(Minghui.org) My mother and I started practicing Falun Dafa in 2003. As I was still very young, I just listened to my mother read the Fa. I knew that Dafa was good but I did not understand what it meant to cultivate.
As a child I suffered a lot of hardship and felt that life was unfair. This resulted in my developing a strong mentality of protecting myself. I became very sensitive to my self-interests and was irritable and competitive. I dropped out of school when I was fifteen. I went to a big city to work. But no matter where I went, I brought Zhuan Falun with me and Master Li (the founder of Falun Dafa) always looked after me.
In 2015, I didn’t have my period for a few months. I remembered what Master said, “since there is an essential energy involved in this blood that’s needed in mind-body practice.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun) I realized that this was not a correct state. Even elderly ladies have their periods. I am so young, why did my period stop? When I told my mother, she asked me to return home. I quit my job and went home.
After returning home, I joined others in suing Jiang Zemin (the former head of the Chinese Communist Party who initiated the persecution of Falun Dafa). I studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts with my mother. I also joined the local group Fa study. Two weeks later, my period resumed. I also discovered more than ten Udumbara flowers in our home. This was the first time I’ve seen this flower so I was very excited. We later found Udumbara flowers in the house twice. I knew that Master was encouraging me to cherish Falun Dafa and cultivate diligently.
The other practitioners encouraged me to look for work in the area. They said that if I worked locally, I would not be separated from the Fa-study environment. However, I’d already decided to find a job in another city.
A few days after Chinese New Year, I packed my luggage and was getting ready to leave. That night, I had a clear dream. This dream was a turning point in my life. In the dream, I walked towards a public toilet. The people who were coming out of it smeared dirty stuff on my arm. I felt disgusted but I kept walking towards the toilet. The scene inside the toilet was even more disgusting. It was filthy and filled with all sorts of people. Just then, I fell head first to the floor. Just as I was feeling disgusted and helpless, a group of people came over to pull me up. They lifted me, but I dropped to the floor again. This was repeated a few times. The scene then changed to the corridor of a secondary school. So many people were lined up that I could not see the start of the line. A teacher came over and said, “Let’s see if we can let you go home.” With that, I woke up from the dream.
I had a good cry. I understood Master’s painstaking enlightenment. Benevolent Master was still giving me a chance. I knew I must cultivate diligently. All lives came for the Fa. I cannot be lost in the mundane world and forget my mission, hovering between fame and gain and Dafa. I decided not to leave but to study the Fa and cultivate at home with my mother.
One day, as I was memorizing Hong Yin, I felt that time seemed to be running out. Is Fa rectification ending so soon? I felt very anxious. I know that I must use the remaining time to catch up with the Fa rectification as time does not wait. I must get rid of my remaining attachments quickly. I felt anxious. The more anxious I became, the more the attachments I felt that I had yet to get rid of. I worried, with so many attachments still remaining, how am I going to follow Master home?!
That night, I had another dream. I dreamed that Master was dressed in a western suit. I told him that I still have many attachments which I had yet to get rid of. Master smiled at me benevolently, encouraging me to get rid of the attachments. His smile was so benevolent and peaceful that it motivated me！
Since then, I remind myself to cultivate my every thought and place strict demands on myself. I always remember that I am a Falun Dafa practitioner.
When I attended school, I clarified the truth to my classmates. After I started working, I clarified the truth to my friends and colleagues. After I returned home, I sometimes went out to clarify the truth directly face-to-face to strangers.
When I rode the bus one day I listened to the song Singing to Master. I closed my eyes lightly and suddenly saw (through my third eye) that the bus caught on fire. I rose up and watched as all the people on the bus were engulfed in flames. I felt an unspeakable grief. I want to save even more people to prevent them from being eliminated. Just as the lyrics of the song goes, “We came for the sentient beings, we are not afraid of hardships in the process of assisting Master in Fa-rectification.” After I got off the bus I talked to four people and helped them quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations.
In 2020, the COVID pandemic was rampant, and most businesses were closed. Since I could not work, I went out with my mother every day to clarify the truth. We posted truth-clarifying stickers along the way. One incident left a deep impression on me. It helped me experience the power of benevolence.
A man was sweeping the road so I started up a conversation with him. I told him about the Tiananmen self-immolation hoax and how the current pandemic serves as a warning to mankind to see through the evil nature of the CCP. I said that millions of Chinese have chosen a bright future for themselves by renouncing the CCP. He said, “When a person dies, he dies. All that is left is a piece of meat.” His expression was numb and helpless. I said that human beings have souls and past and present lives too. However, he just would not listen and kept walking. I felt that he was very pitiful.
