Conflict With Practitioner Helped Me Find My Attachments

(Minghui.org) The pandemic was quite serious in my area last spring, and we were not allowed to go out or visit others. My cultivation state wasn’t good at the time, and I was bored sitting at home.

I told my husband, “It would be nice to grow some vegetables; they are healthy for the children too, and it makes a good pastime and will lift my mood.”

I think the old forces saw my human thinking and interfered with me. My husband cleared a parcel of uncultivated land which was adjacent to another practitioner’s uncultivated land.

There was a small road between the two parcels, and they were surrounded by other neighbors’ cultivated land.

I noticed later that the practitioner extended her parcel by setting up a barrier, and placed a big rock between our lands. As a result, the road became narrower, which made it impossible to transport water or fertilizer.

I was working on the field one day and heard someone say, “What is going on here? I can’t even walk through the road. And these people practice Falun Dafa.”

I blamed that practitioner for giving Dafa a bad name. I thought she was being greedy and didn’t care about our image as practitioners.

It was her fault and it had nothing to do with me. It didn’t occur to me that I should look inward after hearing the comment; I only focused on someone else’s mistake.

I ran into the practitioner the next day, and said, “It’s fine that you’ve expanded your parcel, but I think you should remove the rock because it’s blocking the road.”

She got upset and made some negative comments. I talked to my husband, and we decided to scale back our parcel so that people could walk through.

I thought I did a good job by taking a step back to make up for the practitioner’s shortcomings. I felt I had met the standard of a practitioner and didn’t think further about my attachment.

Two days later the practitioner placed the rocks outside of the barrier further. I was upset and wanted to seek revenge.

I then thought that as a practitioner I should not behave that way. Bad elements were interfering with me, so I negated them and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate them.

A neighbor was working on his land at the time and saw me getting upset at the situation. He walked over and said with a smile, “You both practice Falun Dafa. She is doing it for health reasons while you are improving your character. If you want to cultivate, then cultivate your heart.”

I realized Master, the founder of Falun Dafa, was using this person's mouth to enlighten me. I searched inward and was shocked to find that I was resentful and hated that practitioner. I also had a strong emotional attachment to my family.

I thought, “Why can I take conflicts with regular people lightly but cannot let go of conflicts with practitioners, even going to the point of harboring hatred?

“Why do I still have hatred in my heart after so many years of cultivation? I should calm down and find my attachments.”

It was my fault. I didn’t see myself as a practitioner and used an everyday point of view to measure things.

I didn’t sleep that night, and read “Teachings Given on Lantern Festival Day, 2003,” “Teachings at the 2004 International Conference in New York,” and “Teachings at the 2005 Conference in San Francisco.”

I finally understood that compassionate Master was looking after me. Tears streamed down my face, like a broken beaded necklace.

I said to Master, “I’m wrong, and she is a good practitioner. I’m grateful for Master’s salvation.”

I hereby express my gratitude to that practitioner, for she helped me find my attachments and improve. Although I still have many shortcomings, I would like to study the Fa more, cultivate steadily, and go back to my origin with Master.

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