(Minghui.org) A bump appeared on my lower abdomen in November 2012. At the beginning, it was the size of a finger. Although not painful, it quickly enlarged to the size of three fingers. A relative who specializes in Chinese medicine told me that the condition was more dangerous if it was not painful because normal inflammation would hurt.
I found illness-related content in Master's lectures and read them often. I settled down and believed in Master. I asked myself, "Did I fear death?" No, I thought, because from a young age I believed that other dimensions existed. I then studied Dafa and understood more about life. But I was afraid my actions would cause everyday people to misunderstand. I am a Dafa disciple and I came to help Master with Fa rectification—Master would never arrange to have me lose my body. If I allowed the old forces to take advantage of my attachment and cause bad results among everyday people, I would be filled with regret that I had failed Master and sentient beings.
Winter had come, and I looked inward for my attachments and found many, so I was determined to remove them and did everything well. When I did the second exercise, my upper body felt as cold as ice. In the following days the back of my head felt very warm. I felt as though I had boiling water in my stomach that was shaking inside me.
The bump was not painful, but continued to grow and grow. In a few months, it covered my entire abdomen and seemed to swell. My stomach felt odd when I lay down. Most of my pants did not fit except one with a larger waist. My mother asked why I always wore the same pants.
It seemed during this time that everyone talked about tumors. One person had surgery on a tumor that was as big as a bowl. Someone else died of a tumor. Everywhere I went, I heard these stories. Interference from the evil and my own thoughts tried to make me think I had a tumor. As I was working one day a thought suddenly came into my mind—I had cancer! I immediately shot back at the thought... It was you who has cancer!
I held the book, looked at Master's portrait, and said to Master, “Whether or not I made an agreement with the old forces, I would never allow myself to be used to destroy Dafa. Please help me, Master.”
When thought karma was interfering with me I would think a tumor had been caused by a spirit attached to my body. But I knew a spirit could not attach to my body because I had obtained gong. This was not an illness but only the appearance of illness. Whether or not it was interference by the old forces or a test I needed to pass, it was all an illusion and not real.
Although I could feel the bump on my stomach, I was not afraid. I continued to do the three things diligently, and studied the Fa more, including Master's new articles. During this time, I was basically doing personal cultivation, and communicated with only a few other practitioners.
After some time I returned to the group of practitioners. One day at work, I suddenly felt chilled and in pain. I went to the bathroom to check my abdomen. I touched the bump and it was soft where it had been hard before. I returned to work and didn't think about anything else but my chills and discomfort. After work I took a shower and discovered that my abdomen no longer swollen, and the bump had disappeared. I was very calm and fell asleep.
The next day, I felt very weak. By lunchtime, I was very uncomfortable and almost fainted. I thought, "I cannot fall down here. I should go back home." I worried that I would not be able to stand long enough at the work entrance to flag down a taxi. So I recited again and again, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! Master please help me.”
I descended the stairs and met a coworker at the bottom. She said she felt uncomfortable and wanted to go home. As I lived in a neighborhood near her, she asked if I wanted to come with her. Her husband would drive us. I agreed.
In the car, I continued to recite to myself, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! Master please help me.” Finally, we arrived home. I thanked them and got out of the car. I felt water rising from my throat. About 100 meters from my house I ran to a nearby grassy field and vomited. My abdomen and stomach contracted violently, and I vomited water—just water.
I have been reluctant to write about passing this test and only told a few other practitioners. Looking back on my cultivation path, I realize that I had lagged far behind more diligent practitioners. Those who had cultivated well would not even have such a test. A practitioner who knew about my experience asked me to write about it to let others know about Master's compassion. Writing about it might also help those experiencing similar tribulations to look inward to find and eliminate their attachments.
I still wondered whether I should write about this because I didn't know what caused it. But several days ago I had a dream. In the dream, a person who was bald and covered in black garments jumped toward me. He pulled me toward him and we fell down together. We fell down a dark and bottomless cave. I shouted, “Master, help! Help!”
I stopped falling and landed in a dark place. Where was I? Two sentences appeared in my mind, but I forgot what they said. As I thought they might be from Master's lectures, I felt a terrible creature slink toward me. Although it was behind me, it seemed to be as black as the bald person who was wearing ancient clothing. When it stopped behind me, I suddenly understood who it was—my creditor. The creature was holding a sharp stick and tried to stab me in the head to kill me. I felt sorry for him and wanted to pay back my debt to him. I sat down and crossed my legs. I conjoined my hands and prepared for it to kill me. It lunged the stick at me with great force. When the tip of the stick touched my head slightly, Master protected my head with his hands. Then I woke up. I understood that Master had protected me from the danger.
Practitioners who are going through tests of illness should just believe in Master. Please study the Fa more, especially the parts related to illnesses. In your mind, be clear on the Fa, and in your actions, walk a straight path.