Master said,
“...think about why so many high-level beings dared to take such a perilous risk and come to the Three Realms. They are gods, so how could we not save them? Didn’t they come to obtain the Fa? If you look at it from another perspective, wasn’t their bravery in coming here a way of validating the Fa-rectification and placing their hope in the Fa-rectification? That’s why I have said that we cannot leave them behind, and that we must save them and think of ways to save them!” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2005 Manhattan International Fa Conference,” Collected Teachings Given Around the World Volume V)
As I recalled Master’s Fa, compassion welled up in my heart. I asked Master to help me. From the bottom of my heart, I really wanted to save this man. My mother and I sent forth righteous thoughts to get rid of whatever was controlling him.
I walked up to him again and said, “You do not think that your life is important, but our Master cherishes every being, so he asks us practitioners to tell people the truth so that you will not be deceived by the CCP’s lies. We may have made an agreement in a past lifetime that one day I would help you. We Dafa practitioners are risking our lives and are misunderstood by people. Yet we still clarify the truth so that you can have a wonderful future. If I do not help you understand the truth and make the right choice, it will be my greatest regret.”
When I said that, he smiled and said, “I understand now. Really, thank you for helping me quit the CCP and its youth organizations today.” I knew that his knowing side really understood and he was thanking me from the bottom of his heart. I said, “Thank our Master. It is Master who asked us to do all this. I am really happy that you understand the truth.”
As I left we waved goodbye to each other. In fact, we should look at our own hearts instead of the person’s attitude when we clarify the truth. If you have the steadfast thought of saving that person no matter what his attitude is, everything will be arranged by Master.
I also started producing truth-clarification materials and bought a second-hand printer.
At the beginning of 2022, I turned on the printer. I discovered that the drawings I printed out had colored stripes on them. This was the first time this had happened. I bought a cleaning solution to dip the printer head in and dried it before I re-installed it. However, not only did the problem not go away, it stopped printing in color. I kept trying for a few days, but it just did not work. I gave up.
By March 2022, the pandemic became serious in our area, and no one could go out. My mother said that practitioners were out of truth-clarifying materials and it would be good if we could print some to distribute in our district. However, due to my laziness, I did not try out the printer. During the more than two months of isolation, I just stayed at home, read the Fa, hand copied the Fa and memorized the Fa. I did not realize how urgent it was to save people then.
In May 2022, when the lockdown was finally lifted, my mother and I went out to the streets to clarify the truth. We talked to a gentleman. He agreed with what we said and quit the CCP and its youth organizations. Afterwards, he asked if we had anything he could read. My heart shuddered. I felt ashamed of myself for not placing importance on matters with regards to saving people. I knew that Master was enlightening me about my responsibilities. I should not cause delays just because of my attachment to laziness. I told him that there are no materials now but we would come back in a few days. I would definitely have some materials then. He laughed, and said okay.
After returning home, I stood in front of Master’s portrait, placed my palms together (in the heshi position) and said to Master, “I know that I am wrong. I did not place importance on saving people. I just enjoyed being comfortable. Please help me and let the printer function normally again.”
Then, I walked over to the printer and said, “You are a life that Dafa has created. You need to assimilate with Dafa. It is your honor to participate. Let us cooperate well to assist Master in Fa rectification.” After that, I turned on the printer and everything was back to normal. The drawings were even brighter than before. I put my palms together and thanked Master once again. Tears flowed down my cheeks as I thanked Master for helping me.
Later, my mother went to that place to clarify the truth again and she really met that gentleman again and gave him the truth-clarifying booklet.
No matter how chaotic the world becomes, practitioners’ steadfast hearts will not change. We should make use of the remaining limited time to try our best to make up for what we have not done well, reduce the losses, and help save even more people.
Our millions of years of reincarnation is for this Fa rectification. We went through countless vicissitudes and it is not easy for every being to be here today. We must cherish it! Recalling my own path of cultivation, there were hardships and happiness. No matter what, they are inseparable from Master’s taking care of us and the guidance from Dafa. Master has arranged the best and most straightforward path for every one of his Dafa disciples to return home. We should cultivate diligently and help save more people. Let’s not disappoint Master’s expectations of us, and let’s try to be worthy of his benevolence and salvation!