(Minghui.org) My husband used to be a kind person who supported my practicing Falun Gong. Even after the persecution began, he helped me distribute truth-clarification materials, repaired equipment for practitioners, and passed messages among practitioners. However, he gradually changed.
My husband became obsessed with computer games, his cell phone, watching television, and fishing. His personality changed, and he became arrogant, rude, and irritable.
I talked to him about his irresponsible behavior, and the conflicts between us grew. I felt that he treated me unfairly and thus resented him. I decided to ignore his bad behavior, but my resentment toward him remained.
I realized that my cultivation state was not right and that I should look inward. I found that I always tried to validate myself, was competitive, and could not take criticism. My husband was a mirror that reflected my attachments. I did not have a clear understanding of the Fa principles and put up with his abusive behavior. The evil used my kindness as the loophole to interfere with me.
Master said:
“During the Fa-rectification, Dafa disciples have a different situation from when personal cultivation was done in the past. In the face of the groundless harming, in the face of the persecution of Dafa, and in the face of the injustice forced upon us, we cannot handle things or categorically accept things as before in personal cultivation, because Dafa disciples are now in the Fa-rectification period.” (“Fa-Rectification and Cultivation” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
“If it continues endlessly and if there do not exist other problems in your xinxing or conduct, it must be that the evil demons are capitalizing on the weak spots caused by your lack of control. After all, a cultivator is not an ordinary human. So why doesn’t the side of you that is your original nature rectify the Fa?” (“Expounding on the Fa” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
After understanding the Fa principles, I reasoned with my husband when he mistreated me. I told him that I put up with his abusive behavior since I cultivated compassion and I knew that I had shortcomings as well. After that, I noticed an improvement in his behavior.
I used to think that his behavior was normal because today's society is polluted and everyday people were all like that. However, I enlightened that this thought was fundamentally wrong and that I should not accept his behavior. The old forces used his attachments to interfere with me.
Master said:
“So what's really polluting me, creating trouble for me, bringing the Fa-rectification trouble, and persecuting Dafa disciples is actually not those filthy elements here but is the cosmos's beings' warped concepts manipulating those elements. Those low-level elements are resistance that the old forces specifically produced, and they have brought about those cases of persecution and different forms of trouble. That's the real pollution. So when they say, 'You jumped into the dung pit, so how could your body be free of dung?' the dung is not the difficulty or the obstacle, in actuality the real dung is precisely those old forces and all of the beings that try to force something on the Fa-rectification. So the real impediment to the Fa-rectification is them.” (Teaching the Fa at the Conference III, Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Midwest-U.S. Fa Conference)
Master's words helped me clearly understand the old forces' arrangement and persecution. Then, conflicts provided the opportunity to eliminate these arrangements.
I thought that, if I passed the test, the old forces would no longer interfere with me, but if I failed, both my husband and I would be destroyed. Then, as I negated the old forces' arrangement, they were eliminated, and my xinxing improved as well. The tribulation turned into a good thing.
After the Dafa Association published the article “Strengthen Sending Righteous Thoughts” on the Minghui website, I began to pay more attention to sending forth righteous thoughts. I sent forth righteous thoughts more and emphasized cleansing my own dimensional field.
I also revisited the article “Editorial: The Essentials to Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts and the Schedule for Sending Forth Righteous Thoughts at Set Times Around the World (Update 2)” and read Master's lectures that were mentioned in this editorial.
I felt the difference afterward. Now, I can see the Fa principles during Fa study, and my mind is clear when sending forth righteous thoughts. I used to be unable to concentrate or felt sleepy when sending righteous thoughts. However, after my dimensional field was cleaned, I felt surrounded by energy when conjoining my hands or holding my palm upright.
The changes in this dimension also affected people around me. My husband's behavior improved, and my son became more mature. They cut down on playing computer games, and my husband became more helpful.
After I stepped aside from ordinary people's matters and understood that practitioners must negate the old forces' arrangements and persecution, my environment changed.