(Minghui.org) I am 64 years old and began to practice Falun Dafa in 1997. Even though I have gone through many ups and downs on my cultivation path, I have made it to this day with Master’s compassionate help.
I would like to share some issues I experienced while working with fellow practitioners over the past year.
I was arrested for clarifying the truth in September 2020. After returning home, I was forced to leave because I did not want to face continued police harassment. In June 2022 I rented an apartment and began to work with fellow practitioner Anxin to clarify the truth and save people.
We went to many markets, near and far, regardless of the weather. Nothing could stop us from saving people, because we know that is our mission and responsibility during the Fa-rectification. Before we set out each time, we asked Master to bring predestined people to us to hear the truth and to prevent the evil people and factors that could interfere with saving them.
Once at a market, I saw a middle-aged man buying vegetables. At a glance, I could tell he was not an ordinary person, and I begged Master to help me save him. I greeted him and said, “I’d like to give you a USB flash drive. It has movies, folk art, history, current affairs, traditional and culture—all positive. You will be blessed if you watch it.”
He said okay and thanked me. Then I asked, “Are you a Chinese Communist Party (CCP) member?” He said he was. I said, “You should quit that atheist party and its youth organizations. Heaven will destroy it. If you quit, the gods and Buddhas will protect you and you will not go down with the CCP. I will give you a pseudonym.” He said okay and was saved just like that.
Practitioner Bing is 79 years old and has joined our truth-clarification group. She can’t ride a bike, so she asked Anxin to give her rides. She is very good at clarifying the truth and doesn’t look her age.
One day, the three of us took amulets, truth clarification booklets, and USB flash drives to a small market. Because we went early in the day, there weren’t many people there yet. I saw a woman in her 60s pushing a tricycle selling vegetables. I went over to her and said, “I want to give you an amulet to keep you safe.” She accepted it.
I said, “If you sincerely recite ‘Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,’ you will be safe and blessed. Have you ever joined the CCP or its youth organizations?”
She said, “I once was a CCP member, but they expelled me because I had a second child during the one-child policy period.”
I said, “That might not count. This withdrawal now is for the gods to see. When you joined the CCP, you made a vow to dedicate your life to it. It marked you. Now that heaven is destroying the CCP, the gods will only help you erase the mark of the beast if you quit the CCP to eradicate that vow. That way, you will not go down with the CCP when it collapses.” She agreed to quit.
I said I would give her a pseudonym, but she said she would just withdraw using her real name. I felt that, due to the truth-clarification efforts by fellow practitioners over the years, many people there already understood the truth, and their gratitude for Dafa was very touching. When we clarified the truth at that market, many people were willing to listen and quit the CCP. Although it was a small market, we helped 38 people quit the Party in one morning.
Once, the sky was very dark, and it seemed as if it was going to rain. We wondered if we should go or not. Then we thought, “If we skip today, wouldn’t we miss a chance to save people if it didn’t rain?” So we took our raincoats and set off. On the way, I said to the rain, “Please don’t rain this morning, because we are going to save people. You can make it rain in the afternoon.” When we got there, we clarified the truth and helped people quit the CCP. It turned out to be sunny. Looking at the list of people who had quit the CCP, our hearts were filled with joy.
Another time, it was cloudy, but it didn’t look as if it was going to rain. Anxin and I went to a big market 15 miles away and talked to people from the east end all the way to the west end of the market. After we finished, it started to rain. We hurried home as it rained harder and harder. We rode in the wind and rain for more than an hour. Our clothes were soaked and we were a little tired, but we felt very happy and relieved.
We received a batch of calendar plates and printed desk calendar pages and wall calendar pages in October 2022. However, due to the pandemic lockdown, we were unable to meet again to put them together. Time passed, and it was almost the end of November. The coordinator was very worried about it.
One day, the coordinator asked me to find another practitioner and go the following day to help other practitioners make the calendars as quickly as possible. We had to assemble them before the end of the year, and other practitioners then still had to distribute them. I agreed. I used to only clarify the truth and had never made calendars before, but it was something that needed to be done, I knew I had to help.
The following day, Anxin and I went and saw four practitioners already working on the calendars. We divided up the work. I was responsible for packaging the finished products. Although the other practitioners were all over 60, they were very fast. We started at 1 p.m., and by 5 p.m. we had assembled over 300 calendars.
