Snapping out of the Sea of Suffering to Save People

(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in 2012, and am eternally grateful to Master Li, Dafa’s founder, for saving me from someone who wanted to let go of life and wanted to end it, to being very happy and filled with joy. I didn’t expect that when I felt totally hopeless, fortune would come down from heaven and turn my life around. Master saved me from being sent to hell. Every time I think about Master and Dafa, tears of gratitude cover my face.

Master said:

“Your name was removed from the ledgers of Hell the day you decided to take up the practice.” (“2018 Fa Teaching Given in Washington, D.C.,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XV)

I treasure everything Master has done for me, and treasure the predestined relationships with fellow practitioners. I treasure even more, those who didn’t obtain the Fa and still suffer. I hope they can understand the truth and be saved.

My Miserable Life

I had a difficult life since childhood. I’m the second child in my family, and have three sisters. I was in poor health since I was young, and often suffered from stomachaches. For some reason, I felt more ill when it came to the Chinese New Year. One side of my head ached terribly, and I was told that I had incurred spirit possession.

As a child, I often saw demons and ghosts in other dimensions. Some came after my life, some came to strangle me. They were so vicious! Sometimes they came as a group. They wanted me to die, but I said I wouldn’t die. I could see them when I closed my eyes. I was petrified and lived in fear. As a result, I was very weak and terrified.

Moreover, in my family I seemed to be inessential. Even though I was a good child and stayed out of trouble, my parents often beat me for no apparent reason. In my young heart, I didn’t know what caring was, what parental love meant, or what good fortune meant, as all of these were not part of my world.

After I grew up, someone introduced a man to me, who later became my husband. He was five years older, a bit shorter than me, and only five feet tall. He was quite ugly, and also an alcoholic. Although I didn’t agree, my mother wanted me to marry him. I thus had no choice but to follow her wishes, and we got married two months later.

We lived with my in-laws after we got married. My husband still drank a lot and badmouthed me every day. Sometimes he even beat me. He also had affairs. When my birthday came around, he never celebrated it with me, saying that he’d only celebrate it when I reached 70.

My mother-in-law was very difficult and unreasonable. My in-laws also often cursed at me. When I was with my parents, I suffered a lot and had to be very careful in everything I did. Now that I was married, I had to be even more careful. In my day-to-day life, all I did was quietly work and take care of my in-laws. However, they still looked down on me.

Two months into my pregnancy, my father-in-law cursed at me again. I felt terribly wronged and wanted to end my life. As those closest to me treated me like this, there was no one in the world who cared about me and treated me well. I lacked the courage to carry on with my life and decided to end it. However, when I tried to overdose on medicine, it was as if my mother-in-law knew, and came back in from outside. She snatched the medicine from me, and prevented me from drinking enough to kill myself.

I felt the sadness and bitterness in my life, and asked many questions, like, “Why do people live in this world? How come I lived such a difficult life? What’s the point of living?”

“I was a happy bird”

While living such a life, I wondered when I would see the end of it. I was only in my early thirties. I often thought about how and where to die -- whether at home or at work.

I will always remember November 20, 2012! I had made up my mind to end my life, and sent a message to my sister, telling her that I couldn’t live any more, and asked her to take good care of our parents. I told them not to feel sad. My sister had started practicing Falun Dafa, and said, “You can’t die. Dafa can save you. I’ll go to your home right now.”

She came from out of town to see me at 8 p.m. Both of us began to read Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa. I felt wonderful, my heart lightened up, and the darkness in my heart dissipated. When it passed 10 o’clock, we went to bed. I closed my eyes, and after a while said to my sister, “Sister, I can’t see ghosts any more. They’re all gone! Master has driven them all away.” I couldn’t express my happiness and gratitude to Master.

I finally obtained the Fa when I turned 42. Dafa freed me from endless suffering. I felt that Dafa was so wonderful and amazing! All the years of suffering was gone. It was as if I endured countless hardships just to obtain the Fa today and to have full faith in Master and the Fa. From then on, I’ve transformed from a person suffering many tribulations to being the happiest person alive. My suffering in the first half of my life ended abruptly because I obtained the Fa.

