(Minghui.org) I planned to finish writing my sharing in one day and then send it to the Minghui website. I began writing at 1 p.m., but by 4 p.m., I felt discomfort all over my body. It felt as if I was tied down with a rope.
I picked up the writing again around 7 p.m., but one hour later, my eyes became blurred, my ribs hurt on both sides, and my legs were icy cold. I sat down on the bed and began sending forth righteous thoughts.
By then, my granddaughter came home after her night class. She could not finish her homework because she lost her book. She was crying and looking for her book all over the room, and blaming me in the meantime. It took her an hour to find her book, and I could not send forth righteous thoughts. I knew the evil was interfering.
By 10 p.m., the pain from my back radiated to my chest. I could not raise my arms. After sending forth righteous thoughts for half-an-hour, my pursuit of comfort surfaced, and I lay down on the bed. In just a few minutes, my entire upper body was hurting, and I could hardly turn from side to side on the bed. It took a great deal of effort to sit up; my body was on fire. I hurried and sat up beside the bed, and when I reached out for a pillow, my back would not bend. The excruciating pain made me nauseous; I felt I was going to vomit and have diarrhea at the same time. I walked toward the bathroom.
I thought this was all a false impression: It was evil persecution, and I should not be affected by it. With this thought, all the nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea disappeared, but the other symptoms persisted. I wanted another practitioner, who lives on the third floor, to send forth righteous thoughts with me. But I hesitated, thinking it was my own tribulation, and that I had to pass it myself. (I realized later, with a more clear understanding, that it was not a tribulation—it was evil persecution.)
I was sweating because of the pain. I sat at the doorstep wanting to send forth righteous thoughts, then I looked up and saw that my son's lights were still on in his room. I did not want him to interfere with me, so I got up and walked back. After just a couple of steps, I felt like two huge knives cut into me through the side into my ribcage. I felt as if my body was cut in half. The extreme pain took my breath away, and I became shaky all over. My heart was racing, and my knees almost gave out under me.
I warned myself not to fall down, but I had nothing but pain on my mind. I heard a voice: “Evil is coming for your life. Evil is coming for you.” Only then did I realize what had transpired: “It is your wishful thinking! I will not give you my life,” I thought.
I moved forward, and I knelt down in front of Master's picture and asked Master to help me. Then, I sat and crossed my legs; my breath was shallow, and my back was swaying back and forth, as if it was just fused onto my body. The pain was beyond any scale, but I told the evil: “You persecuted me to such an extent that I could not sleep, stand, or sit, and you added so much more pain. I will eliminate you today. I will not get up until you are completely eliminated. Master please reinforce me.”
An energy pushed me up and straightened my back for me. I raised my palm even though the pain in my back was excruciating. I thought it was a good thing. Just like what Master said:
“We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought...” (“Lecture Four” in Zhuan Falun)
At that moment, my breathing returned to normal. The knifing feeling on both sides of my body retreated, and the pain subsided the way that ice melts in boiling water. It disappeared without a trace.
Within minutes, the pain that had seized upon my entire body was gone, as if it had never happened.
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughtsMaster has the power to turn back the tide” (“The Master-Disciple Bond”, Hong Yin Vol. II)
Master once again saved me. Master eliminated the evil that was dispatched for my life.
The persecution was so severe. After the encounter, I began to search within to find the loophole that had been taken advantage of. I found that I lack patience. I found that I have the mentality of showing off and the mentality of fighting, I focus on doing things, have a pursuit of comfort, slack off in Fa-study, and do not pay close attention to sending forth righteous thoughts.
I thought these over for a while and decided to share them with fellow practitioners as a reminder. I hope my story will help them if they are going through any major tribulations.
Over the years, we have read many similar articles on Minghui Weekly. Some practitioners have suddenly passed away due to sickness karma. My understanding on this issue includes a few points:
1. They might not have been aware of their attachments for a long time, so neither did they eliminate them. The evil seized upon these shortcomings and intensified the persecution;2. They already passed their predestined years for living, and their extended time was reserved only for their cultivation. But, they did not cherish their cultivation opportunity, did not diligently cultivate, and instead focused on enjoying their ordinary life;3. When a major tribulation hit, mixed in their mind were half righteous thoughts and half human hearts, while they lie in bed and ask for help from Master.
Everyone knows we need to negate the evil persecution. However, it is easier said than done. Firm belief in Master and the Fa is crucial when going through major tribulations. No matter how ferocious the evil is, it is not able to escape from the Buddha's hand. Each disciple's improvement and elevation involves Master's enormous endurance, generosity, and protection. Without Master, we have nothing.
I would like to share Master's Fa to encourage each other:
“Being diligent means that he is able to watch his words and actions closely every moment, pay close attention to his thoughts, and is able to be strict with himself, and is usually able to conduct himself strictly. That describes someone who is diligent in cultivation.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference at the U.S. Capital,” Teaching the Fa at the Conference VII)