'At That Moment, I Felt No Fear'

(Minghui.org) After 20-plus years of living by Falun Dafa's principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, I look back at how I stumbled along the way and passed through each tribulation—all under Master Li's (Falun Dafa’s founder) protection. Every time I see Master’s portrait, He is looking at me compassionately with tears in his eyes. I can't help but cry myself. 

I wanted to share a few things I experienced in my cultivation as a way to express my gratitude to Master.

Abandoning My Attachment to Fear

I was illegally detained for more than a year for practicing Falun Dafa, and when I returned to my teaching job, I didn’t dare clarify the truth publicly. Through constantly studying and transcribing the Fa, as well as reading the experience sharing articles on Minghui.org and hearing the experiences shared by local practitioners, I realized that I must break through my fear, and talk with my colleagues about the persecution and validate Dafa.

One day, after I finished teaching a class and had some time left, I thought about how to tell the students about the goodness of Dafa. One student whispered: “Falun Dafa.” I immediately said: “Falun Dafa, do you know it? It is now being persecuted by the government. Do you know why the government is suppressing it?” One student said, “Teacher, because their voice is different from that of the government.”

My heart skipped a beat, and my fear vanished. I started telling them that the “Tiananmen self-immolation” was a plot by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) to slander Falun Dafa and deceive the world. The students sat there with wide eyes and listened attentively. When some of them occasionally interrupted, another student said: “Don’t talk, listen to the teacher.” In this way, I told the class the facts about the self-immolation hoax. 

One day after class, a group of boys surrounded me. They asked some academic questions, and I patiently answered them one by one. Although it was time for lunch, they didn't leave. I thought they must be here to learn the truth and to be saved. I sent righteous thoughts to remove the evil factors that interfered with their salvation and to eliminate my fear.

I was thinking about how to start talking about Falun Dafa when one student said, “Teacher, tell us about things outside the classroom.” I asked: “Have you heard that doing the three withdrawals ensures a safe future?” 

“Teacher, what is the three withdrawals? I saw it in Hong Kong, is it true?” 

I told them about the crimes that the CCP has committed over the years: “As you learned in history class, every dynasty initially adopted policies of reconciliation and sometimes pardoned the wrongdoers of the nation. 

“The CCP, on the other hand, launched many bloody political campaigns, including the massacre of students during the June 4^th, 1989, democracy movement, the persecution of Falun Dafa, and many other groups, which led to the deaths of over 80 million Chinese people—more than the total number of people who died in both world wars. 

“An old saying goes: ‘Good will be rewarded with good, and evil with evil,’ the CCP has killed so many people, and surely it will be punished by heaven. If you joined the CCP’s organizations and became a member, you will suffer along with it. So you have to declare your withdrawal from its affiliated organizations. I will give each of you a nickname so you can quit it.”

As soon as I finished speaking, they rushed to say their names. I wrote them down one by one. During this time, a teacher passed by the window, which scared me a little. But at that moment, facing the students who learned the truth, I felt no fear. I only had gratitude for Master helping me save those students.

Graduates Return to Learn the Facts

One day, a dozen alumni students came back to visit the school. Although I had told them some facts in class, not everyone had done the three withdrawals. 

After they talked with their former teachers, I walked into the corridor, and they surrounded me. “Teacher, do you remember us?” “Of course I do,” I said their names one by one. They were glad I remembered and one of them asked: “Teacher, you taught us well. Why didn’t you teach us in the third year of middle school?”

“I’m sorry I couldn’t do that, and you had to work with a new teacher.” I then explained: “I didn’t have the opportunity to tell you why. Because I practice Falun Dafa, the principal asked me to give up my belief. If I didn’t, he wouldn't let me teach classes.” 

As soon as I finished speaking, one of the students said: “Teacher, the principal didn’t ask us what kind of teacher you were, how could he do that to such a good teacher?” I explained to them: “The principal was also under pressure from above. The 610 Office that persecutes Falun Dafa must have put pressure on him.” Right then, other teachers and the principal passed us, one after another, on the way to the dining hall. However, I felt no fear when I saw them. 

