(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa two months ago, and my xinxing underwent dramatic changes. I hope my experience can remind families and children to avoid the harm of the Internet.
I’m 46 years old, run a small coffee shop, and my family life is harmonious. When I wasn’t busy at work, I went to beauty salons, or had massages. I also shopped online, or surfed the Internet on my phone. I lived in the online world every day—I was driven by various desires and was never satisfied. I looked at my phone the moment I opened my eyes in the morning. When I couldn’t look at my phone because I was working or taking a shower, I listened to novels. I didn’t let my eyes or ears rest for a minute. I had to feel that my life was interesting and fun all the time. After living like this for a long time, I felt exhausted and my temper was bad.
I stayed up late reading online novels one night. Some of the content was weird and scary. But I kept reading with great interest at first and thought the author was amazing; each plot sparked my imagination. I thought it would be great if I could write such a story. I was unaware of the time and noticed it was 3:00 a.m.
I suddenly felt terrified, as though something evil was attacking my chest. I had difficulty breathing, and felt I was surrounded by a suffocating fear. I had a thought of jumping out of the window and knew something was wrong.
Fortunately, my mother has been practicing Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. When she realized something was wrong, she quickly told me to repeat, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I knew that only Dafa could save me!
Although my panic attack passed, from that day on, I couldn’t eat, couldn’t talk much, and couldn’t take care of my children. I only felt calm when I read Zhuan Falun or did the exercises. Only then did I understand the consequences of indulging my desires.
Through studying the Fa (Falun Dafa’s teachings), I realized that my body and mind had been occupied by desires, such as a gluttonous appetite, lust, showing off my superiority, and a deep resentment towards my mother. These dirty things were fed and strengthened in the online world, and negative substances took advantage of the state I was in.
As my mother and I read the Fa, I kept looking inward and identified these bad thoughts. I learned to differentiate which thoughts were not mine, but were false ones composed of human notions and thought karma.
When I read the Fa and practiced the exercises on the fifth day after I started studying Dafa, Master showed me his law body. I saw a huge Falun (law wheel) spinning behind him. My mother and I couldn’t help but burst into tears, and we immediately bowed to Master!
I felt that a large piece of a cold substance was pushed out of my chest. I knew that compassionate Master was eliminating my karma and helping me to get through this tribulation. Benevolent and great Master saved my life, and my gratitude cannot be expressed in words.
My mother told me that practitioners in the local Fa-study group wept when they heard that I began practicing. I realized it wasn’t easy for me to obtain the Fa, but Master gave me the opportunity to be saved. I will definitely cherish this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity!
Since I just started practicing and I didn’t know much about cultivation, I talked with my mother about whether something I did was in line with the Fa. I want to learn to differentiate between my true self and my notions. I now understand what acquired notions and thought karma are. I focus on reading Zhuan Falun as well as Master’s Fa lectures given in various places.
By studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending forth righteous thoughts every day, I’ve become increasingly stronger. I’ve now recovered, and my mind and body have completely changed. I understand that the meaning of life is to return to one’s true nature.
Several Significant Changes
I used to snore loudly when I was sleeping. My mother said that she could not sleep well in the next room because of all the noise I made. After I started practicing the exercises, I no longer snore.
I also used to have heart issue, and I always felt tired. I often went to see Chinese medicine doctors and took various health products. I’ve since stopped thinking that I’m sick. Through studying the Fa, I understand that my illness symptoms are caused by karma. Master helped me eliminate this karma.
I’ve begun going to bed early, and I get up early every day. Before I go to bed, I recite: “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I no longer have those messy dreams, and I’m much healthier than before.
Lastly, I stopped looking at my mobile phone. I deleted all the novels and stopped following the news on social media. I now read the Fa whenever I have free time, and every day is very fulfilling.
During these two months, I’ve grown to appreciate the majesty and beauty of Dafa, and I’m infinitely grateful that Master did not give up on me. I often feel that I’m so lucky to be practicing Falun Dafa. How lucky I am to be able to enter Dafa cultivation at such a critical moment in these last days! I can’t express my feelings in words; I can only be diligent, to repay Master’s compassionate salvation!