(Minghui.org) I noticed that I always felt really uncomfortable when I wanted to study the Fa or send forth righteous thoughts. It was more severe when I tried to send forth righteous thoughts after getting up in the morning. I could not calm down and always thought about taking my legs out of the lotus position.
I usually liked to study the Fa in the morning. However, sleepiness often prevented me from concentrating. The idea of studying after taking a nap would arise. If I did take a nap, it was very difficult for me to wake up again. If I managed to wake up, I still could not concentrate on studying the Fa. Thus, the precious morning time was wasted.
So waking up in the morning became my biggest challenge. I really wanted to do the exercises before starting my day. But in reality, I could not get up even with an alarm clock. I really didn't know how to overcome the situation.
I decided to work on truth-clarification materials instead. My thought was that if I could not concentrate in studying the Fa, at least the time would not be wasted.
However, I continued having trouble getting up, even after the alarm went off a few times. It was very hard for me to get up before 6 a.m. to send forth righteous thoughts; I was still bothered by sleepiness and physical discomfort.
I then made up my mind that I must clear out my dimensional field completely. I started to send forth righteous thoughts. I knew there were a lot of bad substances in my field that made me uncomfortable. So I kept sending forth righteous thoughts and ignored the discomfort.
My thoughts gradually became clearer, and the discomfort disappeared. I imagined that my body was growing larger and larger, becoming infinitely large. I let the Falun in my dimensional field clear out all the evil elements.
I also thought about all the incorrect states in my mind that had bothered me for a long time. I wanted to disassemble all the factors that caused those incorrect states, as well as the old forces that controlled those evil minions.
Immediately, I could feel that the bad substances in my body were dissembled and eliminated. I felt so relaxed in a way that I rarely felt before.
I suddenly realized that I previously was not serious about sending forth righteous thoughts. I was just doing it. When the time was up, it was done! I knew that some bad substances were bothering me when I could not concentrate in studying the Fa or sending forth righteous thoughts. However, I usually just gave up, compromised, or even took a nap.
My knowing side often told me, “You cannot sleep like this anymore!”
Even when I slept, I still felt I was making a mistake, especially in the morning when all the other practitioners were doing the exercises. I always wanted to do better, but I did not know how to break through this state.
Recently, I sent forth righteous thoughts for 80 minutes and experienced the real power of it. I realized that I previously did not truly believe in Master or take his teachings to heart.
I made up my mind that I must seriously clear out my own dimensional field, even under very uncomfortable states; I cannot let the evil minions survive in my field anymore. Sending forth righteous thoughts to clear one's dimensional field is an important process to correct our own cultivation deviations.
I now work on truth-clarification materials at lunchtime instead of taking a nap as usual. I now send forth righteous thoughts for 20 minutes. My mind is very clear in the afternoon at work, which was completely different from before. This occurrence strengthened my belief to continue to send forth righteous thoughts and cleanse my own dimensional field.
The above is just my personal understanding. Please correct me if there is anything improper.
