(Minghui.org) Throughout my cultivation, I never rationally or deeply understood the Fa. One day, a paragraph in Essentials For Further Advancement finally awakened me.
“Master: There are also such people among veteran disciples. And the most outstanding evidence of that is that they always compare themselves with humans and with their own past, but fail to examine themselves with the requirements of the Fa at different levels.
Divine Being: These problems have already become very serious. It would be good if they could manage to search within themselves for the things that they have been able to find in others.” (“A Dialogue with Time” in Essentials For Further Advancement)
Wasn't this referring to me? The reason that I wasn't diligent and able to follow the requirements of the Fa was because I always compared myself to how I was before I began cultivating! When I did slightly better, I developed the attachment of zealotry and complacency. When I didn't do well, I would slack off and get impatient. Using the Fa to examine ourselves with the requirements of the Fa at different levels can allow us to quickly see our gaps and elevate faster, but when I looked at other practitioners in tribulations, I seldom thought it was also my problem. It's only true cultivation when I look at myself! I have finally woken up!
Feeling light when I let go of an attachment
One day a practitioner brought her two and a half year old son to my house for Fa study. The small child sometimes still wet his pants and dropped biscuit crumbs on the floor and bed when he ate. My attachment to cleanliness surfaced. The three of us sat on the bed to study the Fa but I could not calm down.
Sure enough, the child wet the bed a little, so I changed him into my son's trousers. A few minutes later, he needed to defecate, and he went on the bathroom floor. The practitioner was very sorry, and although I immediately said, “It's all right, it's all right,” I was miserable. After we cleaned everything up and had just started studying the Fa again, the child defecated in his clean pants. My heart turned over, and I cannot describe how dirty it all seemed to me. Looking inward, I realized that I must thank this little fellow practitioner, because he was helping me to eliminate my attachments. I had to completely get rid of the attachments to cleanliness, selfishness, and looking down on others!
Looking at the pants that he had soiled, I thought, “I must wash them myself.” I apologized frankly to the practitioner, saying, “I'm really sorry. It's my attachment that caused this to happen. I thank your son for helping me to improve. I must get rid of this attachment! I must wash the pants myself!” After I said this, the pants no longer seemed so dirty. Suddenly, I felt that a gigantic heavy object had been lifted off and flown away.
My body suddenly felt so relaxed--I can't describe how wonderful it felt. It's just as Master said:
“Once you upgrade your xinxing, your body will undergo a great change. Upon xinxing improvement, the matter in your body is guaranteed to transform. What kind of changes will take place? You will give up those bad things that you are attached to.”
“In the course of our cultivation practice, you must clean out various bad things in your body so that you can move up. This characteristic of the universe exactly plays this role.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
Explaining the facts to the TV repairman
One day not long ago, my child was watching Master's lecture video on the television. Suddenly, there was no image on the TV. Looking inward, I realized that it was because I had slacked off a lot in doing the three things. I know that Master uses every opportunity to bring people with predestined relationships to me so that I can clarify the truth to them. I asked my mother for the contact number of the man who had repaired our television a few years earlier. My mother actually found it and was able to contact him. This really was a pre-destined occurrence. A few days later, the man came to repair the television. It had been so long since I had explained the facts about Falun Gong face-to-face, that I was anxious and couldn't come up with the right words.
I attempted to chat with him, because I wanted to talk about the “Self-immolation Hoax,” but I couldn't get the words out. I could only chat about his daughter and the quality of the television set. I cut some watermelon for him, but he smiled politely and declined. As I talked, I sent forth righteous thoughts and asked Master to strengthen me so that I could save him.
After two hours I still wasn't able to break through whatever was stopping me. The man was disturbed and said, “I took so long to repair this today. This is usually a small matter that only takes at most an hour and a half to finish.” As he spoke, he carefully checked and found that another small part needed to be changed.
I understood that Master was giving me a chance. I couldn't wait any longer. If I missed this chance, it would be hard for us to meet again. I quickly went to a practitioner's house close by, got a copy of the Internet firewall-bypassing software, and asked her to help me send forth righteous thoughts to save people. On my way back, I encouraged myself, “Master has arranged everything for me. What's there to be afraid of? Dafa disciples are doing the most righteous thing in the universe. Master and the Fa are here. I must clarify the truth and break through the CCP lies!”
A few minutes after I returned, I summoned my righteous thoughts and said to him, “Have you heard about quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) to be safe?” He smiled but said nothing. I continued, “The CCP has killed 80 million innocent people. Good is rewarded and evil is punished. When we joined the CCP organizations, we became one of them, so we must quit!” The man said, “Don't we automatically quit when we graduate from school?” I said, “When we were small children, we raised our hands and swore a deadly oath! This is very serious. One must clearly quit the CCP!”
He smiled. I continued and talked about the “Tiananmen Square Self-immolation Hoax” and the corruption of morals in China. I reminded him that Chinese people are increasingly disgusted at the Party's corruption. He listened attentively and agreed, “Right. I can't stand the Party, that's why I filled out the application to become a member but did not submit it!”
I said, “Many people now know the truth and want to quit. You mustn't submit it!” He said, “I won't. That was quite a few years back.” He said that many practitioners had clarified the truth to him but he had never officially quit. That day he finally understood. I gave him a pseudonym to quit.
As I was talking to him, wisdom poured into my brain and I was strengthened by Master. I did not have any concern but only wanted the man to understand the truth. I told him to often recite, "Falun Dafa is good, Truth-Compassion-Forbearance is good" in his heart. I also gave him a Shen Yun DVD and Internet firewall-bypassing software. After we finished speaking, the man finished repairing the television, and kept thanking me.
When I glanced at my watch, three and a half hours had passed. The man was finally saved! Thank you, Master, for saving him!
Getting rid of disturbing thoughts
From time to time, bad things that I heard or saw would linger in my mind for days. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate them. As I calmed down, I felt the most essential and fundamental me sending out a thought that was pure and firm: “Master, please strengthen me so I can completely eliminate all bad substances from my memory and in my mind that I have seen or heard. Completely eliminate all of them. I don't want them. My mind only contains Dafa, I don't want anything else!”
A few days later, I had a vivid dream. In my dream, I was lying on my side and there was a transparent, hard plastic tube about ten centimeters in diameter inserted into my right ear. Countless black, hard plastic balls were popping up out of my ear. After I woke up, I enlightened that Master was helping me to eliminate the bad substances in my brain. After that, whenever I encounter anything, my first thought is always Master's Fa--Dafa is always in my mind.
Dealing wisely with potential conflict
I once gave a woman in my residential area a Dafa talisman. I later heard that she was the mother-in-law of one of my husband's colleagues. When my husband learned that I had given her a Dafa symbol, he was very angry.
I could see that he was in distress. On the one hand, he knew that Dafa had greatly improved my body and mind. After studying the Fa, I changed from an arrogant person to a daughter-in-law that everyone praises, from being frail to healthy, and from being selfish to thinking of others. On the other hand, he was afraid of being persecuted and worried about my safety and his and our child's happiness. I was concerned, too, but then I suddenly remembered:
“The old forces pay not the Fa its due respect
Wielding the brush you shall subdue the surge of madness”
(“Deterrence” in Hong Yin Vol. II)
I kept hearing this verse over the next few days. With Master's help, I finished writing a sincere letter to my husband, advising him to be good. When he read it, his “sunny” disposition soon returned.
Thank you, Master, for your compassionate salvation and enlightenment!
My level is limited. If there is anything inappropriate, please kindly point it out.
Category: Improving Oneself
