(Minghui.org) I have been a Falun Gong practitioner since 1998. My daughter also started to practice Falun Gong in 2009. She moved back to our hometown two years ago.
There were not many practitioners in my city, and even less in the surrounding countryside. Therefore, there were many people who needed to hear the facts about Falun Gong. My daughter recognized this and wanted to visit these areas and distribute Falun Gong informational materials, however she had no transportation.
My younger sister purchased an electric bicycle for her child to ride to high school. She decided it would be too dangerous for her child and so she offered the bicycle to my daughter. We knew it was Master who arranged that for my daughter.
Realizing the Importance of Planning Our Trips
My daughter used her lunch hour to distribute materials in the countryside at first. I then suggested that we go together in the evening.
When we first started do this we did not plan a route in advance. We just stopped wherever we wanted to. I then remembered a place we passed and we headed that way. The road was dark and we could not see any lights or people. She kept asking how much further and I said not too far, but I was concerned. I was afraid that the bicycle would run out of power before we made it home. Now, I know that my righteous thoughts were not strong enough.
Finally, we arrived at the village, it was in a very remote area. It appeared the entire town was asleep, and we distributed all the materials we had with us.
Another time, we just followed another electric bicycle to a village where all of the doors of the houses faced west. The village was large and we ran out of materials before we covered it all, so we planned to return. We tried three times before we found this village again.
We decided we needed to plan better. My daughter studied the map on the Internet and memorized the routes before we left. We also burned incense before Master’s portrait, asked Master to strengthen our righteous thoughts and protect us so that we would return home safely.
We split up, and my daughter covered one side of the village while I did the other side. We worked well as a team.
She then became pregnant and stopped going out close to her due date. I continued to distribute flyers by myself. I was not sure where to go, so I asked Master for help. Master hinted to visit the first place I thought of. I went there and it proved to be a successful day. That made me understand what Master said,
“Everything has been prepared, and all that’s missing is for you to carry it out.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa - Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”)
Master Takes Care of Disciples
When distributing Falun Gong informational materials I had fear. My daughter saw how anxious I looked when I distributed materials. Therefore, she sometimes imitated my behavior at home. I realized my behavior was not right and I should be dignified. Slowly I let go of my fear.
My fear was quit strong when my daughter went to the countryside to distribute materials on her own, I was so nervous that I could only send righteous thoughts. I realized I had an attachment to my daughter, and memorized what Master said,
“Those who are attached to affection for family will definitely be burned, entangled, and tormented by it. Pulled by the threads of affection and plagued by them throughout their lives, they will find it too late to regret at the end of their lives. (“Cultivators’ Avoidances” in Essentials for Further Advancement)
Master's words helped me understand that my daughter was Master’s disciple and Master would take care of her. I should work with her as a fellow practitioner. I gradually calmed down.
We heard police sirens when we distributed flyers in a village. I became worried and asked Master to protect my daughter. Then, the thought crossed my mind that we had just arrived, so how could the police know that we were here. I let go of my worries and kept handing out materials. Later my daughter told me the sirens were not even from a true police car.
When I distributed materials in the village where I grew up, I remembered some of the scary stories about ghosts the elderly people told us children and had some fear.
I began to memorize Master’s poem,
Dafa is what you carry everywhere,Zhen Shan Ren, rooted in the mind;A great Arhat walks the earth,Gods and demons fear with awe.
(“Benevolent Might” in Hong Yin)
Then the headlights of a car behind me lit my path and my fear instantly went away.
On another occasion, I went to a distant village. At first I hesitated to go so far, but I thought that these people needed to learn the facts about Falun Gong. There were lights along the way that showed me where to distribute materials.
It was late at night when I finished giving out all of my materials. The road lights were out, but I held no fear. Then, one car after another passed by me and their lights lit the road. I was so grateful for Master’s protection!
Sometimes, after I had given out the materials and was on my way back home, I would sing a song from Shen Yun:
“…No matter how much I suffer, I am on the divine pathIt’s the Divine that calls me to hurry for you”
(“The Divine Calls Me To Hurry For You,” Hong Yin III)
Master’s Fa strengthened my righteous thoughts.
Letting Go of Attachments
I had a righteous mind when I began to hand out truth clarifying materials to the countryside people. However later my human notions showed up. I would search within to find the reason that caused those human notions.
For example, I felt tired after I finished distributing flyers. I had to rest afterward. I did not think much about it at first but then I realized that this was not a cultivator's right state.
Looking within I found that I had a fear attachment. I was afraid of suffering. I was afraid of being persecuted. I also had a fame-seeking attachment. I could not let go of the strong emotions I had for my daughter. In my subconscious, I may have had the desire to just finish up the task quickly. These old notions caused me not to treat saving people as an important thing in this cosmos.
Some notions could easily be wiped out, but others could return many times. Once I would recognize them, the notions disappeared. Master always helped me.
Sometimes I would not recognize the human notion when it appeared. My daughter would remind me by teasing me, “Mom, your human notion is showing.”
Something happened when I distributed materials in the countryside. I would be very pleased about it and wanted to tell my fellow practitioners. After I realized that this was the attachment of zealotry and showing off, I could let go of it.
I did not always recognize my human notions, then Master would give me hints through dreams or in some other ways. One example is my printer was out of order, and when I got rid of my attachment, mysteriously the printer would work perfectly again.
Sometimes I would start to bump into things repeatedly, then I would realize my human notion. Master was watching over me all the time. He protected and helped me to enlighten.
Sometimes I wonder how much effort Master must have to expend in order to help a disciple like me!
Category: Improving Oneself
