(Minghui.org) This October, I read a Minghui article written by a fellow practitioner. The article said that after group study, the author asked an elderly practitioner to explain “guanding.” The practitioner couldn't answer the question, so it went to another elderly practitioner. That practitioner, too, didn't give the right answer.
After I read this, my first thought was, “You read Zhuan Falun every day – how can you not know? How is this possible? Didn't Master make it clear in his lectures?”
As a result, I started to think negatively about the practitioners. However, at this time I was memorizing Master's recent lectures. One section said,
“When you meet with a conflict, it doesn’t matter whether you are in the right. You should be asking yourself, “What on my part isn’t right in this situation? Might it really be that there is something wrong on my part?” You should all be thinking this way, with your first thought being to scrutinize yourself to try to find the problem. Whoever is not like this is not in fact a true cultivator of Dafa. It is a magical tool in our cultivation. This is a distinguishing feature of our Dafa disciples’ cultivation. Whatever it is that you encounter, the first thought should be to scrutinize yourself, and it’s called “looking within.” (“What is a Dafa Disciple”)
Because of the thought that popped into my mind, I immediately realized: Master told us again and again that whenever we face a problem, we need to look within ourselves. How can we blame the problem on other people? Do I really understand the true meaning of guanding? I then realized that I actually didn't know the real meaning of guanding.
Even though I've practiced Falun Dafa for many years, the truth of the matter is, I really don't know the entirety of the Fa. Falun Dafa is a universal Fa. The Fa is very deep and hard to understand. Even higher-level lives in the universe can't learn it all in countless lifetimes. These practitioners are elderly, and their education isn't as good. I not only did not forgive them but also laughed and complained about them. This is such a horrible sin to have! I not only gave the practitioners a bad substance, but I also established a barrier between the practitioners and myself. There was a reason why I read this article. Although I study the Fa every day, I don't look within when encountering a problem. I look outward and blame others.
After this thought, I felt horrible about myself. I felt like I didn't deserve Master's Fa, and I couldn't look Him in the eye because I felt so ashamed of myself. Saving one disciple is so difficult, not to mention the countless lives in the entire universe! Master had to spend so much effort in order for me to realize my weakness. I decided that from then on, I would get into the habit of looking inward whenever I encountered a problem.
At this point, a strong beam of energy went into my Baihui point, as if a fireball was circling over my head. It lasted for about ten seconds and warmed me from head to toe.
I was astonished, having never experienced this before. I knew what happened during the ten seconds. It was Master who saw that I began to look inward rather than outward and let me experience guanding.
I cannot express how grateful I am to Master. It's been weeks since I've had the experience, and I still feel amazed. Sometimes, I feel like I could just shout out, “Master gave me a guanding!” However, the only way that I can repay Master is to cultivate diligently and do the three things well.
Category: Improving Oneself
