(Minghui.org) I'd like to share with you the miracles I have come across in cultivating Dafa.
I went to Beijing to appeal for justice for Falun Gong after the persecution began in July 1999. I was sent to the local brainwashing center and was persecuted for a month after I came back. I stopped practicing Falun Gong due to my strong attachment to emotions. I neither read the books nor practiced exercises. But in my heart I still believed in Dafa. This went on for four years. Practitioners often came to share with me, so I came back to Dafa, but still I only practiced on and off.
My daughter and I were reading Minghui Weekly together on February 7, 2012. One article mentioned Master's Fa about benevolent resolution of karmic bonds. Suddenly my head became numb and my back cold. I sent forth righteous thoughts for a while but didn't get any better. I could not even sit, so I went to bed. The next morning I was very dizzy and felt as if the heavens and the earth were spinning. I vomited gastric mucous and blood for two days. When I got up on the third day, half of my body was paralyzed and one hand was twisted.
I was afraid, and I asked my daughter to notify fellow practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts for me. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was frightened. My face was very pale and my hair was dry like hay. I asked my daughter to comb my hair so that the practitioners would not get frightened when they saw me. They came and sent forth righteous thoughts for me. I felt better. But when they left, I went back to my previous state.
At noon when I was almost asleep, I heard two people talking. One of them asked, “Has she gone beyond the Three Realms?” Their voices woke me up. I kept thinking of this sentence “Has she gone beyond the Three Realms?” and then dozed off again. At that time Master's Fa came into my mind:
“Be resolute cultivating Dafa, the mind unstirred
Climbing in levels is what’s fundamental
Faced with tests, a person’s true character is revealed
May you Consummate—
a Buddha, Dao, or God”
(“True Character is Revealed” from Hong Yin II)
Suddenly I realized that Master was looking after me.
I became optimistic and confident. When I was sending forth righteous thoughts, I clearly saw that I was dead and my body was in the backyard with my head facing north. A piece of cloth the color of dark flesh covered my face. Fellow practitioners came, raised the cloth, and looked at me. Suddenly I realized that this was the old forces arrangement and that it was a false image.
From that moment on I understood what “negating the arrangement of the old forces” meant. I raised my right hand and shouted, “Old forces, you have done this, but I do not acknowledge it! Our Master said: 'just by having your heart unaffected you will be able to handle all situations' (“Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)” from Essentials for Further Advancement II). I am a Dafa disciple! I only walk on the path Master has arranged for me! I do not acknowledge anything that the old forces force upon me!”
The old forces kept interfering with me and putting words into my mind. One day I was lying in bed, and this sentence came into my mind: “Life is a yoke, so you cannot break free.” I gave it another thought and realized that was not correct. The old forces did it. I said to them, “I will eliminate you. What you said does not count. I keep my belief firm and only walk on the path our Master has arranged for me. No one is worthy of interfering with me.”
“Imprisoned as you are,
don’t be sorrowful or sad
Carry on with righteous thoughts and actions,
and the Fa is with you
Calmly reflect on the attachments you have
Remove your human thoughts
and evil will naturally die out” (“Don’t Be Sad” from Hong Yin II)
I negated it from the perspective of the Fa when I came across several incidents like this. One morning I was in bed, almost asleep, when I saw two young men in white gowns pushing a gurney stop beside me. They meant to put me on the gurney. I recognized that their gurney was for dead people. I sat up and shouted at them, “The Fa rectifies the cosmos, the Evil is completely eliminated! The Fa rectifies heaven and earth, immediate retribution in this lifetime! I am a Dafa disciple and nobody is worthy of testing me! Our Master takes care of me!” I said to the old forces, “Our Master said: 'I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe.'” (from Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
On the fourth day when I was sleeping, I saw two people holding needles. The needles were about 1.5 meters long and as thin as a strand of hair. They inserted the needle into my right shoulder and it came through the left side of chest. I wrote the Chinese character “elimination” on my chest. I didn't wake up though. The next morning when I got up, I found half of my body was paralyzed. I realized I was persecuted by the two men from the night before. It was not sickness. They were either the old forces or old debtors. I begged Master to strengthen me. I sent forth righteous thoughts many times to clear all the evil beings and elements that persecuted me.
Time passed so slowly. Every day felt like a year. One day my heart beat faster and my chest was very tight like it was bound with gauze. I was not able to lie down. I was not able to sit up either, because I was paralyzed. It was painful beyond description. I suffered the whole night. This was the fifth day, and it was the test of life or death. I could hardly bear it. I hadn't had any food or drink for five days. They were symptoms of a stroke and myocardial infarction. The left side of my face felt numb. I was not able to hold the book, so I asked my daughter to read the Fa for me. I was frightened at that time. I begged Master, “Master, please strengthen me. If I fell unconscious, my husband will take me to the hospital. Then I will be finished.”
I asked myself, “Had Master saved me?” I remembered Master's Fa:
“Of course, of those who've died there are also cases that were arranged in history by the old forces.”
“If that being says, 'I don't want any other compensation. I just want him to repay my life'--then it's really a tough situation. I can tell you that Master is able to give anything a benevolent resolution. Whatever the student owes him, I can help the student compensate him with the best.” (from “Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference”)
I came to understand that I might be this kind of person. The Fa Master taught more than ten years ago came to my mind: “Having heard the Dao in the morning, one can die in the evening.” (“Melt into the Fa” from Essentials for Further Advancement) It was not regrettable if I died in the evening since I had obtained the Dao in the morning. So I thought I had already obtained a part of the Fa though I practiced on and off. I would have no regrets now. It didn't matter if I died now.
