(Minghui.org) As a young Falun Dafa practitioner born into a family of devoted practitioners, I was fortunate to be raised in a nurturing cultivation environment that shielded me from many societal influences. In my early years, I wholeheartedly embraced the practice alongside my parents.
But after I started school, I gradually drifted away from my spiritual path. I allowed worldly attachments to take root, including competitiveness, a desire for recognition and self-interest, and even jealousy. This led to a sense of arrogance and refusing to accept criticism. Regrettably, I found it challenging to keep up regular Fa study and exercises, and often prioritized other aspects of my life.
In time, I even began to delude myself, interpreting Master’s teachings to mean that I might only be a Dafa disciple for the duration of the Fa-rectification of the human world. This incorrect perspective led me to slack off even further in my cultivation as I increasingly immersed myself in ordinary people’s forms of entertainment.
In junior high school, I succumbed to the allure of videos on WeChat and other platforms and became addicted to them. I wasted a lot of time, and my academic performance paid the price. I then turned to reading articles and novels, using “stress relief” as justification. Much of their content contained immoral and demonic elements and explicit material, things that were utterly incompatible with the principles of Dafa practice. My mother, recognizing the dangers, attempted to guide me away from these detrimental influences, but I obstinately resisted her advice.
Master said:
“A person is like a container, and he is whatever he contains.” (“Melt Into the Fa,” Essentials for Further Advancement)
I initially rejected the negative content, but over time, I acclimated to it and developed a strong interest in it. I began to discuss it with my classmates, further embedding these corrosive elements in my mind.
Last year, thought karma manifested as a dark mass in my mind, sometimes compelling me to act in strange ways. For example, when I was happy, it drove me to kick over a table, walk up to the podium, scream, or dance wildly. As it happened more frequently, I became vigilant, and tried to stop it by sending forth righteous thoughts, but it still came back to me sometimes.
I uninstalled WeChat and stopped watching the videos and novels. As my mind became clearer, the dark force, in response, intensified its efforts. It now attacks me with invasive and demonic phrases, particularly when I’m focused on my studies. I continue to fight it but struggle to get rid of it completely.
When my mother discovered how much I was struggling, she emphasized the significance of diligent cultivation, which strengthens righteous thoughts. She reminded me to have faith in my Dafa-given abilities and actively gather more righteous thoughts to do better.
She also encouraged me to share my experiences to expose these kinds of evil. It is my sincere hope that my account serves as a wake-up call to those practitioners who are addicted to the Internet. Let’s all be wary of demonic interference to ensure there is no room for the evil to exploit us.
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