(Minghui.org) I am a new practitioner who obtained the Fa in 2012. I thank Master for taking me as his disciple in the last stage of the Fa rectification, which has changed my life. I want my tiny life to be bathed in the light of the Fa and carry my mission as a Dafa disciple and fulfill my prehistoric vows.
Since I started to study the Fa and share experiences with fellow practitioners, I gradually realized that I must do the three things better during the Fa rectification period. Later, I joined the team that made phone calls to China in order to clarify the truth to people and persuade them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). I followed the requirements of Master with the guidance and help of fellow practitioners. Below is my cultivation experience of the last six months.
I chose to make phone calls because I would not have to spend a lot of time to learn a new technology. I understood that as long as I had the wish to save people, I could do so. It was also a convenient way to reach out to people with the truth every day. With these thoughts, I contacted the practitioner in charge of the phone team in the Neili area. I found out that this team studied the Fa and shared experiences every week from Monday through Thursday in the evening. Quite a lot of fellow practitioners were doing the three things.
On the first day that I joined them, we studied the Fa for more than an hour. After we had sent forth righteous thoughts, we took turns to make phone calls. When it was my turn, I was very nervous and stuttered when I read the script that was written by a fellow practitioner. To my surprise, the listener agreed to quit the CCP. I knew Master was encouraging me. Fellow practitioners had also helped me and sent forth righteous thoughts in order to eliminate the evil factors behind this sentient being.
However, during the next few months, I had many difficulties talking to people over the phone. It seemed as if there was an insurmountable obstacle between the script and myself. I just read the script, but not for the sake of saving sentient beings nor from the bottom of my heart. I had tried very hard, but still was not able to clarify the facts fluently and freely like other fellow practitioners did. I also tried to search inward and read practitioners' articles on this topic, but I was still not able to overcome my difficulties when I made phone calls. I grew depressed and was very worried as Master said we must do the three things well.
Sometimes, when I heard that the elderly mother of a fellow practitioner had helped many people to quit the CCP, I felt even more ashamed about not being able to cultivate diligently. This state of mine didn't change until I learned to send Multimedia Messaging Services (MMS) messages with which we clarified the facts and helped people quit the CCP.
A fellow practitioner from the MMS team helped me buy a smart phone. This phone is a Fa instrument that contained packaged informational material, which was collected by that practitioner over many years. I overcame various obstacles and difficulties when I learned how to send an MMS message and how to transfer material. Later, I began having conversations with others in order to persuade them to quit the CCP.
In the beginning, I was so afraid that I often avoided talking to people online who wanted to be friends with me, with the excuse that I was not interested in online chatting. Back then, I collected people's information and added them as friends. Then I took the time to transfer truth clarification material, and further clarified the facts to those who responded. With this method, I could send a lot of messages within a very short period of time, and it seemed very efficient.
At that time, I thought this was a good way to tell people the truth. Yet, a few days later, I doubted that this counted as clarifying the facts. Were those MMS messages powerful enough to save sentient beings? Thus, I gathered my courage and told my online contacts the truth and urged them to quit the CCP. Of course, I had to be aware and not be moved when I was faced with scorn from those who have been severely deceived.
When someone has irrational and illogical thoughts, we need to correct them. I had to maintain my xinxing when I received indecent pictures. Whenever I clarified the truth to some people who had a strong desire of lust, an uncomfortable atmosphere formed around my body. I knew that I had to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it. During several days in a row, whenever I clarified the truth to such people, this atmosphere surrounded me. I knew that I had to continue even if I didn't like it, and I can not accept this interference. I had to continue to clarify the truth with a firm belief.
One night, I was very tired after I talked to people and was ready to go to bed. Before I fell asleep though, I felt that this uncomfortable atmosphere, which accompanies the desire of lust, suddenly left my body and it felt cool and bright. I immediately knew that Master had cleansed my body, and I was truly grateful.
Later, I realized that it was my fear and competitive heart that led to my being subjected these indecent pictures. During that period of time, I failed to persuade a single person to quit the CCP, because my heart was not pure and I was not compassionate. Sentient beings are lost in this human world and are waiting to be saved by us. How can we turn our backs on them?
After a while I felt extremely frustrated because I had only helped one person to quit the CCP in a few weeks. I talked about this with a fellow practitioner, and he briefly answered, “Study the Fa more! Master will give you wisdom when you study the Fa more!” I accepted his suggestion on the surface, however, I will still frustrated. I knew that I had to study the Fa more and I also knew that I should clarify the truth with wisdom. However, no matter how I adjusted my methods when I talked to people, I was still unable to break through my dilemma.
That evening, when I rode home on my bike, I was so frustrated that I could not help but shed tears. I have seldom asked Master for help since I started to cultivate Dafa. Whenever I encountered difficulties, I improved my xinxing and looked inward. However, this time I cried and asked Master, “Master! What can I do? I am not good at making phone calls to clarify the truth, and I am not good at sending an MMS message to save people. What else can I do?” When I got home, I stopping crying.
The next evening, I continued to clarify the truth when I got home from group Fa study and clarifying the truth with fellow practitioners. This time Master showed me a miracle. Two people quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. It happened so quickly that I could hardly believe it. I knew that Master had encouraged me to adhere to my wish to save sentient beings.
Master said,
“At present, people are somewhat more awake, now that the evil has been cleaned out. At a minimum they are able to think things over for themselves now. When you clarify the truth to someone, it is now that person himself thinking it over, rather than him being controlled by evil. This is especially true in mainland China.” (Fa Teaching at the 2013 Western U.S. Fa Conference).
Master let me see those sentient beings, who are waiting to hear the truth and who want to be saved during the Fa rectification period. Master leads them to Dafa practitioners, so they can hear the truth and be saved. I also understood that we could intensify our efforts and save more sentient beings if we are not moved by the mentality to pursue fame, profit and zealotry when we clarify the truth.
Once a person answered the phone and when he read the MMS, he seemed to understand and left his phone number and wanted to hear the facts again. Later, I called him and told him the facts. I noticed that my tone was different than before when I talked to people on the phone. I realized that it was my compassionate heart, because I really hoped that he would quit the CCP to have a peaceful life.
Some people quit the CCP and its affiliated organization when I called them and also their family quit the CCP. Some people recited “Falun Dafa is good!” after they quit the CCP. At present, I still study the Fa, send forth righteous thoughts and make phone calls to clarify the truth together with fellow practitioners. When I have problems making phone calls, I use the internet, and send an MMS to persuade people to quit the CCP.
Master Said,
“To tell you the truth, the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments.” (Zhuan Falun).
When I think about the past few months, I encountered various xinxing tests, difficulties and obstacles during my efforts to tell people in China the truth about Falun Gong. Yet these things are also a process for me to give up my human attachments and improve my xinxing. Saving sentient beings is not simply a lofty concept. Only when we improve our xinxing, can we clarify the truth better and truly save sentient beings.
As a new practitioner, I cherish this cultivation environment that Master left for us: a Fa study site, a practice site, a truth clarification site and Fa conferences, etc. These environments can indeed help me in my cultivation, help me improve and quickly catch up with the Fa rectification. In the meantime, during cooperation with fellow practitioners, I can see the gap between myself and veteran practitioners. I know that I must cultivate diligently and do my best to do the three things. I must follow the Fa principles and save more sentient beings.
Thank you Master for your protection and thanks for the opportunity to write my cultivation experience, so that I can improve.
Please kindly point out any shortcomings in my cultivation.