(Clearwisdom.net) Before I started practicing Falun Dafa, I suffered from many illnesses. None of the treatments helped, whether it was Chinese medicine, Western medicine or various qigong practices. I had reached the point where I wanted to die and thought of committing suicide. Fortunately, in April 1996, I encountered Falun Dafa. After I started practicing Falun Dafa, my illnesses disappeared. Since then, I have completely changed into another person. I feel deeply grateful to Teacher for giving me a second life.
I have been taken care of my 15-year-old granddaughter since she was born. When she was about 5 years old, she saw that my head was transparent. She saw Teacher's Fashen (Law Body) above us in my sitting room. My daughter said that my face was glowing. This displayed and validated Dafa's supernatural and mighty power.
After I started practicing Falun Dafa, my daughter-in-law's business became prosperous, and everyone in my family was healthy. They all believed in and supported Dafa. Despite the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) suppression of Falun Dafa, my family members helped me protect Falun Dafa books, and my daughter-in-law helped me print Teacher's articles.
Life is as unpredictable as the weather. In November 2009, my daughter-in-law, who seldom had a cold, was diagnosed with leukemia. I understood that this was not accidental. During all the ten years I had been cultivating, the evil never stopped attacking my physical body and mind, hoping I would give up the practice. Several times, it appeared that I hovered between life and death. Due to my firm belief in Teacher and Dafa, the evil failed. Now it was trying other tricks and persecuting my daughter-in-law. Although the attacks were against my daughter-in-law, they were interfering with me. I had four children. My oldest son died of lung cancer at the age of 35, at a time when I had just practiced Falun Dafa for one year. I was so miserable that I almost died. My oldest daughter got a divorce. My youngest daughter is still single. Only my youngest son has a family. Subconsciously, I attached great importance to his family and expected much of them. I have been living with them.
I looked inside and found that I cared too much about qing. Moreover, for a long time I wasn't diligent in letting go of this attachment. The evil demons took advantage of my loophole and used it as an excuse to persecute me. They interfered with me and prevented me from doing well the three things Teacher asked us to do. It's just as Teacher said,
“Whichever kind of life form your thinking aligns with, that life form will immediately have an effect on you.” ("Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa - Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference")
After finally identifying the loophole, I studied the Fa every minute I could spare. I spent one hour a day on sending righteous thoughts including holding the thoughts, "I am a practitioner and Teacher Li Hongzhi's disciple. I have held human thoughts and attachments and now I will rectify myself according to the Fa. Only Teacher can look after me. My granddaughter also believes in Dafa. She supports Dafa and has quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Teacher will also take care of her. If you, the evil demons and communist specters attempt to persecute and interfere with us, I will eliminate you. If I do not eliminate you, the Fa will do it. If you do not interfere with me, I will make benevolent arrangements for you after I consummate in the future." I persisted in sending such righteous thoughts.
Immediately after that I was faced with financial difficulties. Ordinary people have to go to a hospital for medical treatment if they are ill. My daughter-in-law spent all of what she had saved for more than twenty years on medical expenses and we were also in debt. One night close to the 2009 Chinese New Year, when only my granddaughter and I were at home, thieves broke into our home and stole our computer, cell phone and other items. After the New Year, I went to visit my younger sister. On my way back home on the bus, I lost my bag, which had more than 600 yuan inside and gifts from my relatives. Soon after that, the upper cupboard in my kitchen fell down. The cupboard and everything inside it broke into pieces. More than half of the ceramic boards on the outside wall at the door entrance came off. It was one disaster after another.
