my heart that I regretted not having done well in the past.

I felt that I reached a point that was above all. “The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive out Interference” in Essentials for Further Advancement II)

We should listen to what Teacher has been telling us over and over again: study the Fa well, look inside and help people understand the truth about Falun Gong.