I worried that the students might have forgotten the facts I told them. So I reviewed some basics about Falun Dafa, told them about the three withdrawals and why they were necessary, and gave them each a nickname to use to withdraw from the CCP, Youth League, and Young Pioneer organizations. They repeated their names and left with smiles on their faces. I realized, however, that there was one student I hadn't talked to. I felt regret and thought about how to contact him.

The next day, a school security guard at the gate called me and said that a student was looking for me. When I went over, it was the student I hadn't talked to the day before. After I escorted him in, he said: “Teacher, what did you say yesterday? I didn’t hear it.” 

“Then you came back to hear the truth?” I asked him with a smile. “Yes, I just came back to hear the facts.” My heart was moved, so I told him the basic truths about Dafa and the three withdrawals. Afterward, I gave him a nickname to use to quit the CCP and its organizations, and he seemed pleased when he left. 

Master has really planned everything out! He is just waiting for us to open our mouths and move our legs!

Facing My Fear to Approach an Undercover Agent

During the tide of suing Jiang in 2015, the local practitioners and I also submitted our real names. Many practitioners I knew were later arrested. When I heard the news, I was enveloped in fear. I didn’t know who to call or what to do. I cried before Master’s portrait: “Master, my fellow practitioners have been arrested. I know I should clarify the truth to the police, but I dare not go. I beg Master to help me save them. Thank you Master!” Not long after, several of the arrested practitioners returned home. 

Although I was not arrested, there was an undercover agent standing outside of our apartment unit. He followed me wherever I went. When my husband saw him, he quarreled with me, which made me more panicky. I kept studying the Fa and sending righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil and my fear. 

I told myself and all beings: “I am a disciple of Master Li Hongzhi, who is in charge of me. I will correct myself according to the Fa if I did anything wrong; no one can use any excuse to persecute me.” I also recited Master’s Fa on the way to and from work. My fear gradually subsided.

As I arrived home one day, I saw the officer hiding behind a tree across the road from my apartment building. My fear surged. I wanted to leave as soon as possible. I was about to turn into an alley, but instead, I told myself: “This fear is not me, I must clarify the truth to him!” I turned around and looked for him. 

Without hesitating, I said to him: “You are here to follow me and watch me. What is your purpose in following me for so long?” He denied that he was there to follow me, saying that his grandpa lived nearby. I didn’t mind that he lied, and said: “I practice Falun Dafa. I thought you were here to follow and monitor me. If that's right, don’t do it. It’s not good for you.” 

I told him that before I practiced Falun Dafa, my health was poor at an early age. I tried Western medicine, Chinese medicine, and folk medicine; but none of them worked. Eventually, I practiced Falun Dafa. In less than a month, my physical ailments disappeared. My skin disease, cervical spondylosis, and pharyngitis were cured, and my temper improved. 

He asked: “If you think it’s good, and practice it at home, why do you talk about it in public?” 

I asked him: “If your relatives, friends, colleagues, or neighbors were sick, and you knew there was a special medicine that could cure their diseases, would you tell them?” He said: “Of course I would.”

“Yes, I have benefited from this good practice, so I am going to tell my relatives, friends, colleagues, and neighbors about it.” He said, “You Falun Dafa engage in politics.” I knew that he was referring to us persuading people to do the three withdrawals. I then described the crimes committed by the CCP over the years. 

“From the moment the CCP came to power, it has victimized landlords, capitalists, and scholars. It violently suppressed the student democracy movement in 1989. It later started persecuting Falun Dafa and harvesting organs from living practitioners to sell on the black market. 

“Falun Dafa followers cultivate truthfulness, compassion, and forbearance. We don’t want to see innocent people suffer; so we risk our lives to persuade people to do the three withdrawals. Practitioners are saving people and doing a great act of kindness! Don’t you agree?”

I also told him why Falun Dafa practitioners sued former Chinese leader Jiang Zemin. That Jiang had no legal basis for persecuting Dafa. And in order to provoke people’s hatred of practitioners, he deliberately staged the “Tiananmen Self-immolation” and blamed it on Falun Dafa. 

Afterward, the student said, “Thank you for telling me this” and left before I had a chance to do the three withdrawals for him. I later saw him at the entrance to an alley. I wanted to approach him, but he disappeared, and I never saw him again.