My Internet Problems Pointed Out My Attachments

(Minghui.org) I started visiting the Minghui.org website (blocked in China) in 2012 via Dynaweb, a web-based anti-censorship portal. I was able to access the portal quickly. The signal was sometimes weak, but I could still connect.

Accessing Dynaweb has been difficult recently. I kept clicking on the link, and tried to connect at different times every day but I was still not able to get on the website. I was able to log on only twice during the past two months. I had to complete everything that I needed to do in a rush before the signal dropped.

I was able to access the portal only after I asked Master to help me. I sometimes felt that I should not be troubling Master every time I needed to use the portal. I was not viewing the issue as a practitioner, however, and I did not examine myself for attachments. I felt depressed. I began to feel like the cultivators in the past who cultivated by themselves deep in the mountains.

My nine year old grandson visited one day, and I told him about my connection issues. I felt sad that I wasn’t able to send New Year’s greetings to Master.

My grandson asked me to go online, and said, “You can definitely access it!” I opened my computer. After the connection status showed, “Serious firewall” I immediately logged off. My grandson said seriously, “You don’t have enough patience. You should wait!” I didn’t say anything because I could usually connect after re-starting my computer.

I later realized that Master was trying to enlighten me through the child, but I did not understand, or think about looking within. I sometimes had a thought: Is it because my attachment to human relationships (between classmates, colleagues, fellow practitioners, my hometown, and family) caused me to be tied down? Or did I miss some software updates that caused this?

I should have been looking within at myself to see if I had followed the Dafa principles. Instead, I kept looking outward. I felt the portal block was too big, and I felt helpless.

I practice by myself. I previously read other practitioners’ sharing articles on Minghui.org about circumventing the Internet censorship. I did not have a good understanding of the Fa teachings, so the articles on Minghui.org were a great help to me. Now that I was no longer able to access the portal and had no practitioners to exchange cultivation thoughts with, I felt isolated.

Looking Inward

I fell asleep when I read the Fa and I had trouble memorizing it, so I realized it was time to rectify myself. In the past, I seldom sent righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference in my environment, so I increased the number of times I was sending righteous thoughts. Thanks to benevolent Master’s empowerment my issues were all resolved.

I continued trying to access the website after I finished reading the Fa every day. There was no signal for more than ten days. I thought perhaps it was because I had looked at other websites while browsing the Internet, and I was attached to them. Or perhaps Master was asking me to calm my heart, study the Fa, and eliminate those bad substances.

When I examined myself, I was indeed attracted by some news across the world. I felt restless and wished to return to my hometown and be with other practitioners.

I thought I should listen to Master, calm down, and study the Fa. I memorized the last three pages of the Ninth Lecture in Zhuan Falun, then read Master’s Teachings Given on Lantern Festival Day, 2003. After reading two pages, I saw this teaching:

“They have never been able to block the Minghui website!” (Teachings Given on Lantern Festival Day, 2003)

I was surprised. Master saw that I had a shallow understanding of the Fa so he was helping me! As I studied the book, I read out loud, “They have never been able to block the Minghui website!”

Just then I had a thought. The problem lay in my cultivation state. I had loopholes that gave the old forces excuses to interfere. In that instant, I saw many of my attachments, including fear, being impatient, being non-tolerant, relying on others, being lazy, seeking comfort and results, looking outward, attachment to happiness and showing off, etc. I asked Master to help me eliminate the negative substances that were stopping me from accessing Minghui.org.

Fifteen minutes later I turned on my computer and successfully connected to the website. The signal was especially strong and the connection speed was fast. That kind of feeling was really moving... But in that instant, I caught hold of the attachment to feeling joyful and eliminated it.

Thank you, Master, for helping me see my attachments and eliminate them. Thank you, Master, for your benevolent salvation! I am now able to access the portal every day!