(Minghui.org) My parents have been practicing Falun Dafa for over a decade. I am a lucky woman to have benefited from Dafa, although I didn’t practice Dafa until recently.
I began practicing after a series of ordeals: My mother was persecuted in a labor camp, I got divorced, and my father passed away. Afterwards, my mind became clear, and I felt a sigh emerge from the depths of my soul. I hadn't realized what I wanted until then! My soul’s deepest wish was to be a Falun Dafa cultivator, return to my true self and fulfill the vows I made to Master.”
I made up my mind to be a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple and study the Fa no matter how busy I am. I strive to conduct myself according to the standards of Dafa. During tribulations, I tell myself:
“When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I joined another practitioner for Fa-study at his home one day. His wife scolded me for an hour. I never did figure out why but I did not fight back. Tests like these didn't put a damper on my determination because I know that these are just tactics used by the old forces to discourage me. I won't let them succeed! Having overcome many tests and tribulations, I finally became a true Dafa practitioner.
A new law was issued in May 2015. It stipulates: “All cases will be filed, and all lawsuits will be heard.” I followed in my mother’s footsteps and filed a criminal complaint against Jiang Zemin, the former Chinese dictator who initiated the persecution of Falun Gong. Initially, I didn't know what to do. I knew Master had approved of the lawsuits, and Dafa disciples have the responsibility of cooperating with cosmic changes, but there was fear in my heart, and I wasn't sure if I could withstand retaliation.
I thought about fixing omissions in my cultivation that the old forces could take advantage of and prepared myself for the worst. I kept reminding myself to not give in and not to lose my faith in Dafa no matter what happened.
A veteran practitioner encouraged me, “As long as your heart is with the Fa, you will be fine no matter what happens. Do not cooperate with any arrangements the evil makes.” He and my mother studied three lectures of Zhuan Falun with me every day.
When fellow practitioners were arrested, we distributed truth-clarification materials to help rescue them. We visited their families and collected information about their persecutors to expose their crimes on the Internet. When practitioners were harassed, we sent forth righteous thoughts as one body to stop the evil harassment and clean the dimensional field.
My mother and I were harassed too, but the old forces not get what they wanted. Instead, when the neighborhood committee member came to harass us, we successfully persuaded him to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
I had a dream that night that I was holding a piece of paper with a red stamp on it. It was clearance pass, so I knew I had passed a test. I was very happy and I found it incredible that I did what I never thought I could do. I'm the luckiest person to be able to board what may be the last train to the most lofty of heavenly realms.
I had learned how to install computer systems, repair printers, use email, break through the Internet blockade to access Dafa websites and upload statements of quitting the CCP. So, local practitioners gave me a printer so that I could make Minghui Weekly and other truth-clarification brochures. I knew what Master wanted me to do it, and that I must do it well.
I read a lot of experience sharing articles on Minghui, found a lot of my own attachments and learned how to remove them. The Fa principles of looking inside constantly guided me, and I felt like I was improving every day.
A practitioner emailed and asked if I had an installation manual she was looking for. I replied that I didn't have it. Two weeks later, she emailed me again and wrote, “The installation notebook is very important. Would you take a closer look to see if you have it? It hasn't been seen since you used it last time.”
I became upset. I felt I was being wronged. A lot of attachments, including resentment, surfaced. I studied the Fa for an entire night, and my mind became clear. I wrote a reply email to the practitioner and calmly told her that the missing notebook was the old forces trying to separate us, and the interference would vanish as long we kept our hearts calm.
The next day, she emailed me saying that she had found the notebook where she had misplaced it.
When I was first given the printer, it was not running smoothly, and technical problems occurred one after another. I solved them one by one. I knew the printer's state reflected my cultivation state, and as soon as I treated the problem seriously and looked inside, the printer's problem magically vanished.
The printer stopped working completely one day. I troubleshot and looked inside for two days but couldn't get it to work. I was very sad.
