(Minghui.org) I am a young practitioner who is currently in high school. I feel fortunate to be immersed in Dafa and would like to share some of my experiences and enlightenments with fellow practitioners.
My knowledge of Dafa started with my grandmother. She was a practitioner, and she only told me verbally about the wonders of Dafa. I always knew to remember “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” but didn’t officially begin cultivating Falun Dafa. However, Master has been compassionately protecting me from being indoctrinated with Chinese Communist Party (CCP) ideals. I began on my path of cultivation after attending middle school and the process was gradual. I went from listening to Master’s audio lectures to officially studying Zhuan Falun. The whole process took more than six months.
I was not diligent in studying the Fa due to my heavy and stressful school workload during middle and high school. I was unable to attend group Fa study and other practitioners told me that I did not need to clarify the truth. So I never regarded myself as Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple. I thought that my mission was to become a better person.
My notions changed after spending a lot of time studying the Fa. Master arranged this cultivation environment for me, and that meant there are many sentient beings waiting for me so they can be saved.
I started to post Falun Dafa stickers. At times, I’d procrastinate and not post the stickers until the following day. A few nights ago, I had forgotten about the stickers because I was playing basketball. I remembered the stickers after I returned to the classroom for an evening self-study session. I wanted to post the stickers the next day when I heard a voice in my mind say, “Sentient beings are waiting for you.” I felt ashamed of myself. “What right do I have to delay sentient beings from learning the truth about Falun Dafa?” When my evening self-study session ended, I headed out and posted five to six stickers in the residential buildings around my school. I felt reassured while heading home. I enlightened that I need to do whatever Master has arranged.
My jealousy and competitive mentality would surface when I had a lot of pressure at school. I would get upset when others scored better. I would cheer for them on the outside and was unhappy deep down. I had thoughts like, “If this or that had not happened to me, I would have gotten a better grade than so and so.” I knew that these thoughts were not right, so I tried to rectify them by telling myself to be more compassionate. When I recognized that this was my false-self, I had less resentment and complaints. I’d remind myself: If something is mine, I will not lose it and if something is not mine, I won’t be able to have it even if I fight for it. I was determined to get rid of the attachment of jealousy and not let Master down.
I have maintained good grades during middle and high school. Compared with my classmates, I haven’t been too stressed and have even had time to study the Fa. The environment at school is complicated and I could be interfered with by the attachment of jealousy and the competitive mentality if my Fa study was lacking. Master is looking after me. For example, I might have negative thoughts about a classmate if the classmate solved a challenging question. I might think, “This is not big deal, I can do even better.” I would then be unable to solve questions with these negative thoughts in my mind. I realized that the negative substances were hindering my wisdom. Master has bestowed me with wisdom and I need to relinquish my attachment of jealousy. I rejected and eliminated these notions. I became much clearer in my mind almost immediately and was able to achieve good grades. I also held hope about one day clarifying the truth to my father and calling on his knowing side.
My father has always held high hopes for me to attend a good university. He would try to instill me with Party culture and he forbid me to study the Fa. He threw away my MP3 player when he found out I was listening to Master’s audio lectures. I returned home after I finished my evening self-study session. He would not go to sleep before I turned off the light, thus he left me with no time to study the Fa. I hated him and knew that this was not right. We were chatting about Chinese New Year once when my father said, “Everyone is busy with work and making money. The traditional festivities are not seen these days.” It dawned on me that my father still believed in traditional values and his knowing side was making those statements. Though he was immersed in ordinary people’s profits and gains, he still had a knowing side. It was not his true intention to hinder my cultivation. Perhaps it was the old forces at play, or perhaps it was a test for me.
My father hoped I would attend university since he never got the chance to. So he was always very strict with me, but gentle with my sister. I felt it was unfair and always held a grudge against him. My sister would cry and yell when I got close to her. My father would reprimand me and say, “Play nicely with your sister. Don’t upset her.” The relationship with my father started to become distanced and I even got physical with him one time. After cultivating Dafa, I learned to let go of my grudges and sentimentality toward my family members. Master’s Fa principles have taught me that everything that happens is directed at my attachments. When I let got of my attachments, everything steered towards a better path.
My father became proud of my accomplishments, and I was able to get along better with my sister. Dafa has benevolently resolved the bad predestined relationship with my father. I believe that Master arranged this for me to upgrade my xinxing. Thank you Master for enlightening me and making sure that I do not steer away from Dafa.
Master has said in “The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos” (Hong Yin II) that,
“Compassion can harmonize Heaven and Earth,”
I would silently ask Master for help to have sentient beings awaken after seeing the stickers. Each informational sticker is the product of practitioners’ hard work and is also a sentient being’s hope for being saved.
Master’s boundless compassion has saved countless Falun Dafa practitioners. As practitioners we also need boundless compassion to save sentient beings. Every informational sticker and each copy of Minghui Weekly provide hope for sentient beings. My abilities are limited but Master would often encourage me. I would pass by informational stickers that I had posted a long time ago and witness sentient beings happiness about being saved. That happiness surpasses that of any other ordinary emotions. It was a special and genuine joy.
There is still a long path ahead of me in cultivation. I am still lacking in studying the Fa and adhering to Master’s principles. I will cultivate diligently with an unwavering heart from now on.
Thank you Master for your compassionate salvation!
The above are my understandings at my current level of cultivation. Please compassionately point out any mistakes.