(Minghui.org) Greetings, Revered Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I had been a timid, cowardly person since I was young. I used to have strong suspicions about almost everything. This is my biggest attachment, which I need to get rid of during my cultivation.
Master said in his comment on a student's article:
“Yet for cultivators, fear or lack thereof proves [one's] humanity or divinity, and it is what differentiates cultivators from ordinary people.”
(Li Hongzhi, July 20, 2005, Study the Fa Well, and Getting Rid of Attachments is Not Hard)
In order to get rid of my attachment to fear, I strengthened my righteous thoughts (Master asks me to save sentient beings but not to suffer persecution) and rejected any unrighteous thoughts.
Once, I went to a market to clarify the truth about Falun Dafa to people. On my way back, I saw an old man sitting on the side of the road. I put my last copy of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party (Nine Commentaries) in the basket on his bicycle and said, “Let me give you a book to read. This is a masterpiece.” He took the book, covered up the two words “Nine Commentaries” and let me see the words “the Communist Party” and told me, “You know, I am this.” He meant that he was a Chinese Communist Party (CCP) member. I said calmly, “Many CCP members at the Party's Central Committee have read this book. Whoever reads it will benefit from it. Everything in it is true. People should know the truth.”
He walked in front of me and said, “I want to know more about you Falun Gong people. Which village are you from?” For safety reasons, I said, “It does not matter which village I am from. The most important thing is that everything I am telling you is true. Nowadays, there are so many natural disasters. Being safe is very important.” He asked me, “Are you afraid that I might take some action (against you)?”
I calmed down and said to him sincerely, “I think you can feel that I did this for your own good. Otherwise, why would I say this to you? People cheat others for food, drinks, or money. Have you seen people cheating others for safety reasons, and risk being arrested or beaten? Without a big reason behind it, why else would they do this?” I also handed him a Shen Yun performance DVD and said, “Please watch this at home. This is the world's number one show, very beautiful.” He repeatedly asked for my address. Because I was afraid, I didn't tell him and he said that I was not being open with him.
When I was at home, I kept having suspicious thoughts about this old man. “He does not look like an ordinary person. He might be a government official. He also has a computer at home. Is he a CCP member who monitors Falun Gong practitioners? Does he work at the police department? Will he do something to me?” Suspicion and fear kept pouring from my mind. I felt that this was not right. “Isn't this suspicion, which will also bring me trouble? These bad thoughts are not mine. They are interfering and persecuting me.”
Then I sat down and send forth righteous thought in order to cleanse my field and disintegrate the evil elements in other dimensions. I said to myself, “Master asks me to save sentient beings, not to suffer persecution. Even divine beings are not supposed to test me, much less human beings. Whoever wants to persecute me would be committing a big crime.” I used these righteous thoughts to reject bad notions, and then I calmed down.
When I went to the market again, I met one of my former colleagues. I told her the facts, helped her quit the CCP, and also chatted about some other things. Thereafter, I saw that old man sitting in a shoe repair store. He said to me, “The DVD programs are very real. Now I know where you are from.” I told him, “I hope you will be safe” and left.
Back at home, though I didn't have huge suspicions and fear as last time, I still had some bad thoughts. I kept reciting Master's poems “What's to Fear?” and “The Master-Disciple Bond” (Hong Yin Volume II). I said to myself, “With Master you can do anything, what are you afraid of?”
The next day at the market, I saw the old man again sitting in the shoe repair store. I talked to him and a few other old men, “Falun Gong teaches people the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and to be good people. Why have so many foreign countries given it awards? Why do they support it and are not afraid that it may take over their power? If it is in fact a bad thing, why doesn't the CCP allow people to read Falun Gong books, so that they can see for themselves whether it is wrong? Instead, the CCP prohibits people from reading these books and only gives people their one-sided story. Also, our Master told us to think about others first and be good people everywhere. He told us that a person who works more will get more rewards. Whoever works less will get less rewards, and whoever does nothing will get nothing. We can't presume to get something without making any contributions. Otherwise, we need to give up our virtue in exchange. Also Falun Gong disciples do not want things that do not belong to them. Isn't this a good philosophy for human beings?”
That old man said, “I have attended CCP party meetings for twenty years, but they never explained things as well as you just did.” I continued, “When a person kills someone, he has to pay back this bad deed with his life, then can the Party kill people at will? One political movement after another takes place in China. Was there ever a political movement which was beneficial to the people? Also, the CCP harvests organs from living Falun Gong practitioners and sells them for profit. Can they escape punishment when they commit such a big crime under the cover of keeping peace? Even if people do not punish them, Heaven will. The CCP said that it relishes fighting against Heaven. Now, Heaven will use natural disasters in order to disintegrate the CCP. You are part of it. Just like a tree that has three branches (the CCP, Communist Youth League, and Young Pioneers), if the tree is pulled out by its roots, will the branches survive? Please quit the CCP. Let's use 'Longevity' as a fake name for you.” He agreed, “OK.” Thus, another life was saved. Later, he watched all the DVDs and read the truth-clarification materials I had given him, and understood that Falun Dafa is good.
I was told twice that the CCP had planned to take action against me. I knew this occurred because I didn't study the Fa well and didn't sent forth righteous thoughts enough, due to being busy with farm work. This test targeted my attachment to fear. Master used the mouth of an ordinary person to ask me, “What are you afraid of? There is nothing to be afraid of.” Thereafter, I studied the Fa more and sent forth righteous thoughts. Thus, I was able to reject the evil's arrangement and nothing happened.
Due to Master's benevolent protection and giving me hints, I was able to pass one test after another. Master did not give up on me, even though I was not very diligent. Master helped me to remove the bad substances that I carried, and protected me. I feel that I am still far from fulfilling the requirements Master is asking of me. I still have many human attachments, which I need to get rid of. I was once pessimistic about my cultivation, but Master's Fa has helped me to regain my confidence. Our Master is truly great and I have no reason not to be diligent. I want to take this opportunity to thank Master for his graciousness.