My mother later came to stay at my place for a few months. We studied the Fa and did the exercises together. I became illness-free, which was completely different from before. I put my heart into studying the Fa and doing the exercises, and kept elevating my xinxing. No matter whether it was at work or in my personal life, I went through a positive transformations. I was a happy bird, flying up and down, coming and going, and never stopped.

Meeting Other Practitioners, Beginning to Clarify the Facts

Since studying Zhuan Falun and Master’s new lectures, I come to understand that every practitioner had his or her mission to accomplish—I was no exception. Master saved me, so I knew I should help Master to save people. I once tried to clarify the facts to a woman, but she didn’t want to listen to me. I was very worried. What should I do? I didn’t know how to clarify the facts and wanted to find a practitioner to help me.

I used all kinds of ways to find practitioners, which took quite a bit of effort. In a dream, I found practitioners multiple times, and was so happy. But when I woke up, I realized it was only a dream. I asked Master to help me meet practitioners.

It was a lovely day on July 19, 2017. I was waiting outside a hotel to attend a wedding. An elderly person was standing near me, who had a rosy complexion. I walked up to her, and said, “Hello there! You have good health. For your age, I can see your rosy complexion.”

Her daughter came over and clarified the facts to me. It turned out that everyone in her family were practitioners. I excitedly replied, “Practitioners! I’ve finally found you! I’m also a practitioner. It’s so hard to find you!” Tears covered my face.

She pointed at two ladies who were not far from us to show me that they were practitioners as well. She called them over, and it turned out that none of them lived far from me. Some of them even lived in the same district. I had finally found practitioners. I was truly grateful for Master’s arrangement!

The next day, I studied the Fa with Ms. Gu, who was one of them. She cared for me like a big sister. After we finished studying the Fa, I went to hand out Dafa informational materials with her. A few days later, she took me to the nearby countryside to hand out materials.

Ms. Gu took me there on her motorcycle. We talked to whomever we ran into, and distributed materials to the households when no one was around. Soon enough, we finished handing them all out. She wondered how I did it so fast.

Ms. Gu took me all over the city to clarify the facts to people. One day, she talked to a young man in his 20s. I also needed to clarify the facts to people, and asked Master to empower me.

We passed by a bicycle repair shop, and I saw someone having their bike repaired. I went inside to talk to him, saying, “Hello there! People are quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) to ensure their safety. Have you done it?” He hadn’t. I asked if he had worn the red scarf before. He said he did, so I suggested that he quit it to ensure his safety. I gave him a pseudonym and asked him to remember the phrases “Falun Dafa is good!” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” Within a short time he decided to quit. I knew that Master helping and encouraging me.

Overcoming Xinxing Tribulations

Since I began practicing, I have been tempered by xinxing tests with my husband. I sometimes managed to pass them well, but other times I did not. He once picked up a call and started talking to a woman. I tried to persuade him not to do bad things, but he told me not to get involved in his business.

He was often away from home for long periods of time, and didn’t pick up my calls. I was very upset and couldn’t control my xinxing. I thought of all the things he did to me over the years, and couldn’t accept any advice from fellow practitioners. I was depressed, and couldn’t calm my mind to study the Fa. I thought to myself: I don’t want to live with him any more. For our family, I have lived a thrifty life. In the beginning, I had no job, so in order to save money, I only had one pair of trousers. I washed them and then wore them again. But he spent a lot of money on other women. Our child has grown up, but he didn’t care.

I didn’t look inward, and behaved like an everyday person. The more I thought about it, the more upset I became. My face turned pale, and I had trouble opening my eyes. I thought I was about to collapse. I sometimes lost my direction and couldn’t find my home. This state lasted for a couple of months.

With practitioners’ help I continued Fa study and sharing with other practitioners, and I gradually awakened. I knew I shouldn’t give up on cultivation for the sake of him. If I were to give up on such a precious Dafa that was hard to obtain, wouldn’t I have fallen into the evil’s trap? Wasn’t the evil trying to destroy me by making use of my attachments? I was so ashamed when I began to look inward. This sentimentality almost ruined my cultivation. It was truly not worth it! Didn’t my life come for this Fa?! After I snapped out of sentimentality, I began to return on the path of assisting Master in the Fa-rectification.

