(Minghui.org) I feel some of the issues mentioned in Master’s two recent articles apply to me. I’ve cultivated for many years, but I’ve also approached the “peril” Master mentioned.
My family members were persecuted in 2012. When I could not help them, I became resentful and began to complain about Master. That same night, I dreamed I was on a battlefield, and the old forces were shooting at Falun Dafa practitioners with machine guns. Master told everyone to quickly squat down, because the old forces could not aim that low. Because I wasn’t quick enough, I just lowered my head and felt a bullet graze my scalp. When I woke up, I realized that I had committed a great sin—I was resentful.
Another time, I didn’t control my xinxing over something minor, and I developed a grudge against Master. The next day I “caught a cold.” When my wife asked me what was wrong, I said that I was eliminating karma. She asked me if I’d done anything wrong. I thought it over carefully, identified my mistake, and admitted to Master what I’d done wrong. The “cold” disappeared instantly.
After these two lessons, I truly realized that complaining about Dafa and Master is a line that cultivators must never cross. Crossing it will bring danger, for it is the greatest sin in the universe. All lives are created by Dafa, and Master has given everything he has to save us.
In fact, I have personally experienced how Master bears our karma and sins. After my family members were kidnapped, I checked on the house they rented. I saw that it had been ransacked and was in shambles. I was depressed.
Master saw that I was sad and let me see the pain he endured for my two family members. Because what I saw was not in the human dimension, I couldn’t see it clearly at first. But as the scene zoomed in, I was able to clearly see how much Master endured for them. What I saw is difficult to describe with human language. I saw Master being crushed into ten thousand pieces. For these two disciples, his body was crushed.
I’d never seen such a tragic scene in my life, and I began to weep. I couldn’t take it, and I asked Master not to show me anymore. The scene gradually faded.
A few years ago, one of my relatives was persecuted again. That time, my determination to cultivate was shaken for the first time. I even thought about giving up cultivation. After a short period of reflection, my righteous thoughts prevailed. I decided to continue cultivating and let go of everything. At that moment, I burst into tears. I remembered what Master said in Teachings From a Tour of North America:
“They would say: “This is your disciple? Do you think he sees you as his Master? Has he regarded himself as a cultivator? Does he have righteous thoughts? Has he put aside the thought of life and death? Has he remained solid and unshakable, like diamond?” At those moments, Master really couldn’t respond to them in the face of their criticism.”
I enlightened to many Fa principles at that moment. I realized that it was not that Master is unable to solve the problem for me. It was because I didn’t let go of the attachment to whether my relative lived or died. I was the one gumming up the situation and that is why Master couldn’t help.
I later dream that in another lifetime this relative killed someone, destroyed the evidence, and escaped. When I woke up I thought, “How he can repay such a huge karmic debt?” But Master has already told us what to do. That is, let go of all attachments and firmly follow the path to help Master to rectify the Fa. Seven months later, my relative came home through an amazing process. I didn’t expect that he would be released.
Master said in “Stay Far Away From Peril,”
“While Master is saving you, He also bears your sins for you and even finds all kinds of ways to offset your karma—it is you who is indebted to Master.”
I believe that it was because we did what Master asked, that, while bearing our karma, Master also managed to offset our karma and a miracle happened.
Over the years I’ve gradually learned some things about my previous lifetimes—I’ve seen that all my troubles and suffering in this lifetime have karmic reasons behind them, including my appearance, my relationship with my wife, conflicts with my coworkers, and my income. Even the recent accident in which I lost my toenails was caused by bad things I did in a previous lifetime. In fact, I have only paid back a small part.
Master does not owe us; it is we who are indebted to Master.
Editor’s note: This article only represents the author’s understanding in their current cultivation state meant for sharing among practitioners so that we can “Compare with one another in study, in cultivation.” (“Solid Cultivation,” Hong Yin)