(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 2012. Dafa has changed me from a selfish person to a person who thinks of others first. I feel very fortunate and honored to have been given the opportunity to cultivate in Dafa.
During my senior year in college, I worried about my future and was searching for the meaning of life. The decline of human moral standards saddened me and I felt hopeless and helpless. I believed that my life had reached a dead-end.
The Dafa materials I was given didn't make much sense to me. Being deeply poisoned by the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) propaganda, I argued with the Dafa practitioner who gave me the materials, and even said things disrespectful to Dafa.
The practitioner didn't give up on me and her perseverance eventually cleared my doubts. She answered my questions, which made me realize that the CCP has been lying all along. She helped me see the vicious nature of the CCP. I was furious to learn how practitioners had been persecuted and tortured.
It was not until a year later that I finally read the book Zhuan Falun for the first time. It felt as if I was suddenly awakened from a lengthy nightmare. It finally clicked in my mind that Falun Dafa was exactly what I had been looking for.
The owner of my company often threw a tantrum. Being scolded was part of my daily routine since I began working for her.
I work for a small company, my job expectations change daily, and I must accomplish tasks that are new to me. In addition, I was expected to handle emergent situations by myself while my boss remained aloof.
I graduated from a prestigious college, and had been used to compliments everywhere prior to working for her. She called me “lazy, stupid, and irresponsible.” I felt overwhelmed and exhausted.
Pondering the problems, however, I realized that she was right because I wasn't loyal to the company and didn't make things better and easier for her. I had selfishly prioritized my personal interests over that of the company’s, so no wonder she had been so mad at me.
I no longer feel agitated now when she yells at me, and instead listen to her criticism and search inside to see if I had done something wrong, and if I should improve. I treat her complaints as tests for me to improve. I am able to let go of my feelings and I am grateful for her to have helped me see my shortcomings.
I finally learned the exercises and at the same time that my boss gave me a two-week vacation. I decided to take it easy and relax. I got up early to buy breakfast but couldn't find any vendors. I then went shopping at the vegetable market. On returning home I realized that I had lost my key. I found out that someone had stolen my wallet and keys. I had wasted the entire morning. I learned that I should have practiced the exercises and read the Fa instead of longing for comfort.
I remind myself now that as a cultivator, I ought not to slack off. I now get up at 3:50 a.m. to practice the exercises.
I couldn't think of a way to tell my parents the facts about Dafa. They were very concerned after I talked to them about it. I was at a loss as to what to do.
A fellow practitioner said, an ordinary person could not help another ordinary person understand the facts. Her words helped me realize that I had not treated myself as a genuine practitioner because I did not have righteous thoughts when talking to them. The primary reason my parents did not fully understand Dafa was because I had hoped that they would accept Dafa because of their love towards me.
My heart became more tranquil and calm after finding the reason. I studied the Fa and searched inside. I learned that if I held righteous thoughts and considered others before myself, my words would be filled with positive energy. Consequently people would be willing to listen to me and their misunderstandings would be cleared away.
I decided to follow the Fa everywhere I am, and do a better job at work and home. When people see me, a genuine follower of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, their respect for a practitioner would trigger their willingness to hear the truth.
My parents have changed, and instead of being worried, they are now proud of me.
When I feel that cultivation is very hard, I tell myself that it is nothing compared to the torture that many practitioners are suffering. If I slack off, I remind myself that fellow practitioners worldwide are helping people understand the facts about Falun Dafa, and are disintegrating the vicious evil elements.
I should let go of the desire for comfort, the fear of hardship, spend more time on studying the Falun Dafa teachings, and tell more people the facts about Falun Dafa. Only when I am able to do all the above, am I genuinely assisting Master in validating the Fa, and cultivating in Falun Dafa.
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Thank you, Master!