Finally, I stroked the printer and talked to it, “I'm sorry, little being. I know it is my poor cultivation state that has affected you. But you have a great role to play in the Fa-rectification. Do you know how many lives would miss the opportunity to be saved because of your malfunction? I do not want you to fall because of me, after all, you are innocent.”
As soon as I finished my sentence, the printer started working again! It was as if it understood my words and came back to life. All the problems it had before, including the loud sound it had been making were suddenly gone and it worked faster and smoother than it had before it stopped. It worked like a new machine. I was so amazed, I didn't know what to say.
The printer and other Fa instruments have accompanied me through the Fa-rectification and reminded me to be diligent and catch up.
When I took in the printer, I stopped working at my everyday job. I figured that if I wasn’t working I could spend a lot of time studying the Fa and firm up my will to cultivate and clear my mind so I would do well amidst tribulations. But things didn’t work out as I had hoped.
Some time ago, I signed up for a professional title exam. I wanted to show people that I excelled at work. In order to ace the exam I reduced my Fa study time. Though I read one lecture and sent forth righteous thoughts four times a day, I had almost no time left to validate the Fa. I even had to ask other practitioners to take over the printer. I spent all my time on the exam but ultimately, the effect was not good.
Fellow practitioners told me I should study the Fa well and that I shouldn't create tribulations just for the sake of passing them. They reminded me that I should eliminate interference from the evil old forces and that as practitioners we should excel in everything we do, including the exam.
Now that the exam is over, I don’t give it much thought. I believe Master has the say. I’ve learned that what I need to focus on is how to keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification and fully display a Dafa disciples magnificence, save sentient beings, and fulfill my vows.
Two practitioners visited me and shared their cultivation experiences. They talked about the issue of lust and jealousy and about a practitioner who received a phone call from police requesting blood work. I was startled. These three issues, jealousy, lust and fear have been my biggest human attachments. I'd like to expose them here and completely disintegrate what remains of them in my dimensional field.
I focus a lot on my looks! I feel happy when I'm praised and am self-conscious when I'm not the center of attention. Even though I seem to have passed the lust test in my dreams, these emotions are manifestations of lust and jealousy.
One of my biggest problems is that I don’t appreciate others, nor do I tolerate their mistakes or shortcomings. Though I have been striving to control myself whenever I detect lust or jealousy, when fellow practitioners show these shortcomings, I get disgusted and feel fed up with them. Without improving myself by keeping Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance in my heart at all times, increasing gong is out of the question.
After the practitioners told me about the police requesting blood work from a practitioner I had a hard time calming down.
My father had fallen on the kitchen floor with a loud bang and never woke up. I have been scared of loud sounds and of losing family members ever since then.
It is my understanding that to negate the persecution, we must purify ourselves and enrich ourselves with the Fa. We must let go of sentiment towards family members and the fear of losing them. Only when we place every thought on the Fa can we reduce losses.
Since my father fell and died, I have been scared of any loud sound. Because of this fear, I became addicted to a TV series, and I realized that my dimensional field was not clean. After the practitioners came and talked about fear and jealousy, I realized that my attachments add excuses for the old forces to persecute practitioners and even murder them for their organs. Once I realized that my state of mind was just what the old forces wanted, I immediately deleted the TV series from my phone and resolved to get rid of my attachments and fear without delay.
I have a picture of a lotus flower in my room with words written on it which reminds me to be on the Fa at every moment:
“Cultivate with the heart you once had, and success is certain.” (“Fa Teaching on World Falun Dafa Day”)
Time is of the essence, a thousand words full of ambition are not as powerful as a moment of true cultivation. I came late to Falun Dafa and still have so many shortcomings. I need to work very hard to catch up, but Master has accepted me, so I must do well and conduct myself as a Fa-rectification disciple. I cannot let Master down, nor can I let down the beings I came to save or the vows I made to Master before history began.
Thank you Master for your constant protection! Thank you fellow practitioners for your compassionate help.
Heshi!