(Minghui.org) Ying moved in next door last year. We immediately became friends and talked about everything. She confided in me and said she attempted suicide twice. She also said she had many unanswered questions about life.
I recommended she read Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa, and told her she could find the answers to life’s mysteries and why people suffer. After she read the book, the changes in her were enormous. She was no longer a depressed, timid, sad girl. She became healthy and happy. We all witnessed how wonderful Falun Dafa is through her amazing changes.
Below are Ying’s stories.
I remember when I was in heaven. God sent me to go to the dark side to fulfill my assignment. I was told I would meet a god there who could help me.
However, when I got there, I felt an evil energy and the atmosphere was very bad, so I fled. Soldiers were hot on my heels and tried to stop me from escaping. Returning to heaven was out of the question, so I fled to earth.
When I entered the belly of a pregnant woman I heard someone shout, “You can’t escape! Go to earth!” Then I was born into the human world.
My parents divorced when I was young and my mother raised me. She never liked me so she constantly scolded and beat me. I was always cold and hungry, and I was afraid to go home.
The villagers took pity on me and gave me food and shelter. I always wondered why my mother didn’t want me.
When I was in junior high, a classmate and I felt we met before. I noticed two scars on his chest one day, and I suddenly, recalled a scene: I met a little boy in heaven who kept crying, and no one could comfort him. I went up to him and he immediately smiled and stopped crying.
At that moment someone suddenly rushed towards me and pulled out a spear to stab me. The little boy jumped up and stood in front of me, and he was stabbed in the chest. I tried to wipe the blood from his gaping wound.
The little boy was also punished and sent to earth, and was made to suffer. He was not allowed to speak to his father, so in this lifetime, his father was deaf and mute.
Six years ago, my mother became enraged with me over a trivial matter. I couldn’t let go of the resentment I had towards her. I was extremely distressed. I decided it would be better to die and be done with it. I began thinking about committing suicide.
That night I wept with sadness—my life was so miserable. With a trembling hand, I took a knife and slashed my wrist. An inch-long wound began dripping with blood.
I was about to make a second cut when suddenly an intense golden light shot out of the wall opposite me. I raised my blurry, tearful eyes and saw the solemn, compassionate figure of a Buddha and powerful energy enveloped me. I felt warm and comfortable. My mind went blank. All suffering and pain disappeared. I was no longer suicidal.
Three years ago, when the COVID-19 pandemic was in full swing, I was unemployed and at home. My mother scolded me every day and demanded that I go out and look for a job. I suffered physically and mentally, and was in agony. I felt my future was uncertain and I had no way out. Once again, I thought of committing suicide.
I went to the river near my hometown and stood on a bridge looking down at the rolling water. I thought, “This time no one can stop me, I will kill myself.” Without hesitation, I walked towards the river and looked straight ahead. The moment I was about to step into the water, a tall and majestic figure of Buddha appeared in front of me.
Then, I heard the Buddha say: “This is where you go when you die!” The rushing river disappeared—instead there a blackened hell, in which people were in great pain. Their faces were expressionless. They were trapped and had no place to escape to.
I was stunned. In that instant, I understood, and I burst into tears. The Buddha once again prevented me from committing suicide, telling me clearly that suicide would not only fail to relieve my suffering, but would also cause even more pain and suffering. I immediately dismissed the idea of suicide. The image of hell disappeared and the river returned. The Buddha saved me again.
Then I remembered that before I came to earth, I heard the gods in heaven saying that I came to the human world with a great mission, and they would watch over me. From then on, whenever I had a bad thought, a voice or an image would remind me, and I quickly removed the bad thought.
Nine years ago, I dreamed of a man from the south. Through my third eye I saw I would be married twice. My first marriage would be to this man from the south. I would suffer great harm. He abused alcohol, was addicted to gambling, had numerous affairs, and also physically abused me. I would be heartbroken and leave him. In my second marriage, I would marry a northern man and I would be happy and fulfilled. I went to a fortune teller twice and what he told me confirmed my vision.
The year before last, I went to Shanghai to work. I met the southern man, and we became good friends. I liked him very much. However, I often remembered my vision, and I felt very conflicted! Was it true that I couldn’t escape my destiny? I wanted to meet someone who could help me escape. I did not want a painful marriage. But the more I tried to escape, the more painful it became, as if an invisible rope tied me tightly to the man. I was unable to break free.
I used to agonize over not being able to find my purpose in life, and that I couldn’t extricate myself from the grudges with my mother. I felt I was unable to break free from my destiny. Last year, I began reading Zhuan Falun, and I wept with joy. I was glad that I finally found the answer to my life.
People do not live to pursue happiness, but to continuously improve their morals through the hardships of life. Whenever conflicts in life surface, one should look within and search for one’s shortcomings and rectify them. I also learned that I need to let go of my resentment towards my mother, and still honor and respect her.
Dafa indeed changed my life. I often wanted to end the relationship with the southern man to resolve our past entanglement. After I read Zhuan Falun, we were able to part as friends. I regained the peace in my heart. I no longer feel down and depressed, but full of hope for the future. My gratitude towards the founder of Falun Dafa, Master Li Hongzhi, is beyond words.