(Minghui.org) I watched my mother and auntie do the Falun Dafa exercises when I was 12 years old. Out of curiosity, I wanted to join them. A golden Buddha appeared in front of me as I was about to join in. He told me that I should study the Fa, and that I shouldn't be lazy.
I was very exited. Practicing Falun Dafa was so amazing. That was in 1996.
But I spent too much time playing, practicing on and off, with my mother urging me along for the next 20 years. Master didn't give up on however. When I was willing to read several chapters of Zhuan Falun, I was always able to experience the magic of Dafa.
I was cleaning my room one time and decided to throw out an old doll. I put the doll near the door and planned to take it to the trash. Just before I left home, I heard the doll say, “Don't throw me away. I support Dafa!” I was shocked.
Reciting Lunyu Calmed My Baby
I gave birth to a baby girl in April 2015. She developed colic when she was three or four months old. She couldn't tell me where she felt pain, and it was very hard to give her medicine. She just cried constantly. We didn't know what to do. I suddenly remembered Master's Lunyu. My parents-in-law are not Dafa practitioners, so I was afraid they would be against me reading it to her.
I picked up my baby and started to walk around the room, whispering Master's Lunyu in her ear, while I patted her on the back. After I finished reciting it a few times she stopped crying and put her head on my shoulder.
My mother-in-law thought that patting the baby had soothed her. She came over and took the baby, but the baby started crying and wouldn't stop. My mother-in-law panicked and handed the baby back to me. I started reciting Lunyu to her again. I don't remember how long it took, but she stopped crying again. I then recited Lunyu to her whenever she was ill. It always worked.
When I was half-asleep once, my daughter smiled at me and said, “I like to listen to you reading Lunyu to me. Please continue.” Since then I have recited Lunyu to her each night before she goes to bed.
Needing to Catch Up
I had uterine and other internal problems after giving birth, and often woke up several times due to the pain. I went to see the doctor, but they couldn't help me. This made me think about Dafa, and I thought of studying the Fa again.
My uncle took Master's new article to my mother's home around that time. He told me that I needed to hurry up and cultivate. “Master is waiting anxiously for you,” he said. “Please take a good look at Master's new article.” My mother and I started to study it. I couldn't hold back my tears as I read, and felt really bad about myself.
I studied the Fa every day. I believed that I was being diligent, and thought that this was what Master meant when he said, “For some there is still time left, and for some their only hope is to sprint.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2015 West Coast Conference”)
However, when my uncle came to my mother's home again, he said sternly, “Master is anxiously waiting for you to improve!”
I can now see that I was far from meeting the standard of a Dafa practitioner, so I spent a whole week studying the Fa.
Righteous Thoughts
My mother-in-law is not a practitioner, and I was worried about studying the Fa while I lived with her. My mother told me that I should talk to her about Dafa, but when I asked my husband to quit the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations, he warned me not to talk to his mother about Dafa. Yet, I thought that I shouldn't hide the fact that I was a Dafa practitioner from her.
I thought that I could break the ice by mentioning that I had a classmate who practiced Dafa, and then later tell her that I also practiced. When I started to talk about my classmate, my mother-in-law shouted, “What!?” Then her cell phone rang. I started to think that my mother-in-law wouldn't listen to me. I didn't do a good enough job of looking within at the time.
After calming down I tried to find my problem. I had let the attachment of fear control me. When I looked more deeply, I noticed that I had the attachment of competitiveness, jealousy, and fear of losing face. I sent forth righteous thoughts to clear away my bad thoughts, and wanted to cry. This was my compassion emerging.
I then talked to my mother-in-law kindly about Dafa. Her behavior was very different this time. At the end of our conversation, she said, “I know you are saying this for my benefit. Thank you. I will quit [the CCP] now. There is no need to use a pseudonym, you can use my real name.”
Diligently Studying the Fa
My mother-in-law no longer has a problem with me studying the Fa, but I still lack enough time to do it because my baby is still very young. She doesn't sleep for very long during the day, and wakes up and interrupts my meditation. I realized that this was caused by my attachment of fear. I was afraid she would wake up and interrupt me.
Master said, “Just by staying unaffected you will be able to handle all situations.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in the Midwest-U.S.”)
I realized that my thoughts weren't righteous. My heart was moved by my daughter's actions, even when I studied the Fa. I decided to focus on my Fa study regardless of whether she made any kind of movement.
As I continued to immerse myself in Fa study, she stopped moving around when she slept, and can now sleep for longer periods of time during the day.
I would like to encourage practitioners who are lost in this big dye vat of ordinary society like I was, to be more diligent!
Master is waiting for us. Let us be more diligent so we can become true Dafa practitioners. Let's not let Master down.
Category: Improving Oneself
