(Minghui.org) Master has repeatedly emphasized that Falun Dafa practitioners should study the Fa more, and practitioners have also frequently shared understanding about this on the Minghui website, but the interference that kept me from studying the Fa seemed to be too difficult to break through. A recent experience has helped me gain a deeper understanding of Fa study. 

One day, I felt bored. I did not realize it was a human thought and I should eliminate it right away, but instead I followed that thought and surfed the Internet. I skimmed through a few truth-clarification videos made by practitioners, and read some of the negative comments underneath. My boredom was not alleviated, but worse off, my heart felt heavier due to the added negativity. 

The next morning, the boredom did not dissipate. I began to do the exercises. My daughter came to discuss something with me. I frowned at her and drove her away. She came back in a few minutes and repeated her words. I had to stop practicing. I was very upset and thought: “As a young practitioner yourself, don’t you know you shouldn’t interrupt others’ cultivation practice?” 

Master said, 

“Do you realize that as long as you’re a cultivator, in any environment or under any circumstances, I will use any troubles or unpleasant things you come across—even if they involve work for Dafa, or no matter how good or sacred you think they are—to eliminate your attachments and expose your demon-nature so that it can be eliminated, for your improvement is what’s most important.” (“Further Understanding,” Essentials for Further Advancement)

I knew the reason I did not pass the xinxing test was because I did not maintain a good heart, therefore I gave up as soon as I faced a test. 

Given the failed xinxing test and unfinished morning practice, I became more anxious. I called a fellow practitioner for advice, and she told me to study the Fa more. She said she was reading a book of Master’s lectures given at Fa conferences besides studying and memorizing Zhuan Falun every day. 

At the time, I was studying an hour and memorizing a page of Zhuan Falun a day, and occasionally, I could read a lecture Master gave at Fa conferences, but I could not do it every day because I did not set a goal. 

I knew human methods could not treat my anxiety and depression. When my cultivation state was not good, I had to give up a lot of things, such as calling my family in China and clarifying the facts to them. 

The practitioner repeatedly advised me to study the Fa more, I realized it must be Master’s hint. So I started reading Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference. 

As soon as I began reading, the demon of sleepiness began to interfere. I drank a cup of coffee, but was still sleepy. I walked around while reading, and the sleepiness was gone. I read the book conscientiously. The more I read it, the more I wanted to read, and the more I learned. I found Fa principles I hadn’t noticed before. 

I finished reading the book in about three hours, and didn’t want to put it down. I felt every cell in my body was cheering for the cleansing by Dafa, and the substance between Dafa and me was removed. I felt I was much closer to Dafa. 

Master said, 

“I have infused my abilities into this Dafa. As long as you study it, you will undergo changes. As long as you study it, you will be improving. As long as you practice it to the end, you will be able to reach Consummation.” (Teaching the Fa at the Eastern U.S. Fa Conference)

These dramatic and magical changes brought about by Fa study this time have helped me understand that as long as I study the Fa, Master will take care of me and change things around me. I have come to a clear understanding of the relationship between matter and mind. 

I understood the thought karma was a substance, and Master has removed it for me. I felt it so vividly. I understood as long as we listen to Master, study the Fa conscientiously, Master will do everything for us. Tears covered my face, because I was deeply moved by Master’s enormous compassion. 

Because of a good cultivation state, my truth-clarification to my family yielded good results. In addition, Master encouraged my improvements by letting me experience the state of Ding while sending forth righteous thoughts. 

I came to understand that, we live in our flesh body, and the human elements in our body want to control us. It is extremely important for us to identify them when they surface, because if we let our guard down, we would be following them without realizing it. 

I also came to understand that as soon as our thought is not righteous, we will immediately attract the evil factors in other dimensions waiting for opportunities to exploit our loopholes. So when we follow a human attachment and take a human approach to relax ourselves, i.e. I was bored and watched videos instead of studying the Fa immediately, it is to give those human elements and substances a respite and strengthen them. 

In turn, they controlled me, making me even more negative and confused and unable to advance diligently. 

I ignored the power of the Fa and didn’t study the Fa right away. Sometimes I couldn’t even pick up the book. It didn’t occur to me: could it be me who would not let me pick up the book?! Isn’t it the human elements that didn’t want to be eliminated are blocking it? 

Because they knew that as soon as I pick up the book to read, they will be eliminated. Of course they will struggle desperately and strike some false ideas in my mind to make me mistakenly believe that I wanted to relax.

Having experienced the magical effect of Fa study, I have set a goal for myself: besides studying Zhuan Falun, I should also finish reading a book of Master’s lectures a day. Besides doing Dafa work, sending forth righteous thoughts, doing my everyday job and housework well, I should use every minute to study the Fa and advance in the Fa. 

Would a god need human relaxation and entertainment? In fact, when we have truly learned the Fa, and Dafa has shown us the Fa principles, that kind of sublimation obtained in the Fa is the sacred and noble pleasure. The sense of steadiness of advancing diligently in the Fa is what I desire as a practitioner.