(Minghui.org) I understood that it was rare and precious to obtain the Fa, so I treasured Falun Dafa as soon as I began practicing in 2013. Right away, I read all of the Dafa books many times through. I was amazed that there was such a good practice in this world. I read the Fa day and night and every day I was very happy.
While attending college, I also joined local fellow practitioners for Fa study. It was a happy time for me, and now, a pleasant memory. I spent much of my time studying the Fa, and rarely did I go anywhere. I felt like there was nothing in this world that could prevent me from doing anything. I was able to let go of my bad habits. I used to often speak harshly and thought myself better than others. I was even proud of my bitter sarcasm. But now I wanted to be a good and honest person.
One day when I was studying the Fa, I suddenly realized that my roommates were precious people, but I had not been treating them that way. From that day on, I sincerely began to take care of them. Gradually, my relationship with them improved. I gave them an audio version of the Nine Commentaries, and several of them made the three withdrawals.
My hometown was far from the University, so after I graduated, I cultivated at home by myself. At that time I hated the Communist Party because it persecutes Dafa and had persecuted many people. My enthusiasm and passion made me go to extremes when I clarified the truth to my family, and so I did not achieve good results. My omission interfered with saving sentient beings. Hatred was a human attachment. I should be clear that the purpose of my clarifying the truth was to save sentient beings.
One day many relatives were visiting us at our home. I had intended to give them Shen Yun DVDs, but my mother got angry and said she would disown me if I did that. I was very sad and had to fight back the tears. I went back to my room and cried. In a trance, I saw that all of my relatives were kings in Heaven and their sentient beings in their kingdoms knelt down before me and begged me to save their kings. I held back my tears. I knew that even if everybody deserted me, Master would not. So then I opened my door and went out to clarify the truth to them. My father looked at me, and smiled. After they found out that I practiced Falun Dafa, they treated me better than before. I didn't lose anything. Instead Master gave me more.
I looked within and found my selfish heart. I had been worried about my relatives' fate out of concern for my worldly happiness. I was able to clarify the truth to them when I let go of those attachments. It was such a good feeling when I let it all go, but nothing was actually lost.
I was rather isolated in my cultivation and didn't practice the exercises diligently. I kept encouraging myself. I worried about the people in my hometown so I asked my mother to buy me a printer. I started to make materials myself. I connected the printer easily and made just a few minor mistakes when I printed out the materials. I knew that Master had helped me and made me capable so that I could do Dafa work. It was in the morning that I distributed the first batch of materials I had made. I was so happy when I carried my materials for the first time. I placed them at the front door of each household. I could already feel the joy they would know, once they knew the truth.
Master arranged predestined people to come to me. One day I clarified the truth to a middle-aged man who was riding the bus with me. I felt that he was seriously thinking about the things I told him. The next time I saw him on the bus, he reminded me that we were not done talking about Falun Gong yet. So I told him about the self-immolation incident, how Falun Dafa has been well-received all over the world and how the persecutors had been punished by Heaven. The bus was full of people but no one was talking among themselves. They were all listening to me! I was not afraid at all. I asked him why he had been so curious. He said: “I often pick up Falun Gong materials on my doorstep. I have read the Nine Commentaries. It said similar things as you have said.” He condemned the Party.
I had an amazing experience. One night I distributed materials in a residential area in an alley. Late at night it rained. I was afraid that the materials would get wet so when I was sending forth righteous thoughts, I imagined placing an umbrella above each copy of the materials to keep them dry. The next day I found that every place that I put materials was dry. I was thankful to Master for his strengthening. Dafa can turn bad things to good things. People might think Dafa is miraculous when they see that the Dafa materials were dry, even though it rained. Since then, I made a few hundred copies of truth-clarifying materials. I downloaded materials from Minghui website. When I saw that some of the materials were damaged, yet my heart was not moved. I continued doing what I should do.
Sometimes I felt discouraged. The practitioner who clarified the truth to Chinese people through the internet with me was threatened by the police and they gave up cultivation. I blamed myself because I didn't send forth righteous thoughts often enough and failed in protecting this practitioner. I met her once and was not able to persuade her to come back to cultivation. I felt sorry for her. She told me that the police knew about me. I became scared and was paranoid that I could be arrested at any time.
Master said:
“A Great Enlightened One fears no hardshipHaving forged an adamantine willFree of attachment to living or dyingHe walks the path of Fa-rectificationconfident and poised”(“Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
On reflection I found that my heart was not pure when I clarified the truth to people on the Internet, and I was wasting my time which should be used for studying the Fa. I also had the heart of seeking fame. Later I gave up clarifying the truth through the internet. Instead I clarified the truth to people face to face and spent more time studying the Fa.
I have cultivated in Dafa for just over a year and yet I feel like it has been all of my life. I have found the hope of life in Dafa. I shall take this responsibility and try to be a diligent Dafa disciple to be worthy of Master's saving grace.
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