(Minghui.org) I was introduced to Falun Dafa in 2015 and had been studying the Falun Dafa books and doing the exercises for a period of time by myself. However, I never went out to tell others about the practice, even though I knew that this was an important task for practitioners to do.
Overcoming My Fear
When my husband, also a practitioner, suggested that we go out to talk to people about Falun Dafa and the persecution last year, I turned him down. It was then that I realized I had an attachment to fear and decided to overcome it.
Many practitioners recently went out to hang Falun Dafa large pendants from trees, so my husband suggested that we join them.
This pendant in Jilin Province says, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
We bought materials to make the pendants and decided to hang them up in nearby bus stops, because many people gather there to wait for the bus.
We were new to the area, so we first walked around to make ourselves familiar with the place. That was when my fear began to surface. I was certain that the police would catch us, so I did not agree to any of the suggestions my husband made about hanging our pendants.
I noticed a sign on the roadside stating that banners and posters were not allowed and would be taken down because the area was a tourist site. When I brought this to my husband's attention, he did not say anything and looked at me as if he knew that was not my real concern.
That night I glanced at the shelf where I kept my Dafa books and began to cry. I was aware that I had developed a strong attachment to fear since reading about the relentless persecution of Falun Dafa practitioners. I thought that if I were to hang the pendants, I could be imprisoned just like those I had read about.
I was so ashamed that I tried to hide my attachment of fear from myself and my husband. I resolved to overcome this notion and decided to study the Fa more.
Even thought I was still a little nervous, I went out to the bus stops with my husband. As we were walking, a police car came up behind us and then drove on.
We were able to do what we set out to do and return home safely. The Master of Falun Dafa protected us.
Talking to People about Dafa Helps Me Look Within
I gained the confidence to go out and talk to people about Falun Dafa and ask them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). A lot of people I came across were friendly and agreed to quit. One man, however, was scared away as soon as I mentioned the persecution.
I realized that I had not done well, because many people refused to quit the CCP after I spoke to them.
At home, I noticed a nasty stain on the bathroom floor and asked my husband to clean it up for me several times, but he didn't. I then decided to clean it myself. I rubbed the stain gently until it was gone. The job was much easier than I had expected!
This made me realize that, as a practitioner, I should not let any obstacle stop me, nor should I depend on others to solve my problems.
My progress in cultivation has been delayed due to my attachment of fear, but now I will seize the time to make advances in my cultivation and follow Master to return to my original home.
Category: Improving Oneself
