(Clearwisdom.net) I am 59 years old, and started practicing Falun Gong in 1996.
I received a copy of Zhuan Falun through what looked like an “accident” when I was 45 years old. I read it through once and was deeply impressed by the profound Fa the book teaches. It was like what Master said,
"…many of you will feel like different people, and your outlook will be guaranteed to change. You will know how to conduct yourselves in the future, and you will no longer be so befuddled. It is guaranteed to be this way..." (Zhuan Falun)
From then on, I disciplined myself with Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and within a few days, the sinusitis, cervical spondylosis, and neurodermatitis that had bothered me for years were all healed, even though I did not get any treatment from doctors.
Ever since the day I became a Dafa practitioner, I vowed to Master that I would firmly cultivate in Dafa to the end. Because of cultivation practice, I was able to endure heavy pressure from my family and work unit. My husband at first threatened to divorce me, but when he realized that I was not afraid of him, he began to curse Dafa and Master. He was subsequently involved in numerous car accidents, and once he even bumped into a tree by himself. I told him that he was experiencing karmic retribution. From then on, he was no longer against Dafa, and I have become even more firm in my belief.
I cross my legs, hold Zhuan Falun with both hands, and respectfully keep my back straight when I study the Fa. No matter how busy I am, I make sure to read or recite one lecture each day. The Fa-study has laid a solid foundation, and when I go through xinxing tests, Master’s Fa appears in my mind, and I am able to rectify myself.
I distributed truth-clarifying materials while arguing with a fellow practitioner one day in February 2008. As a result, I was arrested by the police. At that moment, Master’s words constantly appeared in my mind, and I suddenly found that my heart to offer salvation to sentient beings was not pure. After that, I clarified the truth to the police officers with a smile and compassion. With Master’s help, I went home three hours later, safe and sound. The officers said to me, “Go home and practice diligently.”
When I went to a fellow practitioner’s home one day, she asked if I had taken the 500 yuan on her bed. She later found the money in her drawer. I went home and cried. Why did she insult me like that? At that moment, Master’s voice echoed in my ears: Search inside. Pondering on it, I realized that I had not been compassionate toward her. I had looked down on her because I believed that she was too attached to human thoughts, always talked about worldly things, and was very slow in learning things. I had also been very impatient with her. Master told us, "'How can this person treat me like this?' Then why did you treat this person that way in the past?" (Zhuan Falun) I no longer felt bad about her, but I began to feel guilty. Searching even deeper inside myself, I realized that I had almost the same attachments as that fellow practitioner, only that mine had been hidden deeper. I was grateful that she helped me find my attachments so that I could improve. I talked to her afterwards and we were able to break through the barriers between us.
Cultivating my Xinxing While Sending Text Messages to Clarify the Truth
I began sending text messages to clarify the truth in 2007. Since I had not done it before, I bought phone cards worth 50 or 100 yuan. However, some of them were blocked after I just sent a few dozen messages. At the same time, however, I also received two messages from people asking to quit the Party's organizations. I told myself that if I could offer salvation to sentient beings, losing money should not be a problem. After I put aside my pursuit for financial benefits, miracles occurred. I found much cheaper phone cards and some cards that had a capacity of four hundred messages. This allowed me to send nearly two thousand messages, and if one was blocked, the money of another card would be increased automatically. I learned that cultivation meant to cultivate one’s heart, and everything else was done by Master.
The responses I got changed from verbal abuse and ridicule to silence, and finally gratitude. Some, after quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), forwarded me their family and friends’ numbers and asked me to help them quit.
The Minghui/Clearwisdom website published more and more articles exposing the persecution cases. I decide to send text messages to the evildoing police and guards listed in the articles, to clarify the truth to them. At first, since I had resentment, I was often yelled at and my cards were often blocked. After studying the Fa and searching inside myself, I learned that Dafa disciples should not have any enemies, but instead, shoulder great responsibilities. Master said,
“Compassion is an enormous energy, the energy of righteous gods. The more compassion that is present, the greater this energy becomes, and it can disintegrate anything that is bad." (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference”)
I began to send messages with a compassionate heart, and as a result received almost no negative responses. Some policemen even replied, “Thank you. I’m doing compassionate acts,” and “I’m not participating in the persecution. Don’t send me messages anymore.”
I decided to send text messages to the entire list of phone numbers posted on the Minghui website every day. I understand that the reason why cell phones are so widely available in China is because Dafa practitioners can use them to save sentient beings. The truth-clarifying text messages all carry energy with them. When these messages enter people’s brains, will they still have fear? Will the evil forces and factors not leave the evil doers’ bodies and be eliminated?
Clarifying the Truth of Falun Gong, and Helping Sentient Beings Withdraw from the CCP
I never liked to socialize with people. However, to clarify the truth to save sentient beings, I do my best to join parties held by relatives and friends. Most of the people I met have quit the CCP, and I also text or mail letters to those who don't quit right away. It took me five years to finally convince my husband to quit the CCP. Before that, he cursed at me whenever I mentioned quitting the CCP to him. I became angry and fought with him, and I even threatened that if he refused to quit, I would leave him. However, none of those tactics worked. After I eliminated the attachment of despising him, and other attachments, he finally did the three withdrawals (withdrawing from the CCP and its affiliated organizations) in March 2011. Since then, both my husband and our son have done well with their jobs, and are also supportive of my cultivating in Dafa.
My strongest attachment is that I still have fear of losing face, and of confronting the evil forces face to face. After I repeatedly read “What’s to Fear” in Hong Yin Volume II, people were friendly when I approached them. Thus I took the advantage of the opportunity to clarify the truth, and help them quit the Party organizations. I believe that under Master’s protection, I can do better.
