I No Longer Fear the Persecution

(Minghui.org) Since the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started the persecution of Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999, practitioners of Falun Dafa (also known as Falun Gong) have actively participated in truth-clarification activities to help bring awareness of the persecution and to stop the atrocities. I am one of them.

Initially, I asked my relatives in my hometown to collect a few Minghui brochures and other materials. I then printed more copies at home and distributed them door to door.

I later bought a computer, and practitioners helped me install software and taught me how to go online, download and print these materials. My home became a family-based material production site.

The only problem was that I hadn’t focused on Fa study, as I was busy producing materials. The old forces took advantage of my loopholes.

Arrested and Detained

While I was surfing the internet in August 2013, the director of the neighborhood administration office deceived me into opening the door. A group of people then entered my home. I was arrested and taken to a police station. Later that night, I was taken to a brainwashing center.

I wanted to recall the Dafa teachings, but I couldn’t remember anything from the books that I had studied. I regretted it very much that I hadn’t studied and memorized the Fa well enough. I decided to study the Fa better when I was released.

The second time I was arrested was because I filed criminal complaints to the Supreme People’s Court and the Supreme People’s Procuratorate in 2015, against Jiang Zemin, the former CCP leader who initiated the persecution of Falun Gong.

After being detained twice and released, personnel from the neighborhood administration office and the police often came to my home to harass me. I was very annoyed and hated them. I didn’t have any compassion toward them.

Letting Go of Fear

One day, a police officer rang the bell. I didn’t open it. After he left, I went to my friend’s home downstairs to see what was going on. She wasn’t home and kept her key at my place.

I opened the curtains and saw people with red armbands walking into different buildings. Fear arose, and I wondered whether they were looking for me. I didn’t go my home that night, nor did I turn on the light in my friend’s home.

When I returned home the next morning, I thought I shouldn’t live in fear. Instead, I should study the Fa more and send forth righteous thoughts more. I should let go of my fear. I am a Dafa practitioner and doing a righteous thing. I am a good person, and these people are poisoned by the CCP’s propaganda. I should awaken their conscience and treat them with compassion.

I memorized Master’s teaching:

“Should you have fear,it will seize upon youIf thoughts are righteous,evil will collapseThe cultivator’s mindis loaded with FaSend righteous thoughts,and rotten demons explodeGods walk the earth,validating the Fa”(“What’s to Fear?”, Hong Yin Vol. II)

“Dafa does not leave the body,The heart harbors Zhen-Shan-Ren;In the world is a great Arhat,Spirits and ghosts fear greatly.”(“Mighty Virtue,” Hong Yin)

Clarifying the Truth

I kept in mind that I was awakening people’s conscience. So when I went out to clarify the truth, if I met anyone who I thought was watching me, I greeted them, clarified the truth, and asked them to quit the CCP and its youth organizations.

I was taking care of my elderly parents in my hometown in the autumn of 2018. Personnel from the retirement office couldn’t find me, so they contacted my husband to ask me about the“details of my joining the CCP.” I told them that all the information was in my records and they could look at it themselves.

I returned home later, but I was out most of the time when the retirement officers came to visit.

One afternoon, around 4:30 p.m., an agent from the 610 Office and four others came to my home. I told them that I hadn’t paid Party membership fees for over 10 years and was no longer a Party member. I told them not to come anymore.

They wanted to know if I was still practicing Falun Dafa and asked me which I would choose, Falun Dafa or the CCP. I said, “I told you a moment ago. I haven’t paid my membership fees for over 10 years and I'm no longer a Party member. I will continue to practice Falun Dafa.”

Personnel from the retirement office came to harass me again in early 2019. I wasn’t at home, so they called me and told me to meet them in their office. They said that people from the Commission of Discipline Inspection wanted to talk to me.

I thought I would use the opportunity to clarify the truth to them, so I went. After talking with them, the person in charge went out to report my status over the phone. He returned to tell me that the 610 Office would follow up with me at a later date.

I was scared after returning home and was afraid of being persecuted again. I even planned to hide and packed some personal belongings. However, I thought it over and decided to stay put. I believed that I should face whatever came my way. After I discussed this with a fellow practitioner, she agreed with me, so I decided not to leave. The practitioner sent forth righteous thoughts for me and selected some truth-clarifying materials for me.

A meeting was arranged at the Discipline Inspection office. One day before, I went to the retirement office and requested to move the meeting to the retirement office. I thought there would be more people there so I could better clarify the truth to them. I also found some practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts for me outside the building.

On the day of the meeting, I sent forth righteous thoughts 40 minutes before I left. I knew that Master was with me and taking care of me. I had Master and the Fa, so what was there to fear?

Master said,

“If he is able to let go of life and death, he is a god; if he isn’t able to let go of life and death, he is human.” (Teachings at the Conference in Australia)

After I sent righteous thoughts, I gathered the truth-clarifying materials and went to the meeting. I noticed something when I stepped out the door: the sky and the environment around me was different. Everything looked a little rosy red, and the air was clean and fresh. I was quite happy.

When I left the gate of our community, I saw a police vehicle coming. My heart wasn’t moved. I went to the retirement office and saw a police vehicle parking nearby. Again, I was not afraid.

I went upstairs and greeted the person in charge. I gave him a flier and asked him to take time to read it. He gave me a thumbs up and said, “You Falun Gong practitioners are great. You dare to do this and dare to shoulder the responsibilities. It's fine for you to give it to me, but don’t give it to others.”

I thanked him for his kindness and concern for my safety.

I went to the secretary's office and saw the secretary and two officers sitting there. I went in with a smile and shook their hands. I gave them each a flier and told them that it was legal to practice Falun Gong.

One of them said, “There's not much to talk about today. We just want to double check what you talked about last time.” He handed me some printouts and tried to find reading glasses for me.

I said, “No need. Many practitioners of my age or even older don’t need reading glasses.”

I looked at my records and statement that showed I was no longer a Party member. I asked, “Are we done? Are there any other departments that want to talk to me?”

They said, “We're finished. No one will need to look for you later.”

After they left, I talked to the secretary of the retirement office and told her the reason I started practicing Falun Dafa. I told her about the power of Dafa other practitioners and I had experienced. I asked her to spend more time learning about the practice.

The second day, a staff member from the Discipline Inspection office told me, “You have been expelled from the CCP.”

“Good!” I replied happily.

Only when we truly believe in Master and Dafa can we let go of our attachment of fear and walk steadily on our cultivation path. I will continue my cultivation without going astray. I will study the Fa more to live up to Master’s expectations and help Master awaken the conscience of more sentient beings.