I thought of Teacher's Fa,
“Material wealth does not come with birth, and neither will it go with you after death—they are very hollow.” (Zhuan Falun)
“If something is yours, you will not lose it. If something is not yours, you will not have it even if you fight for it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I thought that maybe I owed someone something and was now repaying this debt in this way, following the course of nature. I knew that Teacher was looking after me. I let go of my attachments and the evil in other dimension was eliminated naturally. Not long after that, I received a 600 yuan credit on my cell phone – Teacher helped me find a way to have the money returned. When this happened I couldn't express my feelings in words. I shouted loudly in my heart, “Teacher, thank you. Teacher! Thank you!” At that moment I understood a deeper meaning of Teacher's Fa,
“Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.”(Zhuan Falun)
In April 2010, my daughter-in-law was going to transfer from the hospital in Chongqing to one in Beijing for a bone marrow transplant. We knew that if the operation failed she would die. She was downcast and very depressed. One day at lunch, she and my son had an argument. I tried to step in and resolve the conflict, but she suddenly sat on the ground. She cried and targeted me, loudly complaining that I regarded her as an outsider and bossed her around, and she said many ugly words. She pummeled anything in her way and rushed out of the room and seemed to be totally out of her mind. We had never spoken angry words to each other, and our neighbor and friends admired our harmonious family life. I knew that this was another harsh tribulation I had to overcome. I thought of Teacher's Fa,
“When your friends or family suffer, are you moved? How do you weigh them? This is how difficult it is to be a practitioner! ” (Zhuan Falun)
I sent strong righteous thoughts, "You evil beings are poisonous. But you are not allowed to interfere with me. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. Teacher has spoken of such interference." Teacher said,
“As a practitioner one should not fight back when being punched or insulted.” (Zhuan Falun)
“Whenever you encounter a problem, you should first consider whether others can put up with this matter or if it will hurt anyone. In doing so, there will not be any problems. Therefore, in cultivation practice you should follow a higher and higher standard for yourself.” (Zhuan Falun)
While sending righteous thoughts, I maintained a mind of kindness and apologized to her, “Sorry, it's all my fault.” My heart was not moved at all. It seemed that she was not blaming me. As a practitioner, how could I consider myself as an everyday person? My son had no choice but to hold her tightly just in case she had an accident. I watched her from noon until night. Finally my daughter came and we carried her to the bedroom where she fell into a deep sleep.
The day when she left for Beijing, I asked her to go downstairs. She burst into tears. After she left, I cleaned the room and found that she had kept some materials on Buddhism. Later, I was told that her mother believed in Buddhism. I realized that she didn't listen to the Falun Dafa lectures or watch the Shen Yun DVDs that I had given her. There had to be some reason for that. I put aside the Buddhist materials and didn't dispose of them right away. It's her own business what to believe and nobody could force her. Later she asked me to dispose of those things.
During the winter vacation, I took my granddaughter to see her in Beijing. As soon as we entered her hospital, my daughter-in-law immediately introduced me to her roommate, “This is my mother-in-law who is over 70 years old. She has not taken any medication since she began to practice Falun Gong more than ten years ago. Several times when I couldn't afford medication, I said in my heart, 'Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!' and passed through the danger. All those who were diagnosed with the same disease at the same time have passed away.” Her roommate, a college student, said, “Aunty, you are so healthy,” and said to my granddaughter, “Your mom has been hoping to see you every day. She has missed you so much!”
The doctors said, “How dare you say that your mother is a Falun Dafa practitioner?” My daughter-in-law said, “Falun Gong is really great! How could the CCP persecute it?” I had brought some Dafa amulets and an MP3 player. She took them immediately and put them inside her bag. She had believed what her [birth] mother had told her before leaving home, so she didn't take with her the MP3 player I gave her. This time she said to me, “I decided not to believe what my mother is practicing. I got rid of all the things from Buddhism that she gave to me.” When she saw the Dafa materials I had brought, she was crying. After I returned home, she called me several times and said while crying, “Mother, I missed you so much!” It's exactly as Teacher said,
“Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth, ushering in spring
Righteous thoughts can save the people in this world”
("The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos," Hong Yin II)
Thanks to Teacher's merciful compassion, my daughter-in-law made it through this harsh tribulation. Now her physical condition is returning to normal. I hope that she can step onto the cultivation path after she is released from the hospital. Of course, I shouldn't be attached to this.
During the past year, I faced one tribulation after another. My being able to make it through is attributable to Teacher's compassion and Dafa's mighty power. I improved and elevated in my cultivation. This experience caused me to further understand Teacher's Fa,
“If you can actually do it, you will indeed find: 'After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!'” (Zhuan Falun)
However, when compared with many diligent fellow practitioners, I still lag far behind and am still far from what the Fa requires of me. I identified more of my problems after reading Teacher's Fa lecture "Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa." I have confidence and determination to keep my heart focused on Dafa and will do what Teacher requires us to do. I will assist Teacher in the Fa-rectification.
Thank you Master!
