Malaysia Fahui | Overcoming My Attachment to Emotion and Cultivating Diligently

(Minghui.org) Greetings esteemed Master! Greetings fellow practitioners! 

I’m a Malaysian Chinese, and I’m 69 years old. I started to practice Falun Dafa in February 2003. During these 17 years I experienced true happiness and enjoy great health.

I often had fevers as a child. When I was in elementary school I avoided sitting under the fan. I took a lot of antipyretics. When my menstrual cycle started I was in so much pain that I took many pain relievers. This situation lasted for 40 years. I underwent an operation, but my condition did not improve.

I married in the 1980s and gave birth to two daughters. My suffering increased. I was so miserable that I could not stand or sit for too long. It was even difficult for me to bend over. To improve my health I started jogging and started to practice qigong. After a year, nothing improved. I had an upset stomach after drinking a cup of milk tea one day. I thought it was hyperacidity, and I didn’t take it seriously. Whenever I ate I felt like I wanted to vomit, and I also felt pain in my back. A specialist said I had gallstones. I was afraid to undergo an operation, so I threw away the doctor’s referral for laser surgery in Kuala Lumpur. I decided not to seek further treatment. 

I was in such torment, but I didn’t say anything to my husband or daughters. Whenever it flared up, I just lay in bed for five or six hours until the pain subsided.

My husband and I had conflicts in our relationship. As a result I couldn’t eat or sleep well. We finally divorced. I went to the local church and listened as the pastor read the Bible. I learned to pray, etc. I stopped going after a month because I didn’t know what they were teaching and felt I had learned nothing.

I Start Practicing Falun Dafa

In 1999, I read a newspaper headline that Falun Dafa was banned in China, and there was a photo of practitioners. I didn’t read the content of the article, but I wondered what Falun Dafa was.

I went to a shop in 2002 to have a key made. I noticed 7 Chinese characters inside a glass cabinet: The World Needs Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. 

Soon afterward, a friend came to my house and told me about Falun Dafa and how wonderful it was. He asked me to check it out, but I said no. When he mentioned it again I told him that I was not interested. A week later, he brought a CD of the Falun Dafa exercises. He handed it to me and said, “See if this can help you.” I put it in the player and turned it on. In this way, I learned the exercises taught by Master Li Hongzhi. 

I later got the book Zhuan Falun and began reading. Three days later my back pain disappeared. I felt wonderful. The menstrual pain also stopped, and the gallstone pain was gone. I felt 30 years younger.

Raising Awareness

After the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published in 2004, I knew that in addition to practicing the exercises, reading the Fa, and sending forth righteous thoughts, telling people about the persecution is also important. First, I clarified the truth to my loved ones, then to friends and strangers. I learned how to use a computer, and I made friends on the Internet.

In 2004 I began participating in parades on the National Day and National Challenge Day to promote Falun Dafa. 

Before COVID began spreading at the end of 2019 the Petronas Twin Towers in KLCC was one of Malaysia’s most popular tourist destinations. On weekends buses filled with Chinese tourists came to KLCC. Falun Dafa practitioners were there to welcome them. Some held display boards and others held banners with information about Falun Dafa, the persecution and the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) live organ harvesting.

Master Protects Me

When I was waiting for the bus near the tourist attraction, it started to rain lightly. I took out my raincoat and put it on. After a while, the bus came. I got on but it was full, so I stood in the aisle. 

The bus driver accelerated very quickly. Suddenly a person crossed the road in front of the bus. The driver braked. I was not holding on to the bar, instead I was putting my raincoat away. I was thrown and crashed into the wall opposite the driver’s seat. The back of my head and my back slammed into the bus. 

I was shocked. When I touched my head it felt hot, but it didn’t hurt. I was still holding my bag. Someone quickly helped me up and told me what happened. When I got home, I examined my head. There wasn’t any blood or even bruises. Only my fingers were scratched a little. I realized that Master was mercifully looking after me.

Amazing Experience

One day after lunch, I took a nap on the sofa in the living room. My eyes were slightly closed. Suddenly there was a sound like a fast turning windmill. The sound came from underneath my back. The fan in the living room was not on. I felt a little scared and I dared not open my eyes. Then, I felt that my body was lying flat and floating, and I slowly drifted to the window. I felt my body slowly drift back to the sofa and drop to its original position. The whirling sound disappeared. Only then did I dare to open my eyes, and everything returned to normal.