So I said to Master, “Master, please do not save me.” I picked up the book Zhuan Falun, opened it, and saw Master's photo. I put it on my bed. I knelt down with my palms together in front of Master's photo and said to Master, “Master, I am sorry for not listening to you. I haven't cultivated myself, so now I am like this. If you cannot save me, please do not save me. If I die, Master, can you please take me away? I don't want the old forces to take me away.”
I cried for a while and felt much better in my heart. I could sit up now. Then I could lift my hand a bit. So I started to do the exercises. Then I could stretch my arm. My spirits were revived. I sat there for 55 minutes before a practitioner came. My daughter opened the door for her, but for some reason both of them were locked out. The practitioner asked me through the window to open the door for her. I smiled. I knew that Master wouldn't let them in because those last five minutes were important to me.
Five minutes later the door opened automatically. The practitioner came in and said that she came to send forth righteous thoughts for me. I said to her, “Please tell other practitioners not to send forth righteous thoughts for me from now on. It is a waste of time because I didn't take cultivation seriously.” Then I told her my whole story. She said, “Yes, you have let go of the issue of life and death.” She was very happy when she saw that my righteous thoughts were strong. So I went to her home with her. Since then I have never missed any Fa study or exercises. Thank you, Master, for giving me a second life.
Master Purified My Body
At about 1:00 p.m. on November 25, 2012, I was in bed. Suddenly I felt some liquid come up my throat. I swallowed it. It came back up. I swallowed it again. The fourth time, I got out of bed and spat it out. It was blood.
Master's Fa in Guangzhou came into my mind. I went to the bathroom sink. My nose was bleeding. At that time my daughter told me that two practitioners had come to see me. I asked her tell to them that I was not at home. But my daughter asked, “Mom, didn't you ask them to come?” I thought for a bit and remembered that I had called them.
They came in and saw me. I washed away one handful of blood after another. I was worried that they would be frightened. After a while one of them said, “You will collapse if it continues.” Then she realized her thought was not right, so she dismissed it and supported me with righteous thoughts. I said to her while I was washing away the blood, “It is not blood but Master purifying my body.” I was very clear and felt lighthearted then.
Half an hour later the bleeding stopped. We sat there for a while. I started to bleed again even more. This time my eyes were bleeding, too, so I had to wash the blood from my eyes and nose. I kept reciting Master's articles and negated the arrangement of the old forces. The bleeding stopped an hour later.
Then for the third time, my nose, eyes, and mouth started to bleed. This time the blood was foamy. The practitioners asked me why. I knew that it was because it came out so quickly and with such force, but I didn't tell them. It was 4pm by then. My husband came home. He is not a practitioner.
I stood by the basin and kept washing myself while the practitioners stood in the doorway and sent righteous thoughts so that he couldn't see me. He went to the boiler room and stayed there for a while and then came back. He sat there for a while and asked me what I was washing. I didn't want him to know. From the moment my husband came home, I was afraid that he would take me to the hospital if he knew what had happened to me. I knew this was an attachment, but I was just afraid. I kept begging Master not to let him see me, because I didn't know what he would do. This time was different from last time. Before, I practiced Falun Gong on and off, and nobody knew that I was practicing. But this time things were different. The whole spring and summer this year I told everyone I met that I had recovered from the stroke because I believed in Falun Gong. I validated the Fa and tried to save sentient beings in this way. I told the practitioners to go home, because it was already late. I told them to send forth righteous thoughts for me at home. The practitioners left but still worried about me.
In my heart I was not sure how things would develop, so I hid in the kitchen. There was a bucket there. I stayed there for an hour and then said to my daughter, “Let's go to the west room.” The bleeding continued. My daughter looked at me and said, “Mum, you look very pale.” I said, “It is because of the light.” I said to my husband, “I accidentally made my nose bleed.” He didn't look at us so we hid in the west room. My husband was not aware of what was going on. He asked me if I was all right. I said I was. I covered half my face with tissues. My daughter changed the tissues for me constantly. My face became very loose and my daughter was frightened: “You bled so much. Let's see if it will stop by 6 p.m.”
I knew my daughter was not right. She was a practitioner but didn't cultivate diligently. I said to her, “From now on, please do not be attached to the time. Master hasn't finished purifying my body yet. Please do not add bad thoughts for me.” So she no longer mentioned the time. She asked me to sit on the bed and raised my head. I didn't need to change the tissue for five minutes. She asked me if it was still bleeding. I said, “Yes.” She suddenly turned to me and asked, “Did you swallow the blood?” I said to her calmly, “It will be discharged.” I told her not to be afraid. It was a good thing. “We say 'believe in Master and the Fa.' Now was the time to test whether you truly believe in Master and the Fa.”
So far I had swallowed the blood for over an hour. My stomach was full and the blood came back through my throat every two minutes. I vomited the blood for 40 minutes. I didn't bleed much until 7:30 p.m. I was able to walk around. I felt very thirsty. When I was about to drink some water, one thought came into my mind, “I have vomited so much blood. Is there a hole in my stomach? Is there no more blood there?” I immediately negated this thought. Master said in the lecture:
“We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun).
I said to myself, “Not a problem. I am a Dafa disciple. Everything will be fine. Master purified my body and dissolved so much karma for me while I myself only bore a little bit.”
I knew Master had borne it for me. I feel my body is different now, and very light, just like what Master said in Zhuan Falun. All my joints are very flexible and there is no pain when I do the sitting meditation. I am able to cross my legs easily. Thank you, Master! I will do my best to do the three things and be worthy of Master's compassionate salvation.
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