(Minghui.org) I'll never forget 1997. That was the year I was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, but that was also the year my life was saved. The long and hopeless years I spent in pain and chasing after cures for my illnesses ended that September, when a kind nurse gave me a wonderful book, Z huan Falun.
Before I began practicing Falun Dafa, I had a nervous personality and a bad temper. My worst problem was that I always had to win and have the last word. I had very strong attachments to reputation and fame. In addition, because my children were young and my work was stressful, in 1983, my health started to decline. I developed thyroid cancer, followed by appendicitis and heart disease. In 1995, my gall bladder was removed and then in August 1997, I was diagnosed with a fatal disease – pancreatic cancer.
My illnesses were like weeds springing up. After one illness was cured, another one followed. To cure my illnesses, I searched for doctors, prescriptions and tried various things but to no avail. I frequently had to be admitted to the hospital and every year my medical expenses were more than eight or nine thousand yuan. This became a financial burden which affected our ability to pay for our childrens' school and also my husband's job.
When I was very sick, my white blood cell count dropped to 2,400 while a normal person's is about 5,000 to 10,000. When the area of my pancreas was in pain, I would depend on painkillers to ease it. My complexion was sallow and my limbs were weak. Eating a mouthful of food caused me to be in pain all night and I had to depend on the painkiller injection to fall asleep. I was in a lot of pain and I was not even 50 years old when my hair turned white. I felt that my life had come to an end and would often wonder why I was living and why there was so much suffering. I knelt down one day and shouted to the sky for the gods to save me. I cried and shouted for my husband to look for the nurse on duty to give me another painkiller injection. The nurse came and my husband said, “Isn't there anything else you can do? She's in so much pain.” The nurse told me, “You already had two injections. You can't have another or you will be poisoned.”
The nurse stood beside me and chatted with my husband about my condition. At this moment, my body felt very comfortable. When the nurse was about to leave, I grabbed her white coat and said, “Don't leave. I have an orange and an apple. Please eat. If you eat, I won't be in pain.” I thought that since I felt so comfortable around her, I must not let her leave.
The nurse was stunned for a moment and I had no idea what was she thinking. She said, “Let go of my coat and I'll get something for you.” I had already given up all hope and let go of her. Sometimes when I was in pain, my husband would ask me to read a book. After a while, the nurse came back and she was holding a book in her hand. She held the book out to me and said, “If you really have a predestined relationship, your pain will end.” The book was Zhuan Falun and after I read a few pages, I held the book and fell asleep. I never had to use the painkiller injection again after that.
A week later, a miraculous change occurred in my body. The pancreas area was not as painful and I did not have surgery. I could eat half a bowl of rice. I became more and more energetic and did not feel tired when walking. However, my husband did not really believe it. He decided to have cancer specialists examine me. The specialist did not find the tumor. He patted my husband's shoulder and said, “You can smile at this good news!” My husband said, “Let's not get too excited just yet. You need to be admitted to the hospital once you return home.” I did not agree and made the decision to go home.
After that, I eagerly read Zhuan Falun . Not only were my illnesses cured, I also knew the meaning of life and deeply understood that I am a truly good person only when I assimilate to the characteristics of the universe, Zhen-Shan-Ren. “Zhen-Shan-Ren is the sole criterion to discern good and bad people.” (Lecture One in Zhuan Falun)
I follow Zhen-Shan-Ren to guide my own conduct and as a person, I must be sincere and kind. For example, once I took a 50 yuan voucher to a shop to redeem for eggs. When I returned home, I saw that I forgot to give the voucher to the shop owner. At that moment, I remembered that I'm practicing Falun Dafa and I must be a good person. I hurried back to the shop. The shop owner was surprised and delighted. Later, I clarified the truth about Falun Dafa to him and he agreed that Dafa is good and even withdrew from the CCP.
I used to be a person with a very strong competitive mentality. I was very irritable, had no tolerance, and had to make sure people knew it if I was right. I managed my children by either spanking them or scolding them, and our family fought a lot.
After I began studying Dafa, I experienced a tremendous change. After studying the Fa in 1997, I never set foot inside a hospital and never took another pill. After I began practicing I knew that I was blessed and pain-free. My temper changed and now I can treat people around me calmly and I'm tolerant, patient, and selfless. I always remember to keep my thinking and morals upright. I knew deeply that Falun Dafa is the righteous Fa that teaches people to do good deeds. It can raise society's morals. People performing good deeds – this is the true meaning of life that I had been struggling to find. I was overjoyed that I obtained more than just a healthy body, but also became moral and considerate of others.
Now, I have no illnesses and my body feels light. Friends, relatives and colleagues who know me have witnessed Falun Dafa's effect of healing illnesses and keeping fit. When they meet me, people ask how old I am. When I say that I'm already 60 years old, they're surprised. They ask, “Why do you look so young?” I tell them, “I don't need to have facials or spend money on creams after learning Falun Dafa. Please remember 'Falun Dafa is good' to have a good future!”
On the first morning of the Chinese New Year in 2010, while we visited friends and relatives, my husband and I met a former leader of our city from the Politics and Law Committee. Just when we were about to greet him, he bowed with both hands clasped in front of him and said, “Falun Dafa is good, Happy Chinese New Year!” All that day I could hear the words “Falun Gong is good” constantly repeated during the New Year's greetings phone calls.
Whether at classmates', friends' or family gatherings, I often hear people saying how young I look. The change in my body comes from Dafa and it is Falun Dafa that gives me a new life. It is Falun Dafa that taught me to be noble and have a pure heart. Falun Dafa is the righteous Fa, Falun Dafa is the Buddha Fa.