(Minghui.org) The year 1998 was unbearable for me. My son was 13 years old and ready for junior high school. One day when I left for a Parent-Teacher conference, I told my son: “Don't go downstairs. Stay inside to study.” He promised that he would and said: “Goodbye, Mother!” I never thought that those would be the last words I would hear him say.
I had a bad feeling when I arrived home after the meeting and found that my son wasn't there. Then his classmate came to my house and told me that my son had drowned in the river. I felt a heavy blow hit me. I ran to the riverside. There were many people there including my husband, his brother and my sister-in-law. They came over to hold me as soon as they saw me. Then I saw my son lying on the ground with some mud still in his nostrils. I desperately called out to my son. I couldn't control myself and I wished I had died instead of him.
I couldn't accept that my son had died. I couldn't bear losing him. I completely lost my mind and acted like a crazy person. I was in so much pain and so grief-stricken that I didn't want to live. I refused to drink or eat. I also rejected receiving intravenous injections. All I could think of was that I wanted to leave this world with my son. More than ten days passed. My whole body swelled and I couldn't get out of bed. My entire family tried to cheer me up, but I didn't listen to anyone.
One day, my husband's elder sister said to me in tears: “You have to live for my brother and your parents. Do you remember I practice Falun Dafa? The Dafa book mentions predestined relationships between people. I brought a Dafa tape for you to listen to. It may untie the painful knot you have.” She then started to play Master's lectures for me. She also asked my husband to continuously play the tape as long as I was awake. During the first few days, I didn't want to listen to them because I was thinking of my son all of the time. As time went on, I gradually began to listen to the lectures.
One day, I heard the following paragraph.
Master said:
“It is also countless how many sons and daughters you have had throughout your different lifetimes. Who is your mother? Who is your son or daughter? No one knows it after one passes away. You must still pay for what you owe others. Human beings live in delusion and just cannot give up these things. Some people cannot let go of their sons and daughters and claim how good they are, and then they pass away. One may speak of how good one’s mother is, but then she also dies. This person grieves so much that he almost wants to follow her for the rest of his life. Why don’t you think about it? Aren’t they here to torment you? They use this form to make you unable to lead a good life.”(Zhuan Falun)
I was greatly inspired. From the lectures, I learned that relationships between people are predestined. Some people come to repay a debt owed or return gratitude received in a previous life. My mind was gradually opened up to what Master was saying. I understood what Master said in the lecture; my son may have come to me in this life because I owed him from a previous life. When I thought about this, the pain diminished a little bit and I could accept it. Later, I became interested in the miraculous power of Falun Dafa and wanted to learn the practice. I have since started cultivation in Dafa.
I became pregnant not long after I started cultivation. This news brought me new hope. My husband was very happy and burst into tears. He kneeled down in front of Master's photo and kowtowed three times to express his profuse gratitude.
The persecution against Falun Dafa started while we were immersed in the blessings of Dafa and rejoicing in the arrival of our new baby. When the persecution began, darkness enveloped my heart once again. I had no other choice but to stand up for my belief. I knew that I would validate Dafa with my whole heart and with my life. I wanted to clarify the facts to everyone, including the leaders of the country and tell them that Dafa is the greatest practice in the whole world. Falun Dafa not only saved my life but also help me understand the real meaning, value and the reason for life. It also taught me to be a good person and to consider others first. Like millions of Dafa practitioners, I went to appeal in Beijing for Dafa.
In order to let people know that Dafa had been persecuted and Dafa practitioners were innocent, I distributed truth clarification materials on the streets at night. I would often distribute flyers while taking a walk with my husband and our child. Although my husband is not a practitioner, he also helps distribute the flyers because he knows that Dafa is good and has been framed. We do our best with a grateful heart.
I hope that every person can understand the truth about Dafa so that they will have an auspicious future.