Tirelessly Saving People, Coming out of Danger Safe and Sound

Empowered by Master, and assisted by Ms. Gu, we did better and better in clarifying the facts about Falun Dafa, saving people, and handing out informational materials.

We usually could help between 12 to over 20 people quit the CCP and its youth organizations every day. We took the bus to the very last stop, to help people with predestined relationships quit the CCP organizations.

One day in 2019, when I was upset with my husband and was muddle-headed, we ran into a man in his 50s. Ms. Gu clarified the facts to him and tried to give him some materials. He not only refused them, but also said something unpleasant. Ms. Gu quickly left him, and waved at me to follow her. But I didn’t see her, and went and talked to him. I said, “Hello there! Can I give you these materials to read? Falun Dafa is the Buddha Law, it’s for saving people.”

He walked up to me, grabbed my hand tightly, and said, “You can’t go now!” He used his cell phone to call the police.

I responded, “I recovered from my illnesses because of practicing Falun Dafa. I was terminally ill before and on the brink of death. Falun Dafa saved my life. I also want you to have a good future. This is all I’m here for.” I begged for Master’s help, so this man would not create karma and I would escape from danger. The man released my hand, and I quickly went to look for Ms. Gu.

Another time, we passed out materials to a plainclothes police officer. He said to both of us, “Are you still doing this now?! Let me see what you are handing out. You know who I am? I work for the police station.” But Ms. Gu still passed materials to him.

She said, “Please take a look. It’s good for you to know about it.”

He didn’t take it, and responded, “You can go now.” Master resolved another potentially troubling situation for us.

Upon experiencing all this we began to look inward, to see which attachments we hadn’t let go of, and determine what caused these tribulations. I was stuck in sentimentality, and wasn’t treating myself as a practitioner. I thus didn’t have a good handle on my family affairs, so the evil was able to take advantage of me. Cultivation is truly serious. Only by following Master’s requirements can I save more people without risk to my safety.

Treating My In-Laws Kindly

Dafa has supernatural powers and can transform a being fundamentally. I have been tempered in Dafa, rectified, remodeled, and elevated. Dafa has helped me get out of the evil predestined relationships from the past.

After I tried to kill myself by overdosing on medicine, we moved out from living with my in-laws. They didn’t give us a penny to help, and we rented a place.

I managed to let go of my resentment toward my in-laws after I began cultivation. My father-in-law was in poor health, and he had a stent in his heart. When he was hospitalized, my husband and I went to see him.

I had let go of all the resentment I had before, and had only compassion and sympathy for him. His doctor said that the blood vessels around his heart were blocked. I clarified the facts to my father-in-law, and helped him quit the CCP organizations. I told him that by reciting the phrases, “Falun Dafa is good!” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” he’d get better.

He felt better soon after he recited the phrases for a while, and was discharged from the hospital. He had been hospitalized multiple times, and every time it was my husband and I who covered his medical expenses. In 2020, my father-in-law passed away at the age of 79. On that day, he looked very peaceful.

I helped my mother-in-law move in and live with us. I took great care of her and comforted her. I let go of all my resentment toward her, and only thought about how to treat her well. I bought goodies for her from time to time. A couple of months later, she seemed to have gained some weight, and was in a good mood. My mother-in-law said to me, “You have changed! You have truly changed! You used to be so sick. Your hands were cold, your face so pale, and your eyes were dazed. Now your hands are so warm, and you are in high spirits. Its so wonderful!”

I also snapped out of resentment toward my parents. Even though they didn’t treat me well as a child, as their daughter, I was still worried about them. I often mailed them gifts. Last year, I bought my father a full set of expensive underwear, which cost me over 200 yuan. He was very happy, saying that they were very soft and comfortable. In the past few years every time it came to the Chinese New Year, I always bought gifts for my parents and mother-in-law. Regardless of how they treated me in the past, I let go of my hatred. As long as they were happy, I was also happy!

Dafa gave me a broad and peaceful mind, a compassionate heart, and a pair of wise and bright eyes. Dafa and Master completely transformed me. I will elevate in Dafa!

Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners!