(Minghui.org) I used to be a raging bully with no hope for the future, but my attitude changed after practicing Falun Gong. The changes in my behavior made everyone in my family happy, and my teacher said that I was the best and most improved student.
Having low self esteem
I left a bad stain on my character during my time as an elementary school student. I went to an upper class school, and from what I've heard, the teachers go easy on students from rich families, but would give a hard time for students from poorer families. At that time, my family's financial situation wasn't too good.
My personality was also negative, and I was regularly pulled out from class. Many a time I had to stand facing the wall as punishment. I went from being one of the top two students in the class to being at the very bottom. My parents lost hope in me, and hit and cursed at me numerous times. They didn't listen to what I had to say. Bit by bit, I seemed to lose hope for love in this world. I turned cold and heartless. The only way to protect myself was to fight.
From the 2 nd grade on, I'd gotten into huge trouble every semester. There was one time where I was fighting with another student for the use of the horizontal bar in gymnastics. I was kicked many times and my spleen was injured. There was another time where I tried to be helpful to the lady that worked in the cafeteria by peeling the skin off the eggplants. I was peeling with a knife, and accidentally caught the provincial governor's grandson's leg. He had to get stitches. When I got into an argument with another student I injured his eardrum. All these things, plus many more, had caused me to become unpopular, and everyone stayed away from me. I had low self esteem, and didn't know what to do.
My outlook on life greatly improved
During the winter vacation of 1996, when I was in 5 th grade, my mom brought home a stack of videotapes. She told me that her friend introduced her to a qigong practice that cures illnesses and had lent her some lectures to watch. My mom went to work that day, so I started watching them. I saw Master Li, the founder of Falun Gong, lecturing in Guangzhou, and heard about why one should be a good person with high morals.
Master Li's teachings had a deep impact on me. I had never felt this way before. I found love and care in the world, and I decided to practice Falun Gong. My mom also started practicing, and all her illnesses, such as her fever, stomach pain and eye pain disappeared. Her temper also improved.
The positive changes in my behavior really surprised everyone that I knew at school. My classmates were wondering what had happened to me. Some of them even commented that I had changed from the inside out!
A kind teacher invited me to her house after school and asked about my changes. I told her about Falun Gong, and my mom and I brought her a copy of Zhuan Falun to read. My teacher and her husband were highly educated, and they both said that the book is great and that it can change a person's morality. They requested that they hold onto the book, so that they could study and cherish it more.
Falun Gong helped me to become a better person and improve my knowledge. When I was going to graduate from elementary school, my teacher said that I was the most improved student. I managed to get into a high level middle school, where my grades then flew up.
I use the principles of “Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance” to measure everything I do, and because I have the Fa in my heart, I always think of others first and help those that need it. People thought that I was lying when I told them that I used to be aggressive and prone to fighting.
My literature arts teacher asked my parents after the parent-teacher conference about my fighting. When my teacher heard about Falun Gong, they said that my parents are very lucky, as there are few people in this world who actively change themselves into becoming better people.
After graduating from middle school, I successfully got into a well known, top tier high school. After three years of high school, I was accepted into Beijing University. My teachers and parents were very proud of me.
“I wish for you to have a better future”
When the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started the persecution of Falun Gong on July 20, 1999, my mom and I went to the provincial hall to tell people about Falun Gong and how we became better people because of the practice. However, we were arrested. As the persecution intensified, and lots of Chinese people were tricked into believing the lies and propaganda from the state controlled media, my mom and I started doing what other practitioners did – we started to clarify the facts to the public.
I remember one time when my mom and I started putting up truth clarification posters. I found a newly constructed bridge on an overpass. My mom and I went there at night, and started to tie the poster to the bridge. Several minutes later, we went to the bottom of the bridge and saw how magnificent the poster was.
There was also a newly constructed overpass in town, with several roads passing over each other, connecting several districts. My mom and I crossed the barricade and I wrote “Falun Dafa is good!”, “Falun Dafa is majestic!” and “The World Needs Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance!” The overpass was high, but that day was magical. I felt like I could write as high up as I wanted to. When we returned home, my mom told me that when I wrote those words, every character looked mighty and majestic. Not that long afterward, my friend told me that he saw those words and assumed that a tall person had written them. But I am not very tall.
When I was in university, the people that knew me trusted me, and knew that I had high moral standards. There was one time when I was in a political science class, and I gave a presentation on how the CCP betrayed its own country during the war with Japan. My teacher allowed me to lecture for about 20 minutes, and then told me: “Your content was very logical. I was interested and happy to listen. Thank you!” Every student that I came into contact with learned about Falun Gong, and many have quit the CCP.
After I graduated from university, I went to the U.S. to establish a future here. Luckily, I attended this year's New York Falun Dafa experience sharing conference and saw Master for the first time, after having practiced for ten years. When I saw Master, tears just started flowing. Master is truly giving us everything, and no words can express my appreciation.
Category: Improving Oneself