My experience reminded me of what Master said,

“It’s very easy for practitioners to float into the air; this is something that today’s science cannot explain. Actually, a person can float in the air when all of the energy channels in his body have been opened up.” “As for the issue of the true soul, it’s easy for some people’s true souls to leave the body and it’s difficult for others. Once you left your body, the Falun spurred your floating body into motion, and so you spun very quickly.” (Lecture Given at the Conference in Sydney)

Clarifying the Truth

I was distributing The Epoch Times near a food stall when I suddenly heard a voice behind me, “Hey! Give me the newspaper!” It was a fish vendor. He didn’t take the newspaper I offered. Instead he said, “All day long you guys criticize the Chinese Communist Party…” 

I calmly told him that the CCP is not China, what the CCP is, how it started, and why the CCP persecutes Falun Dafa. I said that The Epoch Times reports the truth. He calmed down. He asked for a copy. 

Afterwards, I walked back to the food stall and continued to distribute papers. I suddenly remembered that I needed to give him additional information about Falun Dafa. I went back to him. Two weeks later when I gave him a new newspaper, he told me that he spent one night reading it carefully and thought it was very good. He asked for a few more copies so that his friends could also read it. 

One time when practitioners were waiting for the Chinese tourists to arrive at a tourist attraction, the first bus parked next to where I was standing. A local tour guide got out and saw me holding a display board with the words: “Bring Jiang Zemin to Justice.” I smiled and said, “Hi!” 

His face was expressionless, then he said, “Where are you from? What are you doing here? Why aren’t you home?” I could tell from his accent that he was a local. I replied, “I am Malaysian. I have finished my chores. I am here to tell people the truth.” 

He said, “So many things are happening in Malaysia. Yet, you’re talking about other countries’ affairs.” I said, “I’m here because I care about Malaysia, and I also care about the whole world! I know that the CCP is covering up the truth and persecuting a group of good people in China who practice Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.” He quietly listened and then walked back to the bus.

Family Troubles

I felt that I didn’t do well in my cultivation. About 6 years ago my youngest daughter gave birth to her first baby, and she needed help. She worked as a teacher, and would not be able to fully take care of her baby. She thought of me. With her husband’s consent she asked me to live with them in West Malaysia. 

I didn’t study the Fa deeply, and I was attached to emotion. After living with them for a long time, I developed complaints and resentment. When conflicts surfaced, I didn’t examine myself to see which attachment the issue was exposing.

Sometimes when the child got emotional with her mother, I tried to intervene. I regretted it later, and blamed myself for being unable to let go of my attachment to sentiment. However, I repeatedly committed the same mistake. 

After thinking about it I realized my mistake. The child knew that her mother was leaving to teach a class, she asked her mother to play with her. My daughter said it was time and left in a hurry. The child began crying non stop. I was annoyed and I told the child, “If you want to cry, go outside and cry.” It got worse. Later, running out of options, I remembered that I saved Dafa disciples’ songs in my mobile phone. So, I played them for her. She calmed down after listening to them. 

After looking inside I asked myself, “Did I behave like a cultivator?” The next morning, after she had breakfast, I apologized and told her I shouldn’t have hurt her by saying something like that. 

One time I was feeding a child, after taking a few mouthfuls, the child didn’t want to eat anymore. I took the bowl to the kitchen. I suddenly felt something being thrown from behind me. I noticed that it was the pot filled with the child’s food. The child’s father, my son-in-law, was angry and threw it at me. I felt intimidated, but my heart was very calm. I understood that this was a test I had to pass. A cultivator should always look inside, and see whether there is anything they have not done well. 

Master said,

“In this universe, there is another principle: If you have suffered a lot, the karma in your body will be transformed. Because you have suffered, however much you have endured will all be transformed into an equal amount of de. Isn’t this de what a practitioner wants?” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

With Master’s compassionate hints and through the guidance of the Fa, all conflicts in the family were resolved one by one. Our relationships are now harmonious. 

Conclusion

Looking back over the 17 years of my cultivation journey, I’ve experienced many trials and tribulations. Master always took care of me, and gave me hints and many opportunities. Especially when I was going through illness karma, compassionate Master always looked after me. Under Master’s protection, I overcame them! Now the Fa-rectification is transitioning to the Fa-rectification of the human world. In the short time left, I will do the three things well and live up to Master’s expectations!

Thank you, Master, for saving us!

(Presented at the 2022 Malaysia Fa Conference)