We continued to make them the next afternoon, and we delivered them to fellow practitioners at night according to the coordinator’s instructions. Since it would be more difficult for practitioners to carry large boxes, we used small boxes to make it easier for frontline practitioners to carry them.
We did that for a week. Then the pandemic situation worsened again, and the place where we worked was closed down and outside people could not get in. Moreover, some practitioners were locked down at home and could not leave. The coordinator asked everyone to strengthen sending righteous thoughts and dismantle the blockade. After a week, the lockdown was over, and we again gave it our best effort to make the best and most beautiful calendars. Fellow practitioners all worked hard, and we caught up with the pace they were being distributed and had dozens of boxes of calendars ready to go. Bing and I then went to find Cai and Dan to help distribute them. I put the calendars in one place, and they would pick them up from there after they finished distributing a batch.
Given Master’s compassion, his protection, and fellow practitioners’ cooperation, we were able to successfully assemble and distribute of all the calendars.
In addition to clarifying the truth, I was also responsible for delivering materials to practitioners. The practitioners who made the materials regularly brought them to my place, and I delivered them to fellow practitioner Jia and a few others.
Even though I’d returned, ever since that time I left, the police often went to my home to look for me and harass my family. One night, I took the pork I’d bought for my daughter to her home. She told me that she’d gone to the police station to take care of some business, and the police told her that I was a fugitive and it would affect her future employment. My daughter was resentful of me. When I left her place and went downstairs, she threw the pork out. I picked up the pork, didn’t say anything, and went back to my apartment.
Of course I would not acknowledge the persecution, but it still made me fearful. At first, I would get scared even when there were only a few dozen Dafa brochures stored at my place.
Once, I took 100 brochures from another practitioner to distribute them around my apartment complex. But then fear hit me. I felt that my dimensional field was not clean, and there was a lot of interference. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the bad substances in other dimensions and felt much better.
Another time, just when I thought that there was something wrong with my xinxing, a practitioner delivered the materials to me, and I became scared right away. I didn’t sleep and sent forth righteous thoughts that entire night. I felt as if the authorities were coming for me. The next morning, I moved the materials to another place, and I felt more at ease.
I looked inside: Why was I always interfered with? One reason was that I regarded this fear as part of myself, but in fact it was not me; it was imposed by the old forces, and I needed to clear them out with righteous thoughts. Another reason was that I regarded the materials as evidence of the persecution. That mentality was not righteous—it was same as acknowledging the arrangements by the old forces. Master did not arrange for Dafa practitioners to endure persecution, and we will never acknowledge this persecution. Dafa practitioners are here to assist Master in Fa-rectification and save sentient beings and should never be persecuted. Truth-clarification materials are tools for saving people, and they should be safe wherever they are stored.
Due to my fear mentality, I asked Jia if the practitioner who delivered materials to me could just take them directly to her. She agreed, and we arranged everything. However, two days later, I was told that there were some problems at Jia’s place and the materials couldn’t be delivered to her after all.
During this process, I was also interfered with in other ways. I felt sleepy when I studied the Fa, my alarm to send forth righteous thoughts at midnight was turned off and I didn’t realized it, and I couldn’t get up do the exercises at 3 a.m. These were all incorrect states. But what caused them?
I examined myself carefully and found that I had a selfish mentality of protecting myself. I only considered my own safety and didn’t put myself in the shoes of fellow practitioners, which caused unnecessary trouble for them. Digging deeper, I found a mentality of wanting to shirk responsibility and being unwilling to contribute. I also had a notion that my job was solely to clarify the truth face to face, not to distribute materials, and that I was only helping fellow practitioners. I unconsciously separated myself from that issue.
I realized that practitioners are one-body. A practitioner cannot accomplish anything without Master’s protection and the efforts of many other practitioners. It is not accidental that the materials were to be stored at my place. It was something that I should do, and it was not something I was doing for other practitioners. Why did I push it away? I felt really ashamed. After thinking it through, the stone that was pressing on my heart was removed, and I knew what to do.
I know very well that, without Master’s compassionate protection, I would not be here today. What I have done is far, far from Master’s requirements. In the limited time left at the end of the Fa-rectification of the universe, I must study the Fa more, cultivate myself well, save more people, fulfill my prehistoric vows, complete my mission, and return to my true home with Master.