Looking Inward to Overcome Sickness Karma

(Minghui.org) The year 2020 has passed In a blink of an eye. I would like to share my cultivation experience during that year.

Remembering My Mission

Due to the pandemic, we are not allowed to set up the booth to display Dafa truth- clarification material at ASU university. Therefore, I am considering making more phone calls to clarify the Dafa truth, and awaken the conscience of more people. My husband, my two sons, and I installed automated phone calling software. Therefore, there is four phone calling systems working to clarify the truth about Falun Dafa every day.

I have installed both automated and manual phone call software as I know each phone number is very precious. I selected and called those phone numbers which were not answered or had a shorter answering time one more time, and then called these numbers manually. The result improved significantly.

I usually start to make phone calls around 9 a.m. Beijing time, which is 6 p.m. here. The phone call result is better at 2 p.m., which is 11 p.m. Beijing time, as people in China are more relaxed after lunch, and less busy in the afternoon.

Sometimes I open my speaker to interact with people. When the other party answered the phone, they would say, “Falun Dafa Is Good!” I am very happy as I can feel they understand the truth and their conscience has been awakened. I often use the following truth broadcast programs, such as “Spreading Dafa’s Blessing During the Pandemic,” “ Why Is There a Plague,” the song of “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good”,“ The US Election” and “Intense Pandemic.” The answering rate is pretty good. Sometimes when I called around 1 a.m. here, even the calls to the police stations were all answered.

I send righteous thoughts every day and listen to the truth-clarification broadcast with people every day. When I played the song of “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” I was moved to tears many times. I was filled with compassion and righteousness. Therefore, I was reluctant to go to sleep at that time. I had been using the Fa-instrument of phone calling until last December. Then, they were blocked. So I installed a new phone calling system, which is automated and manual.

Looking Inward and Rectifying Myself During Times of Sickness Karma Occurred

Recently, I experienced symptoms of sickness karma, which was caused by my unrighteous thoughts.

I asked my husband to save the leftover dishes, and wrap them with plastic wrap on December 29, 2020. He was reluctant and complained a little bit. At that time, I was cooking for 11 people every day and really felt tired and that I was being treated unfairly. So, I replied: “You will have to do it when I cannot do it.” As a result, I really couldn’t do it that evening. This tribulation was caused because of my unrighteous thought.

Around noon the next day, I went downstairs trying to make food. But my right nostril started bleeding. I didn’t want to affect my husband’s appetite, so I went upstairs without eating anything. The bleeding lasted 4 hours and 50 minutes. In the beginning, my mindset was stable, and I thought that it was a good thing – as Master Li (Falun Dafa's founder) was purifying my body.

But after some time I started to feel upset. There were stains of blood everywhere and I felt very weak. When I walked, I felt like stepping on cotton. Gradually, I felt helpless. But I really didn’t want to cause trouble for Master, as Master bears too much for me already.

My family began to panic too, and we didn’t know what to do. My elder son said, “If you are a Dafa practitioner, you need to pass the tribulation on your own. If you feel you are an ordinary person, then go to a hospital.” Of course, I never thought about going to a hospital. So I asked Master to help me, “Master, please help me. It’s dangerous if I keep bleeding like this. I can’t die now as I haven’t fulfilled my mission yet.” Then, the nose bleeding gradually stopped.

After two days, my nose bled for more than an hour after 1 a.m. I asked Master to help me multiple times. We already had booked airline tickets for our trip to Washington DC on January 6, and we were departing in 2 days. Under the blessing of Master, and the support of my family’s righteous thoughts, I made it to DC. When we got there, my husband and my elder son participated in activities, while I found a place to sit down and send righteous thoughts. I was very weak, felt chilly and it was difficult to walk. I finally made it home with my family’s help.

Given this tribulation, I looked inward carefully, realized that we should cultivate our xinxing, and cultivate our speech too, as it is a very serious matter for Dafa practitioners. I truly tried, but failed to improve my xinxing level, and thus let the old evil forces take advantage of my loophole and persecute me.

I also discovered that I still was indoctrinated by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). I want to be praised, disliked being criticized, I'm opinionated, and like to do grandiose things to impress people. I would be resentful if things are not in line with my acquired notions. I didn’t study the Fa diligently and slacked off in cultivation. Therefore, I was not truly cultivating. When I found these attachments, I knew it was my fault. So, I immediately rectified myself with the Fa. I am diligent with my Fa-study, do the exercises every day, and improve my xinxing by cultivating every thought. Finally, I overcame the tribulation.

I realized how difficult it is for fellow practitioners when facing tribulations. At this crucial moment, they need support from practitioners and their families, who will send righteous thoughts. Given these tribulations, my understanding is that we should believe in Master and the Fa one-hundred percent, and not be moved by illusions. We need to completely eliminate all negative thoughts imposed by the old forces in our own dimensional field. We don’t acknowledge, nor allow these degenerated things to exist, and we should completely eliminate them.

In the meantime, we should look inward, eliminate our human attachments and send strong righteous thoughts: I am a Dafa practitioner in the Fa-rectification period. Master protects me. Everything that is unrighteous within me will be rectified in Dafa. I will adjust my mindset with righteous thoughts and actions.

Dafa practitioners who are experiencing tribulations, please remember to remove resentment, eliminate the attachment to self, and cultivate selflessness and pure compassion. Dafa practitioners have no enemies. If you can do it, who dares to move you? Who can move you? Master is by our side.

Thank you Master for saving my life. There is no human language in this world to express my gratitude to Master. I will strive forward diligently in cultivation to be worthy of Master’s salvation.